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OH GOD!!!!

I NEVER EXPECTED THIS BOOK TO GROW BECAUSE AS YOU CAN SEE IM VERY BAD AT WRITING ITS JUST A VERY LONG MONTH SINCE I STARTED...

I KNOW IM NOT UPDATING MUCH ANYMORE BECAUSE I JUST NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THE EVENTS IN MY LIFE LIKE HOW SHIT DID JD REJECTED ME FOR A HUNDREDTH TIME AND HOW DID SHE NEVER TALK TO ME AND WHEN I SMILE AT HER SHE LOOKS AWAY/LOOKS DOWN,OH IF I CAN ONLY PUT UP MY MIDDLE FINGER RIGHT IN HER FACE (fUcK yOu Jd!!!!) And it made me sad added with the pressure from my parents who wanted me to focus on my grades and wants me to be a perfect and an industrious person which is not me because I'm the exact opposite of it...it made me think negatively,I cant...I'll never be...I'm worthless...my classmates teases me alot calling me pig,loner and other kinds stuff...I just  laugh along with them...but they don't hell know what I was thinking inside my head. So I cut...it started from a needle and then a blade (which is commonly used for cutting) I was having a hard time using it so today after our Christmas Party where in our exchange gift I got two mugs...like last year...two fucking mugs!!!...I don't even remember the last time I got a perfect present than a mug...its always a mug....but I do get them...they can't afford anything because our States are the same...we're all poor...but I bought a 110 peso plain white T-shirt and as a return...two mugs...two mugs!!!!

As I was saying I'm having a hard time using a blade so earlier I bought myself a cutter...and in the right timing my parents yelled at me again for making another mistake...I used it...and it's faster and sharper than needles and blades...I actually carved a 'J' in my hand ..which symbolizes JD...
I just freaking love her to death...

But anyway thank you guys for
the support and yeah I'll try my best to update....see ya