(warning, slight language)
When I Can't Reach You

This sucks. This is pure torture. Hell.

Do you know what its like to be trapped in your own mind? Lost in a see of false memories, lies, and fabrications? Demons waiting in every corner of your mind, waiting to pounce?

How about what its like seeing everything you're doing, but not being able to stop yourself?

I was a monster.

But it wasn't me.

I feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I scream and fight, but nothing I do will work. The demon taking over my body was still rampaging.

That bastard...

How did this even happen? I let my guard down for one minute, and my whole world shifts. I became corrupt, and my mind filled with false hopes and lies.

My main regret, I never will get to make it up to her

(Y/N) was my everything. The closest I ever got to a happily ever after.

I remember everything clear as day....

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"I" walked up to (Y/N), tears already welling up in my eyes. It was like I was watching everything through a window, but I could see my own body.

She turned around, her (E/C) eyes lit up when she saw "me". She threw her ara around "my" neck.

"Zenix! I was so worried! Everyone says you've gone crazy! But I dont before them, I refuse to!" Tears of joy started to spill out, "sorry I'm such a mess, but I've been worried sick!"

"My" body was emotionless, and when she noticed, she grew concerned.

"Zenix...? What's wrong?"

"I" grew a sick and twisted smile, tears started to stream down my cheeks.

"No!!! Anyone but her!!" I yelled and punched at my "window", but nothing I could do could save her. She was doomed.

"Zenix? What're you doing with that sword? Zenix? Zenix?!"

"Don't worry, dear (Y/N), I'll make this....long and painful..." "I" laughed evilly.

"NO!!!! YOU CAN'T KILL HER!! SHE'S THE ONLY THING I LIVED FOR! SHE'S MY ANGEL! YOU CAN'T KILL HER!"

I fell to my knees, gripping my scalp and sobbing out useless and unheard cries.

Her (H/C) locks became stained with crimson as "I" carved her skin. The carvings on her perfectly fair cheeks mixed with tears, making her appear as if she were crying blood.

"NOOOOO! NOT! HER!" I started hitting the window as hard as i could, using all my strength and emotion.

But it was too late...

"I" had already killed her.

I dropped to my knees again, my heart shattering.

"Fool, you could never give her the life she deserved anyways"

My demon laughed.

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After (Y/N) died, I gave up. I stopped fighting the demon, and sat in the darkest corner. My knees pulled to my chest. Sobbing.

She was my angel. My sunlight. My everything. Her laugh was contagious, and we'd laugh so hard together, tears would gather in our eyes. Her (H/C) hair would tickle my cheek whenever I held her.

When I opened my eyes again, I was in a jail cell on the nether realm. The last sign that I had given up my body to the demon, and now I was a soul locked away and never to be seen again.

My tears were no longer water. They were smoke. It was like I was a ghost.
"You're here too?"

That voice...

I looked up, across my cell. (Y/N) sat there, scars covering her body. She stood up, not being a mere lost soul like me.

"You deserve it fr what you've done. For everyone you've hurt" she gripped the bars, looking out.

"I'm sorry" I whispered, closing my eyes. "But I give up"

She turned to me, her eyebrow raised out of confusion.

"I let my body become taken over, and now I'm in this prison. Alone. With you."

"Where is this prison anyways?"

"My mind"

"What?"

"We're trapped in my mind. You'll leave soon though, into heaven where angels belong"

"I'm confused"

"You're only here temporarily, because I used all my power I had left, on you. But I wont be able to keep you here long. You'll fade away, and I'll be alone."

"Zen..."

She reached out to touch me, but her hand just phased through, my skin separating into smoke and mist until she pulled away.

"I love you, (Y/N)

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A/N Alright, so a lot of the logic behind this is....false. I'm sorry! Its just...I'm working with what I got, and so far i have an exhausted mind and I've been writing all day pretty much so my creative faucet is a little dry.

Its probably VERY hard to understand the premise of this one shot...but I tried. I'm not too good at X readers, and also nobody suggested this, I just really love zenix.

Anyways! In case you havent guessed, tis me, Hope, the great and the wonderful....except right now.

Anyways I love you all devils, and if you aren't one of my devils, I love you too.

Byeeeeeeeee.

*Unedited

~ForeverEternity1717