Aphmau looked at the table, slamming on it in pure anger.

It had been a week since his death. She had gone through the second and third steps of grief at the same time, making her emotions all start at a very high level. Aphmau wasn't even sure if she could ever go through the process chronologically, they seemed to change each day.

Her fists banged down on the table once more as she groaned in frustration. She moved away from the table and paced around the table, running her hands in her hair, making it messier than usual.

Everything to Aphmau seemed so amplified to her, nothing seemed the same anymore. Her head pounded hearing the explosion in her ear once more. She could feel his bandana lay in her hands again as she clasped it to her heart like that would bring him back.

Speaking of that...

Aphmau looked at the table once more where the red bandana laid. She didn't let go of the bandana normally but this was the exception. In her fury, she didn't want to harm the fabric. It was one of the only things she had left of his.

She sighed, letting the tears left over from her anger drop onto the wood of the table, staining it. Her eyes turned to the tea Zoey left her and the bread Kawaii~chan left her. She wasn't eating as much as before but right now she needed something to occupy her time.

Aphmau pulled up a chair to the table, cutting herself a piece of the loaf of bread and dripped some of the tea into a cup. Sadly, she bit at the bread, dousing it down with tea and repeating that pattern.

It wasn't the a great filling of  a meal but it sure was satisfying to her. For a moment, she got a chance to sit down in the face-paced world of hers. It was a nice moment, pulled up against the table, just eating.

After she ate, she turned to Lilith who was currently fast asleep on the floor, mumbling something that faintly sounded like daddy. But since it was so soft, Aphmau didn't hear it all. She just took a sharp intake of breath, making herself pity herself for acting this way while Lillith was still impressionable.

Even if Lillith was young, she still understood some things. Like when Aphmau talked about him, pouring all the good thoughts to her. She never had talk about what happened even if it was inside of her, waiting to explode in her face.

Aphmau sipped the last of her tea, licking the crumb of bread off her fingers. She set the tea cup onto the counter onto the back of her as a reminder for her to clean it soon. Aphmau looked once more at the table where his bandana was.

She held it close to her heart, letting the waterworks flow once more, staining the table again. When she was done with her breakdown, she rested her head on the table, feeling the sense of sleepiness take over her.

She stroked the table before putting her hands under her head, mumbling to herself.

"Thanks for being there," she said, not thinking about how weird it was to talk to the table like it was a person, "Lillith may only see his good moments but you were there to see me yell about his bad moments."

She then fell fast asleep on the surface on the table.

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A/N - I know it isn't the best of one shots but I've been busy. I also wasn't in a creative mood but thought why the heck not make a semi-sad Tablemau one shot. I mean, I didn't kill off anyone this time, did I? Well...not non-canonly...I guess. Anyways, I hoped you all enjoyed! Buh-bye!

-Kat