**WARNING: THIS ONESHOT CONTAINS SUBJECTS REFERRING TO BULLYING AND ATTEMPTED HOMICIDE. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THESE TOPICS, VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED.**
ALSO IF YOUR AFRAID OF A LOT OF WORDS THIS HAS 2000 SO YEAH WOOPS. ITS LONG SO IT COVERS FOR LANI AND MWAH K GET SOME TISSUES.

~Mal_______________________________________________________________________

The first thing I remembered was the cold.

Not the nice kind of cold, like lemonade on a summer day in Florida. The kind that feels nice and refreshing. No, the cold that I felt was like jumping in arctic waters naked, freezing to the point of death. It was like touching a soul so cold you froze, painful and splitting and burning all at the same time. So cold, you started to burn because of it. So cold, no matter how many layers you had on.

Then I remembered the choking sensation in the back of my throat. And the hands curled around my neck. The hands holding me down. The devil's smirk staring back at me, taunting me.

And then I remembered why I was in this mess.

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"Thanks for taking me out to the park again." I smiled, my warm white breath visible in the cold of winter. I felt an arm slink around my shoulder, making me blush yet I kept my cool.

"No problem. Anything for you." Garroth laughed, winking. I felt my cheeks redden even more, surely I was a tomato with a human body by now.

"God," I shivered, "I didn't think it would be so cold. Even after that Starbucks we just had I'm still frozen."'

"Here," he said, pulling me closer, "we can share my scarf." He gently unwrapped the fabric, weaving it around the two of us. I swear he's doing this on purpose. "T-thanks." I smiled nervously.

Garroth smiled back at me, his smile so warm it could probably melt all the snow away. It already melted my heart anyways, making me feel all fuzzy inside.

We continued to walk in silent bliss, his arm around my waist and mine around his. We reached the wooden bridge, standing near the edge to gaze at the stars and the glimmering frozen river below us and even the icicles that hung with grace and beauty. I sighed, turning to give Garroth a peck on the cheek and in turn making him blush.

"You know, I'm glad I got to spend Winter Break with you. Spending time with you in school doesn't even begin to beat this. It's amazing." I smiled, hugging him tighter. Garroth chuckled.

"Nah, I'd like to second that notion. Spending time with you in school is just as amazing as now, because no matter where I look I'll always see the same beautiful, funny, talented person I'd see anywhere else. Same personality, same looks, same laugh. Nothing can change that."

With that, Garroth leaned down until our noses touched, shutting his eyes. I let mine flutter shut too as our lips met, kissing gentle at first until passion grew, kissing over and over again. His hand moved to the small of my back while the other went to my waist as I tangled my fingers in his blonde locks. All the love, passion, happiness, and feelings a person could give was put into this one, small action that we could cherish forever.

I gasped slightly as we separated, resting my head on his shoulder as we stared at the stars again. It was perfection.

"Crap. Do you mind if I go use the bathroom quickly?" He asked, blushing a bit. I laughed, nodding. Always the joker, the one to ruin the moments we shared with something so silly. I didn't mind.

As soon as he left my side it felt cold again, his body heat missing. I sighed, watching as two doves flew above in the dark sky, passing the moon in a majestic manner. Like they were dancing, in sync like two partners in love. 

The chilly winter breeze blew around me, making me shiver again. I frowned, feeling as if something was different than before. I looked up, seeing only one dove in the sky.

Suddenly, it was like the world froze from the very cold itself. Nothing moved. Nothing made a sound. Nothing breathed. Nothing except me. Not even the lone dove flew.

A pair of hands suddenly snaked their way around my waist, a breath on my neck. I smiled, knowing who exactly was behind me and opened my mouth to speak when I saw, out of the corner of my eye, red color flutter in the air. Then I realized how cold the breath was, and how skinny the arms were.

"I thought I told you."

"Stay away from my man."

My eyes widened as a hand flew to my mouth, covering it and muffling my voice. The hands around my waist grabbed my wrists, pinning them together as someone shoved me to the floor and knocked the wind out of me. The river was dangerously close.

I felt something wrap around my wrists and ankles, tied tightly and held there. Rough strands splayed from the rope that ties my limbs together. I saw a pair of feet walk into my view and a pale hand lifted my chin up to face cold, heartless eyes the color of ice with revenge hidden behind them. A sick, twisted smile spread across Ivy's face as she hissed her words at me as if she were tossing daggers with her tongue.

"What's the one thing I always told you, potato? Huh? What was the one thing I constantly said?" I didn't speak as the dark-skinned hand was removed from my mouth. Ivy snarled at me, raising a hand and slapping me across the cheek. I felt the cold air sting my skin as warm, thick liquid slid down my cheek. Red, the color of her hair.

"I told you to keep your dirty hands off my man! And what did you do? You ignored me, and twisted him for your purposes! You violated the one thing I said not to do." She spoke in a dangerously low voice, venom in each word. Once again, I felt a hand connect with my face. But it was a tanner color and a fist that swung. I looked up to see that Lily had her fist raised, a look of regret and revenge tearing her expression apart.

"And now your gonna pay for it. He's mine, mine only. How could he live a dirty potato like you anyways?!" She laughed, a sick laugh emitting from her darkest side. She tossed my head aside, facing towards the rive.

"Since you wouldn't stop fawning over the view with my man, I figured I'd be nice to you and let you stay with it forever. Have any final words?" She cackled as shock ran over her friends faces, soon being replaced by fear. I myself was frightened to death, knowing well that I should call for someone but I kept my mouth shut. Even if it was to be my final moments, I wouldn't show any signs of struggling or helplessness to Ivy. She didn't deserve to see it.

"My final words? You can't love him because he will never love you. You don't love him, you lust for him. For what you oust for I don't know, but you are worth nothing more than the dirt he steps on everyday. And when he finds out what your doing-"

"Aha, he won't! You'll be gone so quickly he won't even notice. And besides, if I can't have him no one can!" She picked me up by the collar of my jacket, holding me over the river just out of harms way.

"Adios, Aphmau." As if it were in slow motion, I felt the railing beneath me disappear as I plummeted towards the river, all sense of rational thoughts flying from me. My arms and legs felt worthless to me as I fell, feeling nothing at all as my back cracked against the cold sheet of ice that spread over the water.

But the worst part?

The shocked, hurt eyes of a blonde I once knew were the last things I saw before I went under.

My breath slowly left me as the cold, cold water swallowed me. I knew struggling was worth nothing. I didn't even try. My eyes fluttered shut as I waited.

Was I going to just give up? No. But that was what I told myself. My body had already died, given up while my mind pushed forwards-or at least tried to. You can't do much as a head. It was like I was fated to drown here.

Then I felt cold nails digging into my flesh as a pair of hands encased themselves around my neck. I shot my eyes open, not caring that the cold stung as my eyes met with the devil's face. Ivy grinned, not even caring if she drowned too. I could see the air leave her, and the need to breathe was too strong, but she wanted the one to have my life in her hands. Not nature's. She wanted my blood in her palms, to see the life drain from my eyes.

She was psychotic. She was going to die with me.

Suddenly something within me was compelled to take action. To refuse this woman to kill me. I wouldn't die from her. I screamed, my voice blocked by the walls of water around us as I struggled to break free. My actions began to weaken as Ivy choked me even more, blocking all air from my lungs. My vision blurred, blackened at the edges.

I can live! Don't give up!

Just give up. You're going to die.

And for a minute there, I thought it was right. I thought I was a goner. And I think I died a little.

But then I saw Ivy disappear, and in her place was blonde hair and blue eyes. The eyes were hurt, and if they weren't underwater I would have seen the tears. I let a faint smile spread across my lips, time running slower. I leaned forwards and pressed my lips against Garroth's gently, memorizing the taste of his lips and the feel of his skin. I memorized the feel of our love, passion, happiness and feelings all as one, small action that spoke more than a thousand words ever could. I memorized the color of his eyes when they opened again. His lips began to move fast, as if saying, "Don't leave, I'm sorry, I need you," over and over again. His hair and clothes began to blur in my vision.

I raised a single finger to his lips, not even realizing they were free from the ropes. I moved my mouth to speak, saying only a few fuzzy words before becoming content. His face began to blur next, very thing becoming dark around the edges. He took his scarf and wrapped it around our necks, closing his eyes. Pain rose in my chest as I realized what he was doing.

He was coming with me. I weakly wrapped my arms around his shoulders, hugging him as he did the same to me. I looked at his eyes one last time before shutting my own.

I let out a breath of bubbles, calm now. I closed my eyes, knowing I was at peace.

Knowing I was safe.

Do you know what I said to him?

I will always love you.