it's 11 pm and i've been looking at writing memes so here take some rambles related and unrelated to mcyt

-*tries to write something semi-light hearted with just some hurt/comfort*
*accidentally adds in a character with mature themes that im now not sure if i can add in*

-lookin at you Finn ಠ_ಠ

-fun fact: i have 131 W.I.Ps on Word and that's not even counting the wattpad or google docs ones ;-;

-Techno has ADHD irl and i kinda wanted to incorporate that into some of his headcanons so (basing it off of the twitter account ADHD_Alien) i gave him some traits that correlate to ADHD (not giving him ADHD in headcanons because idk how to write it since i dont have ADHD but just some traits that could be common in people with ADHD)

-the Greamno ship (Grian, Techno, and Dream) appeared after the latest MCC where Techno was simping over Grian and Dream and everyone in tumblr's having a fit about it because apparently Techno doesn't like being shipped and im just glancing over at all the skepnoblade fanfics on wattpad like "*sharp inhale* y i k e s"

-in writing there's a word called epithets which is basically when you use a description of someone/something in place of it's name/pronoun (so like "the blond man walked away" or "the blue-eyed woman stared at him") and for some reason so many writers really hate them??? like???? why??????

-pros of writing all male casts: g a y
cons of writing all male casts: EVERYONE USES THE SAME FUCKING PRONOUNS AND I CAN'T TELL WHO'S SPEAKING WHEN IT'S ALL JUST HE/HIM

-me: *writes something*
some poor innocent fool: "wow i hope this thing doesn't happen to this character!"
me: :)

-i used to be able to bust out 1k one-shots every day what happened to that-

-me: *has Bad and Sapnap as my two favorite people*
also me: *relates to the "making your favorite characters suffer" author trope*
conclusion: :)

-i think it's very homophobic that i actually have to write my story down instead of just light projecting my thoughts immediately onto the google doc >:(

-me: *wants to share my thoughts on a W.I.P and get emotional investment from people so i get more motivated to write the story*
also me: *wants to keep everything a secret to surprise people*

-sometimes i get down when i see people writing 3k or 5k word one-shots or full blown stories and then i remind myself then 1k is nearly 3 full pages on docs :D

-half the time i plan a whole plot in my head and then the story completely derails and i try to rerail it but it just flies off the cliff even more to the point of im now confused on how to end it

-i come up with way too many cool titles but no actual stories for them :(

-example: i came up with the title "To Kill A Killer" but then had no actual ideas for it ;-;

-george and sapnap's love-hate relationship? more like *whips and pulls on sunglasses* angst.

-*tries to write purposefully awkward dialogue*
*accidentally repeats the same phrases like 3 times in one paragraph*

-altho tbh this is a very classic awkward thing to do when speaking so i guess it works (no it doesn't im lying to myself-)

-fun fact: i refresh wattpad like every 20 minutes cuz im desperate for comments/votes :')

-if any of the youtubers find this book (or any of the hermits find my hermitcraft books) i'll just fucking horizontal tortilla chip on the spot

-if a6d or finn find this book i might actually break my own ankles just from cringing that hard

-i have a common habit of wanting to make things historically accurate so i'll often google when things were made or how they work and then im suddenly spiraling into how pirate hierarchies worked and all i wanted was to find out what a rapier was-

-why is Spifey so often the villain in AUs? does he really just radiate "cryptic evil dude" energy???

-me: *talks about how i really want to write something but i just fucking can't get the words down*
my mom: just write?
me: god i wish-

-george and sapnap's relationship + bad and dream's support relationships of them is just perfect for angst

-what's actually writing down a coherent plot and story? i only know endlessly daydreaming and jotting down a bullet point maybe once per month :')

-i used to look at people who talked about "oh my characters always seem to have a mind of their owns haha lol" and i used to not get it and now im like "ohhhh this is what they meant :/"

-sometimes i'll write bits that are kinda just filler and meant to make everything seem more natural and then i glance at the word count like "wait why does that say 900 words" like fuck this was just meant to be short filler-

-someone: "wow i really love this idea! are you gonna write anymore?"
me: *gives the most cryptic and vague response possible because im really inconsistent and have terrible commitment issues and if i promise things i'll likely never do them*

-yeah sorry ya'll but most one-shots really are just one-shots (which is why i don't like leaving too big of cliffhangers cuz i don't wanna disappointed ya'll :))

-sometimes i write 1k words in an afternoon and other times it takes me a week to spit out 600 ;-;

-me: *tries to just write some cute fluff*
the hurt/comfort right behind me with a baseball bat: :)

-i used to write one-shots (coughabouthermitcraftcough) that were way too canon compliant, like to the point i had difficulty writing to because it was too canon compliant, and now i have the opposite problem where i have nearly no canon to actually write off of someone help i can only thrive on AUs-

-writing? i could only *snaps fingers and pull on sunglasses* scrolling through the internet for hours on end and then only remembering to write at 11 pm and by that point my brain just excuses it as oh it's too late better do it in the morning repeat cycle B)

recently found a new channel "Unus Annus" ft. Markiplier and Crankgameplays and they're bundles of fun to watch! the channel's also interesting because there's a timer for 1 year and when that one year runs out, the channel and all it's videos will be deleted to simulate death so join the ride while you can! :D

*debates whether to share ideas for an AU or keep them a secret so i might actually have the motivation to write it*