Twenty Six
Taehyung runs, runs and runs. He does not know where he is going but he dares not stop. He is panting heavily. His eyes are blur due to the tears. He is so tired that he might pass out but he does not stop.
He feels like he can still hear people criticising him. He can hear the mockery.
"He is just a waste of space."
"Fags like him should not be allowed to live."
"He sure has some guts though. If I were in his place, I would have committed suicide a long time ago."
"Oh it's just one more year when we have to see his disgusting self."
"Who would even hire that bitch for work? He would just bring bad luck for them."
"No wonder why his own parents disowned him. Guess they did not want a fag for a son."
"I mean what parent would want to spend their money on a trash like him."
"I think he can do one job right though. That is pleasing other fags."
"I know right? Prostitution suits him the best."
"Why would Jungkook even agree to do a project with him?"
"Oh his stupid ass must have cried in front of him and begged him to be his partner so that he does not have to be alone. Jungkook is a kind hearted person. He must have melted."
"Jungkook would soon realise how useless that fucker is."
"STOP IT! STOP IT! STOP IT!" Taehyung suddenly stops running and screams on top of his lungs. The voices are still ringing in his head and he cannot tolerate them.
He covers his ears with both his hands and cries loudly but there is no one who could hear him here. He is in the woods, near the pond. He had discovered this place with his senior friends who have now graduated. He never came here since he met Jungkook but now his legs immediately directed him towards this place.
He falls on his knees and harshly rubs his eyes. "Stop crying, you pathetic bitch!" He shouts at himself and slaps his own face hard.
"Why do you even blame others for calling you weak when you are in reality. Shut up! STOP CRYING! STOP CRYING!" He shouts before sobbing again.
He keeps crying and screaming in agony. Jungkook, who was quite a distance away could clearly hear Taehyung and find his exact location. When his roommate had sprinted out of the cafeteria, he got worried sick because he could not find him anywhere. He asked Hoseok but even the older boy could not catch up with Taehyung on time so Jungkook had ask Namjoon to trace Taehyung's cell phone and that's how he found out where the blue haired boy is.
The broken state of his roommate breaks his own heart. The other boy is in so much pain and agony. Maybe he has been going through the same for years now but no one had ever been by his side. Taehyung never had a shoulder to cry on.
Jungkook wanted to help Taehyung back in the cafeteria. If he could, he wouldn't have taken a single second in jabbing the girl and Suho with a knife but Jungkook has to keep his cover. He cannot risk his identity being revealed.
"WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS EVERY DAY? WHY? WHY???" Taehyung's scream breaks Jungkook's chain of thoughts. He looks at his roommate who is busy pulling his blue hair. That must be hurting him.
Jungkook dashes towards him and kneels down beside him. He slowly puts his hand around Taehyung's fragile body, wondering if it would be okay because he knows that Taehyung doesn't want to stay near him. He must still be very disappointed in him.
But when Taehyung clings to him and starts crying loudly, Jungkook sighs. He cradles his head in his chest and uses his other hand to rub Taehyung's back to comfort him.
"Shhh... It's okay. You're okay. Everything is fine." Jungkook softly whispers in Taehyung's ear and kisses his forehead.
"Wh-What did I d-do so wrong, K-Kookie? Why do th-they hate me s-so much? Why? Wh-" Taehyung cannot complete his own sentence as he breaks down into a sobbing fit again.
A part of Taehyung is mad at himself right now. He is mad at Jungkook. He is disappointed. But look at him being all wrapped up in Jungkook's arms and crying like a baby.
"It's okay. Cry as much as you want. Let is out." Jungkook says with a small smile. He rocks Taehyung in his arm.
And that is it for the blue haired boy. He starts wailing. It's like everything falls on him all at once. He cries for his younger self who was dumb enough to get involved in some gang shit.
He cries for all those times he has been beaten to pulp. He cries remembering the time when he used to pass out in a pool of blood, barely breathing but no one even cared to help him get up and bring him to a hospital.
He curses himself for being gay. Taehyung never understood why people were so mad at him for being gay. It's not like being gay is a contagious disease. He never knew why people unfriended him once they found out his sexuality. He never realised why being gay was considered such a bad thing? Isn't love just love? Regardless of someone's gender identity?
Taehyung always tried to accept himself even though people hated on him all the time. But now he knows that half of his problems exist because he is a fag.
"You feel better now, prince?" Jungkook's soft voice calls him out. He slowly raises his head and looks at his cherry haired roommate with teary eyes.
Jungkook cups his cheeks with both his hands and wipes his tears away. Taehyung hisses a little and then the both of them realise that Taehyung's skin must be burning because of the hot coffee that had been poured on him earlier. Taehyung's hair and clothes are still dirty because of that.
"Tae, do you want to go back to the dorm? Let's get you all cleaned up, baby." Jungkook says and kisses his cheek.
Taehyung wants to protest. He wants to tell Jungkook not to bother himself because of him because after all Jungkook had told him not to show up in front of him all injured and hurt if he didn't want to get his help.
But Taehyung is also a human. He also needs some kind of support. He needs someone to lean on to. He needs someone to comfort him too when he feels low.
So maybe Taehyung is being selfish right now by letting Jungkook stay near him. Maybe it won't end well for them. But maybe Taehyung just wants to think of the present instead of thinking about the future? He is tired of thinking about the future. Maybe he should focus on himself just for a little while. Yes, it would be the right thing to do.
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Hey lovelies! Was this chapter good? Actually until a few days ago, I just loved Mine to Love. Then I finished writing Flower Crown and I think that it's good. The readers of that book are on edge rn haha and now I'm wondering if I'm doing good with Mine To Love or not. I really want this book to be exciting for y'all. I feel like I'm not able to do that these days😭
Anyway, Tae posted on Twitter!!!
^How does he pull off close up selcas so well? I can never😭
I know I'm late but I just finished watching this live today because I was busy with exams. Jungkook flirted with his babie and Jimin seems like a third wheel, just like ARMYs were the fourth wheel haha. Taehyung also said he wants to play Pepero game with Kookie. For those who don't know how it's played, each player puts one end of the Pepero stick into their mouth and bite away. Their lips inch closer and closer. The goal is to leave as little of the stick as possible while barely planting a kiss on one another. When playing in groups, the duo with the shortest remaining stick wins! So I don't think I have to say anything else. You guys are smart enough to understand lol.
^Taekookers are well fed this month. Just give us a Taekook subunit Bighit😭
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