Phuwin and the rest of the team decided to let Gemini meet Fourth once again . Progress of a psychological treatment cannot be tracked down so precisely just like in a physical condition. They had to test the waters. And this is about his brother after all.

After giving Fourth's midday medication, Phuwin and Satang accompanied fourth in the room. Slowly they let Gemini inside .

After few seconds fourth noticed him. Fourth stared at him for a little while without saying anything. Phuwin sighed seeing the progress.

Suddenly fourth's pupils grew bigger . His breathes were cut short inhaling sharply.

"Phi Gemini , phi , he is dead , he left me , why who , phi , please don't come"
No matter how hard they tried , fourth was uncontrollable. Blocking his ears like he was hearing something.

"Please go away , pleaseeee"
Phuwin looked at his brother helplessly.
Gemini left the room. Satang accompanied him outside.

"I -I wish I never met him"
"What ? What do you mean Gemini?"
"He won't go through this if I never met him,I wish I never fell for him , I made him like this phi ! I fucked up everything, all the time . Guess what , pa was right." Gemini left out a sad chuckle.

"Gemini , listen , I know you are feeling shit right now , but he loves you nong , fourth loves you , he is so happy with you , even now he is screaming your name , he loves you bro , so much ."

Gemini was silent . After a while he broke the silence.

"If he is comfortable with Phuwin, if he can make him happy , I am ready to give up . He doesn't deserve to suffer with me , he deserves love ."

Phuwin heard everything. He was coming towards his brother after putting Fourth to sleep .

"Gemini , let's talk, let's get out of here ."
Gemini stood up from the chair , directly facing Phuwin.
"Can you make him happy phi ? "
"Come with me first, satang please stay with fourth."
Phuwin dragged Gemini far away from fourth's room.

..........

They were on that rooftop. Where Phuwin got his first heartbreak. He wonders how many confessions happened in the very same place . But it was Gemini's first time here . They sat themselves in one of the benches. For much relief it wasn't crowded.

Phuwin dragged a deep breath.
"You know this is where fourth rejected me , never thought that innocent boy had such courage in him, but guess what , love could give you all the courage you want.The love he has for you ." Phuwin smiled thinking about the past.

"The same love which made him like this? What a waste ." Gemini spattered sarcastically.

"The same love which made both of you happy. For fucks sake get it together gem . I am fourth's doctor for years but none of my therapy sessions made him this alive Gemini. His soul was dead Gemini . I am his doctor . Never saw him giggling before . You, your love made him like this . Fourth choose you !he fucking choose you to love !"

Gemini was silent, he can't argue. But yet he doesn't feel he deserves him.

" I know what's love Gemini . I know one when I see it . Your fancy big love actually inspired me for courting someone. Your smart brain fucking inspired this stupid phi to court the one he likes now...and for god's sake stop thinking you don't deserve fourth ! You both deserve each other and for trying to throw fourth in my hands , you deserve a punch in the face as well ."

"Stop trying to make jokes phi , it's not funny"

"But you loved my jokes before , nong Gem Gem ." Phuwin stick out his tongue. Gemini couldn't resist letting out a small smile . He missed the old times. Despite his connection with the family , Phuwin took such a great care of him throughout his childhood.

Phuwin drew few inches closer to Gemini , trying to reduce the huge distance between them .
"And I am sorry nong"
"For what?"
"For our shitty parents. If it's okay to call them like that." Phuwin left out a sad chuckle.
"I know how miserable they make you feel, just so you know I am not happy with their favoritism either, they pressure me so much , I have different dreams , I want a different life but I am just a pretty show off to fulfill their dreams, guess "family is everything"is not for us" Phuwin grinned looking at the sky.

Gemini didn't say anything.

"I know you think I am doing so good because I am favored, but that's not true na, it eats me alive sometimes. If I was you I would never be able to cope up with them . You are strong . Fucking stronger than your phi . I wish I could take care of you more, you don't deserve this."

Phuwin was staring at the evening sky, busy preparing to welcome the moon. Gemini placed his hand on Phuwin's shoulder.

"Some shits don't end right ? They gave us birth so let's just be grateful for that , just don't lose yourself Phi , don't be a cry baby, I am here too." That's Gemini's way of saying his brother was not alone in this.

"Woah, look who is talking? When did that Piss-boy got this mature??? Is this fourth effect?'

"Shut the fuck up phi Poopy" but Gemini was smiling . Finally breathing. It was comforting , no matter what .

Atleast he has him for now . Soon his fourth too.

.......:

It was midnight already. Slowly Gemini lay beside his sleeping baby, being careful to not to wake him.

He caressed his cheeks before placing his lips on his forehead. He remained in the same position for a while thinking about the painful thing happened in the evening. He is not sure when his baby will recover, but he was determined to not to give up . For his baby's sake . For their love.

Slowly fourth snuggled into his chest , reaching for the familiar warmth he felt .
"Phi Gemm..."he mumbled in his sleep.
"Shh...shh sleep baby" Gemini smoothed his back tightening his hand around his waist. They fell asleep amidst all the whirlwind happening around them .

Gemini woke up to a painful sob . His baby was once again struggling in his sleep , fisting the bed sheet between his fingers so tightly.

"Please , pleaseeee don't leave me , I am sorry for everything, please don't leave me na."

Tears were streaming down from his closed eyes wetting the bed . He was having a nightmare.

"Phi Gemini come back , don't go na , it's lonely, please ..."

"Baby ,baby I am here love please , your phi Gemini is here..." Gemini didn't know he was crying as well. Being so helpless . He couldn't even imagine the trauma Fourth was going through .

Gemini slowly took fourth into his arms, trying to assure him that he was here. Little by little he tightened the embrace around the vulnerable body which was now shivering like it was caught in cold.

"No, you are lying, my phi gemini is dead, he left me, he died because of me, he died, I lost him, I lost everything."

"No baby, I am here, your phi gemini is here, please open your eyes, look at me baby."

Gemini felt fourth's body stiffening between his embrace. Suddenly his body was so numb and it looks like he was struggling to breath.

"Fourth, fourth, baby, baby, what's going on?"

Second by second his breathing sounded more painful. Helpless boy was squinting his eyes trying to open them. But he couldn't, he tried, he tried his best. But only he could see is Gemini's dead body in front of his eyes. Oozing with blood , shot to death. It was scary, fourth was scared.

Gemini's vision went blurry with all the wetness.His love was struggling so hard thinking that he lost him. Gemini gave fourth space to breathe but holding him tightly against his chest. The body looked like a soulless leaf laying on his arms.

"Fourth baby please, keep trying, don't stop my love, you are going to be okay, your gemini is here, I am here, I am never going to leave you."

"Please breathe with me, please here like this, like your phi gemini, one, two, three. Breathe my little baby, breathe. Gemini took fourth's hand and kept it on his chest trying to lead fourth. He was trying his best, watching his little lover struggling so hard to breathe. Gemini felt the fear, gemini felt the fear of losing him, in front of his own eyes....

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That was hard for me too okay😮‍💨, but I will compensate soon😼 (hope it wasn't cringe 😭)