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the smell of medicines, soft pillows, bed rails, crisp sheets attached to my arm.

Definitely a hospital.

I groaned as I woke up with a massive headache. I closed my eyes trying to remember the things.

"baby" Jungkook's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Jungkook"

"hey, just relax" he caressed my cheeks and I leaned in his soothing touch. He helped me drinking some water and I laid back down. I felt weak and tried.

"what happened?" I asked him.

"you passed out at the party" he said clearly looking worried.

"oh! Its not a big deal" I said.

"baby" he sighed. " the doctors told me that you suffer from extreme stage of depression and the anxiety which causes your nose bleeds" he said with concern.

I already knew that. It wasn't the first time I fainted. I closed my eyes shut and turned my face to the other way. I took a deep breath and looked back at Jungkook but, he was already staring at me.

He caressed my cheeks like his touch burn my skin. He took my hand and placed a gentle kiss on the back " have you taken medicines for your depression?" he asked.

"no..."

He frowned deeply "why?"

I avoided hie eyes " because I don't want to"

" your body Is asking for help and here you are taking care of others?" he said sounding disapproving.

"you don't understand"

He cupped my cheeks and turned my face towards him. " then make me understand" he was literally begging me to speak, to unclose all the secrets within me.

He leaned over and took me in his arms. My face buried in his chest. He kissed my hairs and whispered " take your time baby, because I am here always with you, you have me and I would never let anything happen to you" he kissed my hair again and again. My heart soared listening to his sweet words. I know that's all I need at this moment. I needed someone to comfort me and that someone is my husband.

The doctor walked in with a writing pad. He gave us a warm smile and asked if I could answer some of his questions.

"sure"

"have you ever experienced extreme fear or emotional trauma?" he asked.

"yes"

" that explains why you have fainted so much I these past few months" he wrote something on the paper before him.

"reduced appetite and weight loss?" he asked and I nodded. Jungkook squeezed assuring.

"feelings of worthlessness or guilt?"

"yes"

" frequent thoughts of death, suicidal thoughts?"

" yes" I mumbled and glanced towards Jungkook.

"well, Mrs. jeon. I have sent your blood sample to run some test. I'll come back later to check up on you" the doctor said walking out of the room.

"suicidal thoughts? Is that why you were asking robin for a knife?" he asked and nodded like he was having a conversation with himself. " extreme fear and emotional trauma, is it because of me?" he asked guiltily.

" no Jungkook. I was having it before we got married. You have nothing to do with this" I told him.

It was all his fault.

Just by his thoughts tears filled up in my eyes. I couldn't help but cry.

"is she awake?" my dad came inside my hospital room.

"dad? What are you doing here?" I asked.

"you passed just before my eyes" he said looking at me with a concern.

"its okay. I am fine, it happens a lot" I said.

"what do you mean it happens a lot?" he asked and I just shrugged.

"Jungkook, can I have a word with you?" dad asked Jungkook to follow him.

"I'll be back" he kissed my forehead and walked out of the room.

Time skip~

"how are you now? Feeling better?" Jungkook as soon as he entered the room.

"I am, now" I smiled. " can we go home?"

"home? You mean you want to stay at my place?" he asked with hope.

"yeah, it's better than staying with Lisa and jiwon" I answered.

Next day~

The next day, I woke up a lot better than the previous day. I did my morning routine and dressed up casually in sweatpants and tank top. I skipped down the stairs and hugged robin.

"hey"

"hey, what do you want for breakfast?" he asked.

"where is Jungkook?" I asked.

"workouts"

"I want to cook something for him, can you help me?" I asked.

"sure, I'd love to" he said.

We prepared pancakes, omelettes, waffles.

I heard Jungkook's voice from the living room and steeped out of kitchen. He came back dripping in sweat, he wiped the sweat on his forehead with the hem of his shirt showing his toned abs. he straight out to drink out a bottle of water. Every time he gulped, his Adam's apple bobbed up and down. He put the bottle down and ran his hand though his hair, combing them backwards.

"y/n" his voice broke me out of trance. Usually he calls me baby, but all of a sudden, he called me y/n. is there something wrong? "what happened? Are you okay?"

I cleared my throat." Why don't you go freshen up then we'll have breakfast" I wanted ask him about calling my name, I just shrugged it off thinking I just misheard.

He smiled. A soft genuine smile. He nodded and strolled to his bedroom.

I prepared the table with robin's help and make it looked perfect. He came back all dressed in suit. He sat down and robin poured him a glass of milk. I gestured for robin to go to kitchen. I served him breakfast while he was scrolling through his phone. He picked a fork and started eating. Not even once he glanced at me nor commented about the food I prepared. I huffed in annoyance and Jungkook set all his attention on me.

He was about say something but his phone ringed. He continued talking in the phone and I ate the food with irritation written on my face.

"thank you for the breakfast robin" he stood up and kissed my forehead." Bye y/n. call me if you need anything and if you want to leave, do let me know, please" he smiled sadly.

Author POV~

He left for work while y/n sat and ate her food disappointed. She expected him to give compliments about her cooking but not even once her spoke anything regarding it.

But little did she know, Jungkook knew it was you who prepared the food. He didn't want to express his love, because if he does it he thinks she will leave him early as she has already got the divorce. He doesn't want to force anything on her. It's only her happiness mattered to him, if she wants them to be separated he would do it, even if it breaks his heart.

Time skip~ at office:

"Mr. byun, I am here to Mr. jeon. I am park Seok- Yeong" said a man fully dressed in suit.

"but, do you have an appointment?" Baekhyun asked his eyes glued to his laptop.

"no, but it's important. Just say him I am here, he will understand". He said.

"sure! Please wait in the waiting room, while I call him".

Mr. park was waiting patiently.

"Mr. jeon, Mr. park Seok- Yeong is here to meet you without an appointment? Should I let him in?"

Baekhyun asked Mr. park to follow him to Jungkook's office.

Jungkook was working on an important file when they both came in his office. He gestured both of them to sit.

"so what have you found Mr. park?"

" as you had told me to keep an eye on Lisa and jiwon, I came across a conversation where jiwon said that she has y/n's inappropriate picture, if leaked which could completely destroy her" Mr. park said and looked at Jungkook only to witness his emotionless face.

" I think jiwon is threatening y/n by using her pictures" he looked to side to see Baekhyun fuming in anger.

" it was never y/n intensions to break up with you. It was all jiwon and his plan. Jiwon needed y/n out of her way and he wanted y/n all by himself"

"what?" Jungkook questioned confused.

He had no idea what Mr. park was talking about. y/n wouldn't tell him anything. So he asked his friend, a private investigator to search about all this, about their breakup, all her traumas, each and everything about her.

Jungkook stood still, but his eyes showed animalistic look that was enough to piss anyone's pants. He looked very scary.

" it was all jiwon, he and Lisa. He and jiwon used to beat y/n whenever Mr. Kim wasn't home which was most of the time" he said and stopped trying to see a reaction from Jungkook but he just nodded and said " go-on"

" at first, it was just the beatings to infuse fear in y/n but then she grew up and he sexually abused her" hearing this Jungkook took a deep breath.

"he would touch her inappropriately and used her to get off every night" he said lowly. "but jiwon stopped him from having sex with her, so, technically he didn't rape her right?"

"the only reason y/n wanted to stay here was you. Jiwon knew she needed to get you out of the way to get y/n out of the house and away from her father. So, that is where she used camera in the shower to take her pictures"

For a long moment, Jungkook stood still trying to process all this new information. Somewhere deep inside of him he knew y/n wasn't capable of doing something so manipulative. She was a kind soul, always have been and always will be. How can he ever believe that his kind y/n would something like that to him?

"your break up... it wasn't y/n fault. It was jiwon"

"who is this he in this story?"

" her stepbrother jiwon's son, choi min-sik. He is her secret son. No one knows that he is her son. Not even y/n's father."

After hearing all these he couldn't be here any longer. He picked up his cell phone and car keys from his desk. He didn't care how much work he had to do. He left the building and sped towards his home. He strode straight inside and her angelic face came into his view.

"you are early today". She said with a smile.

He walked towards and embraced her into a bone crushing hug. He wanted to take all her pain away, he wants her to be free from the all the trauma, all the memories which haunts her even today. She doesn't deserve it. She is a pure soul she deserves to be treated as a queen.

"Jungkook? Are you okay?" she asked shocked from his behaviour. He pulled away and scanned her to check if she hurt or not. He held her shoulders and said " I love you. I love you fucking so much. I know you don't love me but I do and I can't stop loving. I love you so much to the extent where I can't have a life without you. I know I don't deserve you, no one deserves you but please don't leave me, not again."

" I know I may sound selfish but please baby, I can't leave without you. I love you! Please forgive me"

y/n's eyes teared up after listening to his confession. She put her hands on his cheeks feeling his tears falling to her hands.

" I forgive you, Jungkook" she answered.

He nodded as tears spilled even more after listening to her answer." But do you love me?"

She smiled sadly." I think...... I think we should get a divorce, Jungkook"

Listening to her love he staggered back brokenly." Baby....i love you" he whispered.

"Jungkook it's what I want"

He nodded, he felt a tear sliding down his cheek and he wiped it quickly." Okay.... If it's what you want then.... I'll sign the papers right away"

" I've signed them...." She mumbled.

He sharply inhaled. He felt like his heart ripped out. He felt useless without her in his life. It was all his fault and he has to face the consequences of his actions.

y/n never did a mistake other than loving him. She was protecting him from jiwon. she never cheated on him. But, what did he do? He hated her, he called her worthless, he called her names. It was all his fault. He never thought about her side of the story.

She walked to her room and he followed her, his mind numb, his muscles numb, his heart numb. When they were in her room, she picked up the divorce papers from the table and handed them to him.

He took them with trembling hands and stared at her signature at the bottom.

Kim y/n.... Kim y/n...... Kim y/n....

During the college days he used to be love sick puppy. He used to write his first name in front of her name.

' jeon y/n'

Everywhere on her notebooks, on her lockers, on his heart.

He felt like that besotted little boy again. He wanted to write his name to her... but he couldn't. he lost all the rights. This is brought by himself. He made her hate him. He turned into someone she will never be with.

'you are going to get what you deserve Kim y/n'

"Mr. jeon, it's Mr. jeon for you"

"this is a contract between our families nothing more nothing less, a business deal.as your father is a leading business man after us, it will beneficial for us, especially me"

"It won't stop, just make a room for that"

"This is your role for next two years. You will leave all your slutty life and live reasonable for once and, don't expect me to touch you, I'll die before I do something like that. Now do you how to act like a honorable lady? Who am I kidding? You've been acting all innocent"

"she is fucking actress; she knows how to act and fool people. Don't fall for her fake innocence"

"yes, you are my bitch, your leash is in my hands. You will eat, sit, drink, dress up, sleep, and talk when I tell you to"

"this is your fucking place you whore. Don't make me repeat again"

"she doesn't have an opinion. I am the one pulling her strings"

"if I am a manwhore, then what are you? Not a virgin Mary, that's for sure"

"you disgust me, your body disgusts me, the words that come out pf your mouth disgust me, your presence disgust me. How would you feel if you had to live with a worthless, good for nothing whore"?

Memories flooded his mind. His ruthless actions played before his eyes like a movie. It was him. It was all him. Out of nowhere, a single drop of tear landed on her signature making it smudged.

"Jungkook" y/n's voice pulled him out from the torture of his thoughts. She was looking at him shocked. Her mouth slightly parted seeing his condition." You're crying" she mumbled.

He wiped his tears" do you have a pen?" he asked his voice faint and broken. She tucked her hair behind and picked up the pen from the nightstand. She gently handed it to him.

With shaky fingers, he took it. His fingers lightly grazed hers. He signed the divorce papers and looked back at her face.

He noticed the slight tugged at her lips. She was happy but she was trying to hide it. She wanted him to be out of his house. She was free.

" congratulations, Kim y/n. you are a free woman" he said with a pain In his heart." You can leave ...... whenever you want. I will arrange everything for you. I'll handle your father and don't worry about your friends. I will protect them from your father. They are lucky that they have something that only few people have." Saying that he turned to walk out of the room.

" what?" y/n's voice stopped him.

"your love" he whispered out, leaving y/n alone with her thoughts.

Time skip~

Jungkook wanted to take revenge on jiwon, min-sik, Lisa. He had his best private investigators working with him. He ordered them to dig out all the dirt on them. He wanted to ruin them.

Baekhyun came inside his office with a stern look on his face. He hasn't been the same since he found out about everything. Years back it was difficult to believe Jungkook's side of story but since y/n disappeared in thin air, he couldn't help but believe it.

He was beating himself over the fact he wasn't there for his childhood friend. She didn't trust him enough to say all these. She must have been terrified. She needed someone to be there for her and he wasn't.

They both didn't feel better over the fact that y/n still told them and they found out about it from someone. She didn't trust them enough to tell them.

"show him" Baekhyun gestured to the man beside him.

He placed several folders before Jungkook and a USB. Jungkook picked up the folder up and saw all the content inside it. It was birth certificate, real and fake ones. Jungkook smirked devilishly. He attached the USB to his laptop and his eyes grew wide.

" would that be enough, Mr. jeon?" the investigator asked

"that's more than enough and perfect"