KHUSHI

"I can explain." Aditya said as he stopped in front of me nervously, he looked scared as hell, I don't know why he was so scared.

"There's no need for an explanation Adi." I smiled at him.

"Please don't say that Khushi, it wasn't what it seemed like, you know I love you, I can't ever kiss another girl." He tried to explain.

"Calm down Adi, come, we will talk outside." I grabbed his hand and pulled him out, Arnav was standing at the door looking at us in surprise but I just walked away ignoring him, once we were outside, I luckily found a bench outside in the garden so we both sat there.

"How long have I known you Adi? And how long have I dated you? I know you better than anything and I could see it that you weren't the one that initiated the kiss, she did, and you pushed her away immediately, so trust me when I say that you don't have to explain." I assured him with a smile.

"Are you serious Khushi?" He looked at me hopefully, I nodded still maintaining my smile, I might not love Adi nor feel much about him, but I knew him and I could trust him blindly, he was that kind of a guy.

"So we're good right?" He finally smiled.

"Of course we are, but whatever that happened today, it has given me a new point of view. Listen to me calmly okay. See, we started this relation so casually, it was just for lust if it's being honest right? But the more time I spent with you, I realized you were such a great person, someone I could always be friends with, and I don't want our friendship to be ruined ever.

I've been holding on to this relation for months hoping that one day I would start loving you and that was selfish of me Adi, if I haven't fallen for you, I should no more hold it on. I should let you go, so you have the chance to find love again, so that you have the chance to be in a relationship with someone that loves you equally as much as you do.

And that wouldn't happen as long as you are with me, I know you are loyal so you wouldn't even look at any other girl that way, but now I want you to do so, you can't spend your entire life waiting for me Adi. That girl today, she kissed you maybe because she was into you, maybe there are so many girls out there that are so much into you and they don't make a move because they know you are with me and I don't want that for you."

"Khushi, are you breaking up with me? Please don't, I told you I dint do it, I dint kiss her, she did."

"Adi, I trust you, I told you I know you dint do it, but because I know you, I know you deserve much more than just waiting for me, I'm sorry Adi but maybe I'm never going to fall in love and I don't want you to suffer the consequences of my feelings.

So today I am setting you free so you can find love, I know it's going to be difficult for you and I know I'm hurting you at the moment but trust me, one day you'll understand why I did this."

"I always hoped you would love me Khushi." He looked at me sadly.

"So did I Adi, but it dint happen, and I don't want to do this anymore, you said you will let me go when I want to, so I want to go Adi, please let me."

"Khushi." He looked at me with moist eyes as he cupped my face and looked at me, tears running down his eyes, I know he was hurt, but I was doing it for him, I dint want him to keep hurting while being with me and waiting for me to fall for him, which dint seem to be happening either.

"We will always remain friends Adi, see ending it this way is better than ending it badly because of something else, because then we would lose our friendship too, right?"

"I know Khushi, it's just that I love you so much, this is difficult for me."

"It's all going to be okay, I'm always here for you, you can still come home and visit me as usual, we can still hang out, just because we are breaking up doesn't mean we have to start hating each other right? We knew this was to come from the beginning."

"I know, I know." He whispered, still holding on to me.

"Can I at least get a last kiss? To cherish your memories forever?" He asked. I nodded positively as he moved closer and claimed my lips, I could feel his pain even in the way he kissed me, but anyway all was well that ended well.

I pulled apart and smiled at him, I dint say anything after that, I just stood up and turned around, I saw Arnav standing far away looking at the both of us, he had his hands clenched into a tight fist and he looked angry for some reason.

Maybe he was angry because he thought Aditya was cheating on me, and he seemed to care about me a lot.

"So can we leave? I need to go back home." I said as I stopped in front of him, he wasn't even looking at me, he was looking at Aditya like he wanted to kill him, what was wrong with him? and why was he reacting this way?

"Arnav." I shook him.

"Aren't you going with your boyfriend?" He asked.

"No, we just broke up." I replied.

"But you just kissed him, how is that a break up?" he looked at me very seriously.

"Jeez, calm down Arnav, why are you suddenly acting like a jealous boyfriend?" I asked, his behavior was quite confusing.

"Well because I fail to understand how you can kiss a man that just cheated on you a while back."

"That isn't your business Arnav, it was between Adi and I, and I trust him enough to know he wasn't cheating on me." I looked at him angrily, now he was getting on my nerves.

"I am confused, he kissed a girl right in front of you but he wasn't cheating on you, you broke up with him but still kissed him, so tell me, what am I supposed to make out of this?" He folded his arms waiting for answers, why was he suddenly questioning me like he was my father?

"It's my personal life, whatever I do with it, who the hell are you to judge me? What's wrong with you Arnav? Why are you acting this way suddenly?" I shouted angrily.

He stared at me for a moment and then inhaled a few deep breaths, he seemed to be calming down.

"I am sorry, you were right I am no one to judge, come I'll drop you home, forgive me for speaking nonsense, at times I have no control on my mouth." He said as he rushed to open the door for me, I walked towards him and got inside as he headed to the driver's seat and drove off.

I dint have much to say to him so I sat there silently and it looked like he dint have anything to say too so the drive was quite silent.

I couldn't stop thinking about Aditya though, when we started dating, I really hoped it was going to last forever, he was the perfect guy, he was everything I ever wanted and I was so sure I was going to fall for him someday, but as days passed I dint, and I realized that maybe perfection wasn't what I needed to fall in love.

Although I have no idea what I need to fall in love, I'm sure I'll find out someday, when I actually fall for someone.

Whatever that was between Adi and I was so beautiful, I dint want to ruin it ever, I hoped our friendship was going to be the same no matter what though.

I dint feel happy but neither did I feel sad about this break up, it was something that I actually needed, not me only, the both of us, so we would be free to find the love we were looking for.

Arnav parked the car outside my house so I stepped out and headed inside, we dint even say goodbye, once I walked in, he drove off.

I walked in and found Ananya seated in the hall, I walked towards her and settled down beside her, she looked at me analyzing my face for a while.

"You seem in a mood, what happened?" She asked.

"I just broke up with Aditya." I sighed.

"What? Why? You two were so perfect together Khushi, you looked cute together, why would you break up with him?" She looked at me curiously.

"Maybe because to be happy in life, we need love, not someone to make us look good or perfect." I sighed.

"I fail to understand you but if that's your decision, I support you. I always support you in everything you know." She pouted as she pulled me into a hug.

"I know, that's why you are my best friend." I smiled at her as I hugged her back tighter.