There's something's the world can't change... One of those things are me... I've been through hell and I've haven't  gotten out of it... I'm still in hell I don't show it this is the only time I'll open how I feel towards you all... Some of my followers I absolutely despise some I love (one person that's reading in particular that I won't name)... some I feel are family... I know that even some of you wouldn't help whether think or thin some of you would... some times I just want to die and I hate myself for this... some days I don't... I have mixed feelings towards this world... whether you help me get out of this pit of dispare  or not your still my friends...