Most beautiful thing is to watch your loved one sleep. That peaceful face. Sometimes I even watched my cat during his dreams. I was always wondering what his dreams were about. If i could explain his dreams, by just looking at him, i would say he is running through a long field of flowers, or he is running after the mouse, or he is chased by an old dog. Hopefully technology will give us some sort of insight someday, this could be very interesting to see.

I always had very adrenaline kind of dreams, or big adventure ones. As a kid i mostly dream about flying, my mother was telling me that means i am growing. After a few years I am starting to dream about weird places, unknown to me. I was discovering those places, and I rarely got scared.

First, more lucid dreams about driving my car through a long tunnel. I know exactly where the lights on that tunnel were. I know every turn and the length of the tunnel. Weirdest thing was, when those dreams occurred I had no drivers licence, and I had never even driven a car before.

Second lucid dreams I had a bit later, and I still have them sometimes. They are about a big two floor house, with a big garden and a dog. I have been in almost every room of that house and explored it. I even went to the attic, there is a small place with a lot of different toys, a telescope and big boxes of unused stuff. It is not a scary attic, just an attic I would typically have at home.

Second floor has four rooms and a bathroom. Big open bathroom, with sealing shower, large mirror and nice floor. In the middle is a large living room and on each side are two sleeping rooms for my son and daughter. On the other side there is another sleeping room for my third kid. I have never seen him or her, so I don't know if it is a boy or a girl.

On the first floor we had a large open kitchen with a dining table. I like to cook and I need a lot of space in my kitchen, so this would be perfect for me. I had never seen my bedroom, but I did see the large garage for two cars and the garden with the fence. There is always at least one dog there. But there are always different species. Great Dane or German shepherd or Golden retriever. As i said before we had a large fence and we live near the forest. There is a long driveway, and I was always thinking of putting some surveillance cameras in front of the house, for anyone who would like to bother me. Well this really is a dream house, right?

Third ones are the biggest and most lucid ones about my future. Why do I call all those dreams lucid? Well, I always knew that dreams are just dreams, I could always choose where to go next or what to do. But why are third dreams most important? They came true, well 90% of it till now. Even my first one came true, but I will explain a bit later.

My third lucid dream started in my grandmother's house. I was in her living room, looking around. Then in a corner of the living room, a big bright creature appeared. I couldn't see its face, just its silhouette. I knew that creature is by its best description an angel.

I heard a voice in my head :" I will show you your future, listen to me!"

Left of the creature appeared a woman, smaller figure, curly hair with some highlights. I couldn't see the face. Next to her appeared a man, strong, very tall.

An angel said: " This is your future mother in law.

Her character will remind you of your grandmother. Next to her is her son. Your future partner!"

Next to me appeared two smaller figures, I still couldn't see the faces.

An angel continued: " Those are your children. The older one is your son and the younger is your daughter! They will understand each other well, no matter their age gap!"

I was in shock. I was looking around the place from one figure to the other.

An angel proceeded:" After the girl arrives, something is going to happen to your partner! I can see the flashes of heart which stop beating. "You will be alone with your children. You will find a job and provide for them!"

I could see another flashes of me working on my career. Next me in a suit, travelling to different places and working hard. I could see bringing home a lot of money and playing with kids. We were very happy.

Then I collected myself together, took a big breath and asked the angel. " So, what is next? Am I ever going to find someone else, or will I be heartbroken and alone?"

I heard that voice again:" You will heal and move on!"

I saw the small square and a moving head inside. In 2012 the technology was not so advanced as it is now. So I had no clue what that person in the square meant. We sure know moving photographs from Harry Potter and Facebook, but we have never used zoom or similar tools.
"He will love your daughter as his own. He will cherish her!"an angel pretended.

"How will be as a man, what kind of character will he have?" I asked next.

New flashes of images were spinning and an angel explained: " He will be a businessman, he will have his own business and a lot of money. He could buy you with his money, but he wouldn't want that. He will accept you as you are and love you deeply!"

Images were explaining his personality and what he likes. I could see a guitar, trips, a beer, a lot of laughter and hugging.

In the end I saw myself and my children in my grandmother's house preparing for a trip. I had an engagement ring on my finger and in my heart I knew we would take a flight and I would get married to that man.

"It will happen, when your daughter will be three years old!, that was the last of an angel's words.

I woke up sweaty and breathing. My head was spinning. Everything seems so real. My thoughts about those dreams followed me around for a whole day. After a few days I didn't consider them anymore. For me that was just regular, but more vivid dreams.

Three years later, while I was already a mother to my son, I had a really bad day. I argued a lot with my now ex-partner and I had a lot on my mind that day. After a whole day of chores I was exhausted and fell asleep in a few seconds.

Those dreams with an angel came back again, just they were faster. Like a reminder, I could see flashes of images. When I woke up, I couldn't believe it. My mother in law looked exactly like in my dreams, and so did her son.

But we argued so much, I had deep doubts that I would ever have a daughter. One child in that kind of toxic relationship is enough.

Years were passing by, and I did everything that I could to make my relationship working. It was a lot of adjustments, adaptations and I gave a lot of my life hopes and dreams away to keep on going in that relationship. I was entirely adapting myself to my partner's needs, and rarely thought about myself. I was trying to keep myself busy with small hobbies, but if I wanted to do something bigger, there always ended with an argument. Even our intimate life suffered. I have no clue how we came together again for only one night, after all this toxic arguing. But it happened, and I was pregnant again.

It was a baby girl. After her birth, our relationship went downhill even faster. Like I said in the first chapter, he was not around much anymore. He became a stranger. And I felt like I am a stranger, living in a stranger's house. I had to do something. That night I got another vivid dream reminder. When I woke up, I was crying so hard, I couldn't see anything. I was shaking, sobbing, I couldn't believe that my dreams were coming true. In my mind and in my heart I knew I had to leave this man.

Now it's about two years since I packed my bags and went. I am trying hard on my career and haven't had any love interests ever since. I am really wondering, will that last part of my dreams come true? If it will, I have just another year of time. My daughter is two years old now. My dear angel, what will you bring me?