I was in a bad mental state at the time, and then getting a nostalgia trip was not good for me.

1. I was ranting at the beginning about how good my childhood was

2. I went up in age, and then went i got to went I was seven I broke down.

3. When I was seven, I helped my dad move out. He stole shit etc etc. But my grandmother had taken my arm and pulled me away from my other grandmother's car. My arm was promptly dislocated from the fall and then being roughly pulled back up. But I offered to take our dog on a walk to keep her out of the way.

I returned to find my dad driving away with my younger brother. He wasn't on the birth certificate.

WHY WAS I IN A BAD MENTAL STATE?

My mom had yelled at me for forgetting something, and then intrusive thoughts came on. So I tried to watch my comfort vids. (tiktok comps of fandoms I'm in.) I hadn't noticed the next vid was one to bring up your childhood, and it showed Dan's old intro which sent me spiraling. (WHich is why one of the mentioned things was watching yt on my brother's phone. I'd only watch Dan on his phone back then)