My heart stops.

Air flees my lungs like I've been punched with a fist full of passion. There's a dip, an anxious knot in the middle of your stomach when you experience something for the first time. Something simple as holding your first crush's hand or a first kiss. The feeling is so intense it feels like heat vision cutting through your guts.

Honestly, it's hard to pinpoint a way to describe the way I feel like I'm dying and regenerating. That's exactly how I feel when my lips touch Mika's. I'm losing oxygen, yet at the same time, she's the reason I'm still breathing at all.

My neurons are overstimulated, the warmth pooling in my stomach like a boiling pot of water. It's everything I could've ever imagined and more. Sex with Mika is exceptional, but it wasn't as magical as this. Sex is sex. Mika had plenty, but kissing is foreign. We tasted and touched each other in ways that are considered intimate. But it doesn't compare to the way her breath hitches when my lips settle on hers, soft, so soft like cotton candy.

But then everything rushes to my head like a pile of bricks. I broke the promise. I proved that I was like every other man she's spoken to. Regret infects my veins like a virus, and I pull away before we go any further. The silence stretches around us like an expanding bubble with only our ragged breaths as faint noise.

"Mika." My voice comes out like a breathless whisper. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be."

She looks up at me, her gaze naked, exposed. Painfully vulnerable. Mika bites the edge of her lip, her eyes dropping to our feet, glue to the bathroom floors. A hot, molten heat rises from the back of my neck, all the way to my ears, when Mika trudges forward, smashing her lips on mine.

I feel like I'm floating on the clouds outside my own body. Mika taking initiative, kissing me, shoots an arrow straight into my heart, fully capturing me as if I wasn't already gone. This kiss is so much more intense, knowing she wants it as badly as I do. My heart is beating so fast I swear I'm seconds away from going into cardiac arrest. Warmth immediately pools in the bottom of my gut.

Her hands rest on my neck, tilting her head to the side to get better access. When she parts her lips, I greedily slide my tongue between her lips until mine touches her. My pulse bounces around the room like a rubber ball. A groan comes from deep in my chest, my hands tightening on her hips as our tongues collide in a beautiful, fucking dirty mess. My mouth tingles. Does that sound fucking stupid?

Mika pulls back, trying to catch her breath. "You caught me, Asiel Morterero." My chest flutters at her words. Before we can regain our breathing, Mika leans in and kisses me, our mouths parting and sucking on each other. One of my hands cups the back of her head, and the other grabs her waist, signaling her to jump.

My skin burns when her legs lock around my waist, and she grips my shoulders tightly as I slam her onto the bathroom counter, causing everything to tumble down. I groan as the kiss turns harsh, scrape and clash of our teeth. Her fingers run down my tie, tugging it off my neck while never breaking the kiss. My blood drums in my ears, rushing through my veins as I get lost in her sweet taste.

"Mika." I break apart, only to be dragged right back in. "I'm yours. You and me. We're the stars and the moon."

Her breath falls on my lips, searing my skin. "I'm yours. I think I've been yours since the second I met you."

Unable to get enough of her, I capture her lips in a passionate kiss. Her lips part as if she was feeling the same addictive desire I was, and I slip my tongue into her mouth. She moans, fisting my hair with one hand and lifting my shirt with the other. Removing my lips for even a second is a task-- a chore, I don't want to do. My hands slip from around her waist to her ass, filling my palms with each cheek.

Now that we finally kissed, I don't think we can ever stop.

We stay in the bathroom for what feels like hours, devouring each other like horny teenagers. Our tongues meet again, colliding in a ravishing, sloppy mess. Our teeth clash, our breaths heavy, and losing coordination from how wet our lips are. She grips the collar of my shirt, tugging me even closer, kissing me harder, like it was her last dying breath.

Pleasure shoots to my groin, growing exceptionally hard at the collection of Mika's moans of approval. Opening her legs wider, I grind against her, dying for more friction. She removes her lips from mine, and I groan, feeling incomplete without her lips on me.

A shudder rolls through my body when Mika moans in the shell of my ear. "Just fuck me already."

I laugh, hiding my amusement in the crook of her neck. Before Mika has a chance to capture my lips, I tilt her head to kiss the underside of her jaw, leaving a trail of sloppy kisses down her neck. She giggles, nibbling on her bottom lip as she fists my hair with both hands. I suck on her skin, my hands undoing the buttons of her jeans, and my hands slide in once I get them open.

Her breath hitches when my fingers find her pussy, wet and slippery. She wasn't lying-- she was desperate for my touch. She grinds against my hands, causing my fingers to slip through her pussy lips. I smile against her neck, thrusting my finger in and out in a leisurely way to drive her insane.

I thrust one finger inside her. "This pussy is mine." She moans in approval, licking her lips as I shift my vacant hand to her ass. "This ass is mine." My rough voice comes out in a harsh rasp as I nibble on her neck, using the vacant hand to grip it. "This neck is mine. It wears my hand, so beautiful, like your own personal necklace."

Two fingers go in while my thumb rubs circles on her nub. "But out of everything... Those lips are especially mine." I attack Mika with my lips, sucking on her bottom one and biting down on it--hard. I swallow Mika's gasp when I slip in another finger, stretching her so wide that she returns the favor by biting my lip.

"I'm going to come." Her grip on the back of my shirt tightens, nails digging into my back. I'm starting to understand why girls like being slapped when they fuck because a part of me goes feral at the sweet pain coming from her nails. Her arousal leaks down my hand, drenching her thong as she climaxes, moaning into my mouth.

"You had enough, Princesa?" I tease, sucking her white, creamy arousal from my fingers.

Her chest rises and down-- her cheeks flush pink. "It's amusing that you think that." She gently pushes me to the wall with her heel and jumps down from the bathroom counter. My eyelids grow heavy with lust as she rips my shirt open, buttons flying everywhere. "You ruined me, Asiel. I'm infected, and I don't think it's possible to ever have enough."

Every nerve fires up, melting at how her dainty hands feel on my tone waist. My brows pull in tight, having enough of all the teasing, and capture Mika, flinging her over my shoulder. She laughs when I give her ass a slap and another for the hell of it. I throw her down on the bed and watch her pretty ass lay there as I remove my pants.

"Hold on to the headboard," I demand, observing the way her pupils dilate at my authoritarian tone.

Mika doesn't fight against my words, holding the headboard with both of her hands. It's awkward to take charge, but I wanted to be in control tonight. I wanted to show Mika how making love is better than a fuck. Smirking, I walk over to the side of the bed, Mika's eyes widening at the sight of my hard cock as I use my tie to bind her wrist.

I climb onto the bed, standing between her thighs as I kiss every inch of her body. One of my many ways of showing her how much I love her. My pulse is racing so fast I fear a heart attack is on the horizon as I look down at her. A smile tugs at her lips, her hair cascade on her shoulders like waves-- a goddess, a guardian angel, an imperfect human that fits into my broken half.

I press my thumb to her bottom lip, opening my heart to her like I've done since day one. "Tell me you won't ever leave. Tell me that you carry me in here." My eyes float to her heart.

Mika seizes my thumb, lapping her tongue around it like the way she does with my cock. "I do. You're the only person who's worth fighting for."

That's it.

My palms rest on either side of her head, and I lean down, pressing our lips together, and slide my tongue inside. She opens wider, letting me dominate the kiss. My hands roam her body with roughness and urgency, squeezing her nipples in my fingers. We can spend the entire night kissing, and I wouldn't complain.

"Fuck," I groan, swiping my tongue over my lips as I press my forehead against hers. "I'm happy you were my first."

We're close enough, our breaths intermix. "And your last?"

My heart drums in my ears. "Especially my last."

"Thank you," Mika whispers, her aquamarine irises glimmering with admiration. "Thank you for showing me what love feels like. Thank you for never giving up on me. But most of all, thank you for loving me."

Love erupts in my chest like lava shooting from a volcano. She's been living in my heart since the day I met her, and now I live in hers. I was ready to spend my whole life being the only one in love. But I'm a fool. Mika's actions have been right in front of my face. In her own way, she's been showing how this relationship wasn't only one side. 

Thank God I went to Diablo's Paraiso.

Thank God I let her wreck me in ways I can never recover from.

Her eyes sport a glassy tint as tears pool in them, sliding down her cheek as I push her legs back and rest them on my shoulders. My cocks rest on her entrance, getting wet as I rock my hips back and forth. Mika sniffles, rubbing her nose against mine before pressing our lips together in a sweet, slow kiss.

I'm suddenly hit with a wave of nerves. I want to make this night memorable for her. My eyes stay on Mika while my hands grab onto her thighs, pushing them down. It was so intense, personal, intimate. Her eyes roll back when I push into her, filling her up to the brim. I groan, my eyes shut for a millisecond before I'm locked on Mika again. She's warm, so warm. All mine.

Her pussy makes those sweet, heavenly sounds, gripping my cock so tightly. A quiet noise crawls up my throat as I move in and out at a slow, controlled pace. I latch onto Mika's lips, giving her control. The air stills. It's like we're stuck in the moment and I never wanted it to end. Lazy and wet, her tongue licks the roof of my mouth, moaning with my every thrust.

"You're so beautiful," I murmur, watching the way her face contorts as I slide out and thrust myself fully in. "I'll gladly give up my chance at salivation if that means I can stay here with you forever."

Her lips fight a smile. "I don't want this to end either. I'm afraid of what comes next."

My lips press on Mika's for a quick, sweet kiss. "Don't be."

I angle her hips higher to fill her up better. It drives me insane. The sweet vice of her pussy, edging me to climax. Sweat falls down my back. The overwhelming sensation building at my cock threatens to explode, but I focus my attention elsewhere. Mika has to finish before I can.

Gnawing at my bottom lip, I pick up the pace and fuck her faster. Mika's hands go to my back, dragging a hiss out of me when her nails dug into my back, her eyes shutting close.

"I want your eyes on me. I want you to see me," I order, driving my hips further and further, stuffing my dick inside, stretching her beyond belief. Wet slaps come from our physical contract.

Mika whimpers, trying to capture me into another kiss, and I give in because, for her, I'll do anything. Her lips are soft, easy to fall into. Butterflies tingle at the lower bottom of my abdomen, and I open my mouth, giving her the air she needs. Mika cries into my mouth, following the pattern of my rhythmic thrusts. My hand cups the back of her head, sucking on her tongue.

A deep groan vibrates through the kiss as I'm teetering on the edge, about to let loose. I've been trying to hold back, but I can't for much longer.

Mika breaks away, whispering, "I'm coming."

"Me too," I whimper.

She digs her nail into my bare back, trailing them down as a shudder overwhelms her body. Her warm arousal coats my cock, making the pain of her nails wrecking my skin an enjoyable bundle of sensations. She unravels like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. Her breathing is harsh as I push in and out a few more times before my core tightens and my cock jerks, spurting my seed into her.

Mika clenches and unclenches her thighs, whimpering from how delicate her pussy is. My thrust comes to a halt, and I pull out, a few drops of my come landing on the sheets. White come leaks from her sweet petal-fold lips, and I feel complete.

Because for the first time-- for the both of us, we made love.

Ahhh, finally I'm back! And I have amazing news for you guys!!! I've finished the book offline so that means I'll be posting daily 😝😝until we reach the end!!

I'm super super exciting, I'm also working on the epilogue. So hopefully it will be complete by the time we reach the end of the book!! I hope you guys are excited to get a dose of Mika and Asiel for weeks to come ❤️💜❤️💜💜❤️💜

ALSO HOW SWEET yet sexy was this scene? Or am I lacking? I tried to make it more romantic than hot, but I feel like Mika and Asiel are always hot... idk let me know 😂😂

How did you guys feel? Did they give you the butterflies? Are you guys happy for them? Or you can't be happy knowing something one of them doesn't know 👀👀 let me know

Love you 💜❤️💜❤️

Thank you for getting Mika all the way to 324K reads!!! So freaking insaneeee bro like seriously 💜

P.S. I feel like this song might fit better in another chapter if you listen to the lyrics but I also just wanted to put it..😋