Two months have passed since Mehmed has been killed by orders of his father Sultan Murad Khan.

Mehmed's favourite Gulnuş Sultan was sent to the Old Palace, while I took care of my grandson Murad.

Mehmed's secret crush, free woman Azize gave birth to a daughter named Neslihan. Azize promised me for loyality and we decided it would be the best to keep it in secret.

I sent her money every month to make sure my granddaughter Neslihan has a good life. I knew she would life more carefree and more easily being outside of the Palace and all the hell this Palace brings to the people.

I was spending every night with my beloved husband Murad in his chambers, that I could barely time find to rule over the Harem.

I wanted to be with Murad as his sickness showed a lot of bad progress, unfornatley. I knew I could lose my Murad every day, and I wasn't ready for that.

That night was the special night, because it was excatly 20 years since the day Murad and I met for the first time.

" I remember the day I saw you Alexandra, like it was yesterday." Murad said as we were on his terrace, and he was laying in my lap as he was so weak.

" You haven't called me Alexandra for years." I said to him and blushed at the mention of those days.

" My Alexandra, my Mihrişah. You are center of my world. I think my life would have no sense if I would not have met you. You lighted up my world like no one else could have done it. Only with you I could have been the real me, just how I am. I never had to act in front of you. You were the only one who accepted me just for who I am, unlike others." Murad said and smiled to me.

" If I could have more lifes Murad, I would wish to spend each of my life with you. With you I lived through everything, happiness and pain. But you were always with me and I always felt safe next to you." I said to him and holded his hands.

" I know I have done bad things to you. I will never forgive myself for what I wanted to marry Farya just because of political alliance, and by that way I hurted you. I want you to forgive me for each time I hurted you. For each concubine I called and you were hurt. No one of them could compare to you, because you were the only one I loved. I want to apologise you for banishing you to Old Palace for three months. I want you to forgive me for all my sins my love." Murad said to me as he was too weak now.

" I forgive you everything my love, will you forgive me for my sins?" I asked him.

" I forgive you everything." Murad said and started coughing, and then holded my hand even more strongly.

" I want you to make our children remember me only for the good things. I don't want them to remember their father as a murderer and a cold person." Murad said to me and kissed my lips gently.

" Your children will always remember you as the best possible father, my Murad." I said to him and tried to stay strong as I knew this would be the last time I am spending with him.

" I want you to know that I loved you more than anything in this world. I hope you will always remember Murad who might have been Sultan of the whole world, but would be a slave for your love." Murad said and he was talking so slowly from all the weakness.

" Murad I don't want you to leave me, I need you in my life. I can't live without you. Nothing will make sense anymore." I said to him as tears started going down my face like crazy.

" Children need you, my love... Take care of them... I will always look at you and protect you... " Murad said and at that moment he just stopped breathing.

I knew the time has come. I know I stayed without my Murad. I stayed without love of my life. My sun and my moon, I stayed without my everything. I stayed alone in this world.

The storm has started on the sky and high rain started to fall. Thunder and lightning was all around.

I stood there on the rain without any will for the life anymore. Always when I would lose my will to live, my Murad would make me feel better and make me feel loved again.

But I didn't have Murad anymore. My Murad has left this world leaving the Empire and family to me to take care of it.

I might have been strong woman but without him I had nothing. I had no strength to do anything. Only thing I wanted was to give my life, just to make Murad live.

The morning came and sunshine removed all the black clouds. But nothing has seemed the same way to me. The birds had another song this day, not so happy like the others days it was. Nothing was like it was before. A new era has started. A new chapter.

I walked towards my chambers where all of my children awaited for me. I could see smile on their face because they saw me, but I couldn't hide my sadness in front of them anymore. They were old enough to realise the pain that will get to each one of us.

"Valide, what happened?" Ismihan Kaya asked me worriedly when she saw weakness on me.

I saw all my children looking at me worriedly, and no one of them had idea what happened, because we hid Murad's sickness from them for a long time.

"May your father Sultan Murad Khan rest in peace." I just shortly said and went down on my knees from all the weakness.

First I lost my son, and two months after I have lost my Murad whom I can't live without. I could be without food, water and breath, but I couldn't be without my Murad.

My children approached around me and they felt the same pain I felt. I wasnt strong enough to hide my emotions in front of them anymore, I couldn't do it.

Haci Aga came inside with a sword and signalised me that it is the time. I gor up and tried to stay as stronger as I could, because otherwise I would collapse right at the moment.

I took sword in my hands and walked in front of my eldest son Selim, which by tradition is now legal Sultan of Ottoman Empire.

" My Selim, from now on this state is in your hands. I hope God will help you and be on your way to become magnificent Sultan of this country." I said to him as he took sword into his hand, and all of his siblings bowed to him.

I walked inside the Harem where everything was ready for Murad's funeral. The last time my beloved husband will be close to me.

" Attention! Her Imperial Majesty Valide Mihrişah Sultan!" ennuch at the doors yelled and everyone bowed to me.

From this day I was Valide Sultana of this Harem. But that meant nothing to me. I wished my Murad would live enough to see our grandchildren. How we would enjoy our old days in Palace being happy, but nothing of that could become reality now.

I had to get with a fact that Murad is not here anymore, and there was no way I could get with this fact. I didn't want to live a life without him.

After Murad's coffin walked through the Harem for the last time, we all had to get to the Tower of Justice to see my son Selim becoming Sultan of the Ottoman Empire.

My daughters walked close to me because they knew I could collapse at any moment. I didn't have any more strength. Nothing in this life could help me anymore.

We went on the Tower of Justice to look how my son Selim is being named as Sultan of our glorious Empire. People greeted Selim with joy, because they haven't loved Murad because of all the things he prohibited for them.

All the soldiers bowed to my son Selim and promised to loyality only for him. I was proud to see my son being accepted so well by them.

" What will be with Ahmed and me, Valide?" my son Suleyman asked me.

" You will stay here with us in Palace. You shouldn't worry my lions." I said to them and gave them slight smile.

Later that day, I called all of my children to gather in my chambers. Each one of them came and I organised special lunch for us.

Each one of us was sad for Murad who passed away, but at the same time happy and proud of Selim for ascending the throne.

" I want to tell you my children, that you should be always close to each other. You should take care of each other. You should love and respect each other. I would never like to see anyone of you wanting anything bad to another." I said to them.

" I hope you will all be here to help each other when the help is needed, that you will defend each other, and that you will stand against your enemies." I said to them and they looked all at me confused.

" Why are you telling all of this to us, Valide?" Ismihan Kaya asked me worriedly and confused.

" Because I won't be always here, and I want you all to know that I loved you all so much. Your father and I gave everything we could for you. I hope you will remember your parents as people who gave the best to you." I said to them as I started to feel weakness from the poison I putted in my drink.

" Valide, you will be here with us. You need us for the state!" Selim said to me worriedly.

" I trust you Selim that you will be magnificent ruler of this Empire. I believe people will celebrate you. I have trust in you." I said to him as I started feeling like everything around me is moving.

" Valide, what have you done to yourself?" Mihrimah asked me worriedly.

" I can't live without your father anymore. The poison was only decision I could do. I hope you will remember us only for the good, and that you will remember how much we loved you." I said until it became completley dark in front of my eyes.

" Valide!" all the children screamed at the same time, as their Valide Mihrişah Sultana passed away from poison in front of their eyes, the next day after their father Sultan Murad Khan passed away.