" Congradulations Mihrişah Sultana, you are pregnant again." Nurse said to me as I opened my eyes in an ambulance. I saw Murad sitting on my bed and I was confused what happened and why I am here.

" What happened to me?" I asked nurse as I was really confused. Happiness got all over me because my boy Selim is soon going to have a brother or a sister, even if he was still a baby.

" Mihrişah, you fainted in Gardnes. I was very afraid of you. But thankfully to God, we will have another child." Murad said as he took his hand in mine and kissed it, but I removed my hand from his hands and didn't want to even look up at him.

When he mentiones Summer Gardens I remembered what happened there and how he annonuced his wedding with Farya.

" Mihrişah, why are you like this?" Murad said as he tried to touch my face, but I looked at another side. I was so angry on him that even the fact that he is father of my children won't allow me to forgive this to him.

" Why aren't you with Farya? Why are you here with me now?" I asked him as I was angry on him. I never could even imagine he would do something like this to me.

" That marriage is more because of politics. I want to keep good relationship with Hungary, and marriage with Hungarian Princess Farya is good idea for that. I dont love her or have any emotions towards her. You know that you are my center of the world." Murad said trying to comfort me, but I didn't believe him a word. I was sure he is lying to me.

" I don't believe you, Murad. I will never forgive you this. You can forget about me from now on." I said to him as I didn't even look at him how angry I was.

" Why are you always acting like this to me? Why do you always threat me that I can forget about you if I do something that you dislike? Why don't you try to understand me?" Murad said and I couldn't believe how he acts.

" You think that I should accept that you are going to marry another woman when I already have one son and I am carrying another child? I would never accept something like that." I said to him.

" You will have to accept that. I won't let you behave like Ayse did. I will take care of what is happening." Murad said to me and he started sounding a bit more angrily than he was.

" You think that I am like Ayse and I would do something bad to her?" I asked him and I couldn't believe. But of course, he was right. I would do whatever is needed to get rid of Farya. But I wouldn't do that, because Kosem Sultana would do that.

" I don't know, jealousy can do many things to people. When people are jealous they tend to do something they wouldn't usually do." Murad said to me.

" That woman has never been acting nice towards me and she treats me on worst possible ways. But I am not like her and I am not like Ayse. I won't do anything bad to her. It's not her who did mistake, but you did." I said to him angrily.

" Mihrişah, take care of your tone. The fact that I love you doesnt mean I will tolerate this behaviour." Murad yelled on me.

" I already told you that if you loved me you would never do that. I can't be angry on you, I am just hurt. I cant believe you are like this. I cant believe what fool I was to believe you." I said to him and left the ambulance without bowing him as I was really angry on him. To be honest, I was more hurt.

Later this night in Harem there was a huge party because of Farya and Murad's wedding. I didn't even want to go there because I couldn't see woman which I hate being happy because she is marrying with a man I love most.

" Sultana, you should go to Harem. You know concubines will talk a lot about you and everyone will talk how jealous you are." Haci-aga tried to make me go to Harem, but there was nothing and no one who could tell me to go there.

" I don't care anymore what will Harem talk about me. I don't care about anyone here. Leave me alone, please." I said to him and he left. I couldn't stand being with anyone now. Only thing I wanted to do is to cry. My heart was broken and I was so hurt.

" Mihrişah, are you fine?" I heard Gevherhan Sultana coming into my chambers.

I removed tears from my face and I tried to look like I am not sad, but there was no way how I could hide it.

" I am as much as I could be, Sultana." I said to her as she sat next to me. She seemed really worried for me.

" My brother did this because of political alliance, you know he loves only you." Gevherhan tried to comfort me. She was such a sweetheart and she was total opposite of her siblings Atike and Murad, which were pretty cold.

" If he loved me he would never do that. He was yelling on me today. He is more happy because of his marriage to Farya than the fact I am pregnant with his child again." I said and burst into tears as I couldn't handle this pain anymore.

" I never liked Farya. I don't believe her. But I only know that this won't last very long. My brother did this only because of political alliance. He will get tired of her soon. But he will never get tired of you, Mihrişah. You are only woman he loves. I know my brother very well. I know it's hard for him now also. He has to take care of the state and also of his harem." Gevherhan said and I knew she was right, but right now I couldn't accept that fact.

" But how could I stand her here for so long? How can I accept the fact that she is his legal wife?" I said to Gevherhan and couldn't stop my tears anymore, which were running down my face.

" Only thing I want from you is that you don't do anything bad to Farya as Ayse did to you. That way you will only push Murad away from you." Gevherhan said to me and she was totally right. I wouldn't do the things Ayse did to me, I can't act the same way they acted towards me. I will find new ways.

" I would never do anything bad to her. Murad also thinks I would. But I am not like this. I suffered here, and I would never want anyone else to suffer like I did." I lied to Gevherhan because I didnt want anyone to know what I am planning to do. I won't let Farya stay here for a long time.

" Now come with me, we will go to Harem. Show them you are strong and you dont care. That way my brother could be only sad because he made you sad." Gevherhan said and I followed her to the Harem.

I walked towards the Harem proudly, hiding any of my emotions. No one should know how I feel now. I won't let Farya be happy because I am sad now. In the meantime while I made sure Gevherhan isn't watching, I took posion with myself. I decided I will drink it when the time comes.

We walked there and saw Kosem is sitting on the throne while Atike and Ayse are sitting next to her. Everyone was there except Farya.

Musicians were playing the music, and dancers were dancing. I could see Kosem is enjoying this ceremony, even though he was upset about this.

I sat next to them, and I could see Kosem was looking at me with a look which would say 'everything is going to be fine, trust me'.

Ayse was pretty upset also, the same way I was. Only difference was that Murad didn't care for her, while he was still taking care of me. The news for my pregnancy made her upset and mad even more.

Atike Sultana was enjoying this most out of everyone. She looked at Farya as her best friend and she also hated me, so this was really good to her.

At that moment Farya came inside the Harem with white wedding dress and veil on her head. She looked proudly as never before.

I acted strongly, but the fact that I am seeing another woman in wedding dress marrying to a man I love. I couldn't even describe how I wanted to be in this position now, to wear wedding dress and becoming Murad's legal wife.

Farya came to Kosem's throne and kissed her hand proudly. She sat on the seat next to her and looked at me and Ayse for the whole time. She knew we were jealous and she enjoyed in this moment.