I can't describe the way I feel in this very moment. I can still feel the way your arms wrapped around me; loose enough so that I could breathe, tight enough that I knew you didn't want to let go. I still couldn't seem to catch my breath because goodbyes like this will never be worth words. You said a lot through your sad smiles and constant goodbyes, the overuse of the word only making it feel more real, the repetition adding weight onto my heart. Its hard to say goodbye to one of the only things I could truly rely on, but I can only wish you the best, although I'll ultimately miss your company. You were the sun amidst the dim lit sky, never wavering, not even for a second. I wish the sun didn't have to set, I wish I could live like this all my life. I know there are things waiting to be explored, but why must I explore when all I want is this? I just want the realness I feel when I'm with you, but I know that may never be enough. We live on opposite sides of a coin, only coexisting in a sense of balance. We balance each other out, but we will never see eye to eye. We are not realistic, we are not rational, but oh how I wish I could beat the odds with you.
C.V.