Apology
Next day i walked to the school alone as i entered i saw jackson and taehyung waiting for me near my desk.
"Hey you are ok right..?"Taehyung asked carressing my hairs.
"Yes" i smiled.
I sat on my place and we started talking few moments later Jin enter the class room and sat on his desk. Bell rang.
Class was in progress, i was still mad at him because he not even thought of apologizing for what he did, in between the class i was stealing glances at him.
During break hour, i walked out with jackson passing jin who was sitting on his desk still packing his bag. Everyday i use to wait with him to pack his bag but today i did not even looked at him.
In the canteen;
"Yah taehyung you need to teach me the sums which was thought today i have problem understanding it, arraseo?" I said.
"Ok",he replied. Just then i saw jin entering the canteen and looking for us, i rolled my eyes and started talking with jackson. Jin came and took the seat next to Taehyung.
"Jin why are you late?" Taehyung asked him to initiate the conversation.
"I was called in the principal's office for some work" he said with a smirk and glanced at me.
"Why you were called" jackson asked placing his chopstick on the table.
"For some paper work" he said.
The whole time jin was either talking to jackson or taehyung in between he use to glance at me.
"Tae when should i come to your house?" i asked switching my glance from jin to taehyung.
"Anytime" Taehyung said giving me a smirk.
"A friend indeed..!" i mumbled in a way to taunt jin.
"Okay guys i think i will leave first" i said smiling and packing my lunch box and then placing it in my bag. I then walked away.
"Y/N...." i heard jin calling me as i made my way towards the classroom. My heartbeat fasten telling me to stop and face him but my brain was telling me to keep walking and avoid him. It felt like my brain and heart are fighting with each other, one for love and other for pride. The worst thing is life is when you are confused between the fight of brain and heart. My brain won the match and i decided to keep walking.
I was walking then suddenly, i was pulled by jin towards him. I looked back at him, he was still holding my arm.
"Now what?" i asked him with cold expression.
"I wanna talk to you" he said in a soft voice, i could see a warm expression on his face, apology in his eyes, my heart melted by i decided to be strong and ignore all the things which can distract me even him.
"I am sorry" he said while his eyes still glued to mine.
"Please don't waste your precious time on a stupid and dumb girl who has no expectations and aims in her life" i said with anger and gave him a jerk to release my arm which he was holding.
Actually, i have already forgiven him but i didn't wanted to be a silly and easy girl. I also have some pride i thought.
In the next lectures i could see him looking back over his shoulder to take glances at me. He never did that before it was the first time i have seen him doing that.
After school i told taehyung to walk me home as i didn't wanted to see jin in any case.
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'Y/N look i am sorry for what happened that day, what i said was sudden. I know my words have hurt you a lot but please talk to me i am feeling guilty.' I smiled as i read that message from jin. Actually i was feeling guilty too, from 2-3 days he was trying to apologize for what happened but i kept on ignoring him.
'What should i do?' i thought, i wanted to talk to him very badly, i wanted to scold him but how should i initiate? was the question.
The next day while walking to the school i thought of talking with him and making things clear once for all.
I entered the class jin was no where seen. 'He must be late' i thought. Bell rang and class started but still jin didn't came. I was worried, many things came in my mind, is he okay, what must be the reason he skipped?
In the whole lecture i was staring at his empty desk, missing him.
The school went as usual but my mind was still thinking about jin. 'What should i do?, should i go and check to see is he okay?' i thought.
"Eomma i am home" i said sitting on the couch.
"Y/N i am going out, so eat your lunch and study and yes your appa and me will be going to visit your aunty so we will be coming 1-2 hours late than usual arraseo?"
"Yes eomma" i shouted.
I changed my clothes to over-sized t-shirt and shorts, ate my lunch and was playing with my phone just then i received a message,
"Y/N i need your help please visit me its an emergency..!" after reading jin's message i stood up from the bed, terrified, many thoughts came in my mind. I took my keys and started walking towards his house.
I knocked the door. The door was opened and i was pulled inside the house.
He close the door and pulled me towards him hugging me tightly. My head was buried in his well build chest. The hug was tight and firm.
"Jin are you okay..?" I barely spoke as i was hugged by him.
He broke the hug and grasped my forearms, now my face was in front of his face, with him looking in my eyes, i could see a friendly smile on his face.
"Are you okay?" I asked him again with my eyes still fixed in his.
"Yes" he said with a grin and he again pulled me in a hug. This was something unexpected, i was still in shock about what was happening, but this moment was something i wanted to cherish. i was close to him...so close that i can even hear his heartbeats and the warmth of his body was making me melt, the fragrance of cologne was so pleasant that it was making me go crazy, i could feel my heartbeats increasing with every seconds. I hugged him back more tightly.
"I am sorry Y/N!, i thought i lost a friend who is dear to me" He said as he was caressing my hairs.
"Yah, jin its fine" I patted his back.
He broke the hug and he looked at me with somewhat teary eyes.
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"Here take this" he said as he lifted his hand to give me the coffee mug.
"Thanks" i said getting down from the kitchen counter.
Then we walked towards the living room and sat on the couch next to each other but facing each other.
He smiled, it was the first time i was seeing his beautiful smile without any worries, tension and burden.
"Y/N, actually i am sorry about earlier, i said in the flow so please don't mind it" he smiled as he said.
"Its okay jin, i trust you, i was mad at you but i then i thought you must be having your own reasons" i said as i sipped the coffee.
"Actually, i am the only child and i never had anybody with me since childhood. My mother use to hates my friends and she never allowed anybody to visit my house so i never made any friends and grew up alone. Due to my mother's transfer my friends never lasted and then it was a time when i decided not to make friends and i started concentration on other things like painting and art." He looked down for a second and then at me.
"People use to ignore me as i use to show cold response towards them. Then they use to give up on me, leaving me alone. When i met you i showed the same cold response towards you, but you never left me, you kept on interfering in my life and that made me feel like i need friends to survive and that started worrying me, because i did not wanted to depend on anybody and that's why i was mad at you" his eyes went from clear to teary as he spoke his heart out.
WE ALL ARE LONELY SOMEWHERE RIGHT? WE JUST WANT TO BE IN OUR COMFORT ZONE AND WHEN SOMEONE TRIES TO PULL US OUT FROM IT WE PANIC BECAUSE WE ARE AFRAID OF CHANGES.
I was looking at him, he opened his heart in front of me, i started feeling guilty for what i did, he was different today. I saw a completely different side of his; a clumsy, soft side. He was like a small child lost in the huge city searching for haven. Today i fell in love with him all over again.
I wanted to hug him and kiss him badly, i wanted to tell him that i will always be there for him and he can depend on me, but all i could do was pat his shoulder and smile.
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