Lana Pipes

In chemistry, there is a term called 'saturated'. I never really understood that, but I guess I understand it now. More like I think my mind is in a saturated state. 

Saturation is a process or state that occurs when a place or thing is filled with people or things so that no more can be added. 

And I am in that saturated state. I can no longer hear all the school noises. My eyes failed to capture any other sight except Jaro's gigantic physique staring at me with lost dubiety. 

"Lana," Paxton's word broke this appalling quietude, approaching us. "Listen, I know I messed up real bad but I wish you'd show me some mercy and grant me a wish to fix things between us. I do want to" He continued his speech. 

"I need to go," I declared and left. 

Scott asked me if I was okay? I told him to go home alone and I needed to think. 

I walked alone serenely.

Does Jaro Briggs love me? What the actual fuck. 

I don't even know how to react. I am so stunned by Scott's sentence that I didn't even think of what I think of Jaro. I still am in a saturated state. My feet are moving and I don't even know if I am going in the right direction to home. 

"Lana. Lana," I heard Jaro's scream from afar. He ran to me. He is in a Black V-neck T-shirt and dark blue jeans. His shirt is identical to his eyes and hair. And his hair gosh, which hair spray does he even use? How come it appears so good all the time? 

"I understand if you need space but you are peculiarly quiet and it deeply is daunting to me," He shut his eyes. 

Is he shy?

"Walk with me. Let's go to the park," I announced. His face still gave me a worried look and he started to walk with me. The park is unusually vacant today. I stepped into the park sat on a swing and gestured for him to sit on the swing next to me. 

"I always liked swings since I was a child. The adrenaline rush it gives is insane. Most importantly no matter how high I go I never felt a pinch of fear because I have the ropes to cling," I stated and began to play with the swing and laughed. 

"You need a person to cling to as you play with a swing. The ropes you refer to are the person who you can cling to while you can play your swing and reach the heights you crave to reach in your life. The support and care you deserve," He solved the riddle and understood what I meant. 

"Your care and support were everything to me when I was, well I was arrested. You stalked me, tutored me, and saved me multiple times. I always knew there was some sorta sexual tension between us. Attraction is one kinda thing but Jaro, do you love me?" I finally questioned. 

"I never thought I would fall in love. To be honest I never was in love. All the past flings and dalliances I had were not even an inch close to love. I thought Michelle was different but I was just young and stupid. I thought I could have real love with Angelina but-," Jaro breathed. 

"I never liked you. I thought you were grumpy, arrogant and bitchy," He blurted. I deepened my glare at him. "I am sorry, baby cakes but you annoyed me," He added. 

"Well, the feelings are mutual," I declared. 

"But whenever you were in danger, I felt it in my veins that I should save you, protect you from everything. I don't know. I just felt it. I thought it was just a human concern but when you were mere inches from becoming a murderer, I wished I was in your place and you'd be safe. I prayed all the gods out there to help you, Lana," He looked me right in the eye. I am not sure I  am breathing. 

"I would have taken the blame for you, I would have even gone to jail for you if it meant you'd be safe. Even then, I tried to deny my feelings for you. I thought it was just a friendly instinct and nothing much. I brainwashed myself that I love Angelina, I was willing to make that work. And then she forbade me from seeing you. It drove me crazy I couldn't tell myself that what I have for you is still a concern or friendly affection. I couldn't lie to myself," He exhaled. 

"I know it is crazy and cretinous but I craved to communicate with you. I couldn't contain myself. Yes, Lana, I do love you. There it is, I have said it which I tried to deny 1000 times and thought if I denied all these silly feelings would go away but- but," He shuttered, panicking looking at me. 

I held his hand tenderly. 

"Now as I express my feelings, I feel this huge relief and I am really glad that I let it out of my chest. I understand if you think this is creepy and, well you know," he stopped looking at his feet. 

"I have one thing to ask you," I caressed his hand. "Do you love me because I resemble my mom?" I questioned. 

He looked astounded. Immersive disturbed. "I love you because you are nothing like her. I love you because you are you. I love you because you are all goofy and shrewd. You give me an adrenaline rush like you are a painting I must paint. Not just any painting, a painting that I should give my heart and soul to," He answered.  

"In my whole life, I have never loved anyone as much as I love my mom. For her, I would do anything. She is my everything. I just don't love this woman because she birthed me, I love her because of the bond we have. I always used to think, that if I had been with her I almost wouldn't need anyone else. My dad used to tease me that I was a 'Mumma's doll', 'Mumsie's pet', 'Mother's daughter' what not?" I commented. 

"Well, we know how much she hates you. The very thing of you and me together would unleash the beast in her. I wouldn't be surprised if she disowns me or destroys you. That would hurt and blemish her so bad that she'd blast like a volcano. And I, who always wished to see her in felicity would be the reason for her morbid," I let out a tear in agony. 

"Not to mention, how much of a hideous, macabre and abashed past you both share," I shrugged. 

"I- I understand what you are intending to state," Jaro frowned. 

"And you are a lot older than me," I implied. 

"Alright. Everything you told was indeed no less than facts and truths. I know you'd reject," He smiled painfully. 

"But if I say that I don't want to turn a blind eye to all these obstacles and be with you, I would be a big fat liar. Yes, my mom hates you to the moon and back but if I say that I couldn't be with you for that, I am afraid that I will be hating myself to the moon and back," I cried. Jaro looked lost and waiting for me to continue. 

"It's not just like you who had been denying your feelings Jaro. I had been there, done that. I wanted to chop off Angelina into two when she forbade you to see me. I didn't realize that all this loathe that I thought was nothing but love," I confessed. 

"I don't know why but I love you too. You are a creep, hypocrite, freak and stalker. You annoyed the shit out of me. Sometimes all I wanted to do was to drive a stake into your heart but now all I want to do is listen to your heart beat for me. I am glad that you confessed too because if you didn't, I couldn't say that your feelings are reciprocated," I stated. 

"You can paint me all you want Jaro. I will gladly be the colours you wanna paint, the pictures you wanna paint," I squeezed his hand. 

"I will be the swing you wanna play on Lana, I will be the ropes that you can count to cling to while you reach the heights you want to," He replied squeezing my hand back. 

In a second, our lips met each other. We were kissing. 

Q/A

Q. Do you like Jaro and Lana together?

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Q. How was your first kiss experience?

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Author's Note:

I hope you enjoyed reading Jaro's confession to Lana. What are your thoughts on them? Stay tuned to know more about them.

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