Ariel's POV

It's been thirty minutes after the huge humiliation that happened in front of my family.

Everybody's faces looked so disappointed and disgusted.

I wish I could've died on the spot right there.

I'm gonna stay in my room and never come out.

I'll stay here until I starve to death.

My life is over.

She already told my family now she's gonna tell everybody else and ruin my life. Now everybody is gonna turn their backs against me.

My family hates me now and I know damn well Prince is gonna break up with me.

I'm so embarrassed I don't even wanna be alive anymore.

My life is completely over...

I grabbed a sharp razor and sliced it across my arm making a few deep cuts. The blood seeped through the cuts and start to burn.

I cried even more, not because of the pain, it's because I hope to bleed to death and I know it's gonna be impossible because I made such little cuts.

I sliced my arm a couple more times, deeper and violently, making myself screech in pain.

I slammed my back against the wall and slid myself down until I hit the floor. I curled myself up and let my tears fall down my face.

I never imagined that Christmas was gonna end up like this.

All I wanted was a nice, peaceful holiday with my family and all I got to end the day is humiliation...

I heard a few knocks at my door, which startled me. The door knob wobbled as if someone was trying to break in. The door didn't open cause I locked it.

"Ariel open the door." I heard Trey's voice muffled through the door.

"Please l-leave me alone. I-I don't want to be bothered." I sobbed.

"Ariel please open the door I have to talk to you.." his voice sound serious.

I hurried across the other side of my room to find something that'll cover up my bloody arm. My heart paced, having mini panic attack as I struggled to find a towel in my room.

"Ariel open the door now I need to talk to you I'm serious." I heard Trey as he wobbled the door knob again.

"Wait!" I screeched while I looked under my bed.

I grabbed a white towel from under my bed and hurriedly wrapped it around my arm tightly. Then, I made my way towards the door.

"Ariel Open the-" I cut him off my swinging the door open.

"What do you want?!" I growled at him.

He walked passed me, walking straight into my room angrily.

"Excuse m-"

He cut me off by gently pushing me to the side, slamming the door shut and locking it without hesitation.

"You're not leaving this room until you tell me what's going on." He crossed his arms.

"No! Get out of here!" I cried as I punched his side.

Trey slapped my hand away, "Ariel something is up and you must tell me."

I sighed and looked down, "No Prince didn't get me pregnant if that's what you're thinking..."

"I know he didn't get you pregnant, Mama told me what happened and I'm pissed at the fact you didn't tell me..." he furrowed his eyebrows.

I looked down feeling ashamed and sat on the edge of my bed.

"That's the type of stuff you need to tell me. Don't just tell Sabrina and Mama and keep it a secret to me..."

"I didn't want to disappoint you..." I said softly.

He kneeled in front of me so that he could see my face.

"We're family! Family doesn't keep secrets! You're my flesh and blood baby sister and I should know every single thing that fucking happen to her cause I love her to death and would kill somebody if somebody were to hurt her! I don't want to see my own baby sister pregnant!"

I sighed, "I know you don't want to see me in this position... that's why I didn't tell you..."

"You can still tell me anything. I'm the man of this house and I'll kill if somebody were to hurt my baby sister. Mama and Sabrina... all they'll do is scream and run around."

"You wouldn't kill.... you're just saying that..." I mumbled.

"I wouldn't kill?" He scoffed. "Why did you say that?" He questioned.

"You'll probably be scared to go to jail. You wouldn't kill William." I replied.

"Hell, I won't be scared going to jail, I'll be happy there knowing that I saved my sister if I were to kill him."

This wouldn't be happening if it weren't for Nia and Latoya. Nia trying to get me with William and Latoya humiliating me in front of my family... what friends I have.

"How long have you've been keeping this from me? When did you find out?" He asked.

I looked down, remembering the times when I was really sick.

"When I had to get rushed to the hospital..." I replied.

"That's was a long ass time ago." He mumbled.

The image of my family staring at me keeps popping in my head.

My eyes start to burn as I developed a strong urge to cry.  I felt Trey sit beside me and put an arm around me.

"This is how I imagined it will be. Everyone would turn their backs on me and hate me because I'm pregnant." I sobbed into my hands.

"We don't hate you Ariel you're crazy for thinking that. Mama, Sabrina and I didn't turn our backs on you."

I shook my head slowly, "No but the rest of our family basically did that.. I thought you would do the same..."

"They just don't know what happened to you, they don't know your story."

"Yeah, but still! That's our fucking family and they shouldn't be giving me disgusted looks at me like that like I'm some type of rat. I'm sure if my own niece or cousin was pregnant at a young age I would be disappointed but I wouldn't judge her because I don't know what happened behind closed doors!" My voice cracked as I begin to cry again.

"You just got to talk to them about i-"

"No! I'm not doing that! It's so e-embarrassing! I'm too embarrassed! I can't. I don't want them to know about what happened to me yet."

"I'll tell them Ari-"

"No! Please don't-"

"Would you rather for them to assume what happened and ignore you for the longest or for them to actually know the truth so they won't view you wrong."

I guess he's right.... I'm still gonna hide from them for years. I don't want them to see me again. I'm too embarrassed.

I sniffed, "Fine. Do it..." I softly said as I cried. "But please wait a while... I don't want my name mentioned to them for at least two weeks. I'm embarrassed."

"I know." He said softly as he hugged me with one arm.

I'm lucky to have a big brother.

I love Trey a lot and Dylan ain't shit... I forgot he was my brother.

We sat in silence.

Trey lifted my arm wrapped in a thick towel.

My heart raced as I realized that the white towel has a big red spot on it, about a size of a quarter.

I thought my bleeding would've stopped by now...

"Why's this on your arm?" Trey questioned as he tried to unwrap the towel.

I snatched my arm away before he could even take the towel off my arm.

"Uh.. nothing." I said softly.

Trey glanced at me, "Ariel, what did I tell you? Don't keep secrets from me... Now what are you trying to hide?"

I sighed and slowly unwrapped the towel off my arm gently, revealing the bloody three deep cuts I made across the inside of my forearm and the inside of the towel has a big bloody spot. My arm is a lot bloody than it was earlier which is scary.

I regret doing this now... why did I do this. This isn't me.

"Ariel. Why do you do yourself like this? You treat yourself so badly..... first starving yourself now... you're cutting..."

I looked down and let tears fall down my face.

"I was trying to commit...." I admitted.

There was silence. All I could hear is him trying to speak but words didn't come out.

"C-c-commit suicide...." His brittle voice cracked.

I nodded slowly. 

I looked up and saw his eyebrows furrow and his icy blue eyes, the exact same color as mine. I could read the hurt in his agonizing face. His eyes turned red as tears formed and his lips quivered a little.

"W-why?" He questioned as small tears slithered down his face.

I looked down and shook my head.

"Can we not t-talk about this..."

"Answer my question." He said sternly.

I sighed and grew weak as I started to cry again.

"Tell me. I'm your brother here..." he pointed at his chest.

I sighed, "I- I just think I shouldn't be here anymore. It's just my que to kill myself at this point. I've been raped and got pregnant.... Everybody knows that I'm pregnant now and things are going downhill and exactly how I expected to be... a lot of hate and judgement thrown at me when they really don't know the truth."

"We just had this conversation. Mama, Sabrina and I never turned your back on you and-"

"I know! But everybody else did! It breaks my heart to see my aunts, uncles and cousins look at me like that.... like I'm some type of diseased animal!" I raged.

"Latoya told it all and she's most likely gonna tell the whole world too! Her fake ass will probably lie too!" Just watch! It's not just family Trey, it's the people who knows us too, don't forget that we're popular and we get on the news and magazines every once in a while. The whole country is gonna be against me and I'm not having that!"

"That's why you shouldn't stay with fake friends cause they'll do this to you... she just wants to embarrass you. If you knew she was fake from the start you should've dropped her ass a long time ago and this wouldn't be happening right now."

"We can just call in for an interview and you can just tell the world what really happened before Latoya tries to ruin your life.."

"No Trey! It's not gonna work like that. Sharing my whole information in the pubic eye? No! Just let her lie about me!" I cried. "My life already over." I sobbed in my hands.

"I just hate my life. It's a mess. I don't wanna be here anymore." I added.

He rubbed my back as I sobbed in my wet hands.

"Look at me Ari." He said softly, gently pulling my hands away from my face.

"You're having a baby and you don't need to be hurting yourself... you're gonna hurt the baby too."

That's the point... I don't want it.

"I wouldn't know what I'd do without you. Please don't ever try to commit, don't even think about it.." his voice cracked. "Everybody in life goes through hard things, the weakest people kill themselves."

"Well I guess I'm weak." I shrugged.

"No, you have to be strong. Please be strong for me, things will get better. You're my baby sister and I can help you through this. I'll do anything for you... I would take a bullet."

"I'm your big brother, I'm the only big brother that actually cares about you and Mama put me in charge to help her take care of y'all and keep y'all safe since we don't have a dad. I'm willing to keep y'all safe and happy, it's my job and I can't do that if you're gonna keep secrets from me. Sabrina is the only one that tells me everything about what happens, I need both of my sisters to tell me what's going on..."

"Did she tell you that she got raped and pregnant with William's baby?" I asked.

"Yeah, she even told me that. I wasn't mad at her... she told me right away."

"Then how come y'all didn't tell me? Y'all definitely kept a secret from me..." I sassed.

Trey sighed, "Ari, this was years ago... she was fourteen and you were still twelve years old... you were too young."

"I was raped at twelve so what difference does it make?" I raised my voice.

"We didn't know that you were being abused too so we decided to not tell you because your were too young..." he told me off. "If you would've told us about William back then, then we would've told you."

I looked down at the floor.

I guess....

We heard the door creak open. Prince walked in, his face full of disappointment.

I thought he would be gone after the huge chaos that happened earlier.

I looked at Trey, "Can Prince and I talk alone? I have to explain to him what happ-"

Prince sighed, "It's okay, heard everything, I was behind the door the whole time." Prince told me walking into the room.

I felt my cheeks get hot from embarrassment.

I didn't want him to know that I cut my arm for the first time and starve myself almost everyday... that's too much information.

But at least he knows how I got pregnant that's the only thing that matters.

He could've left this house thinking that I was cheating on him.

"Trey, I think you should leave cause I gotta talk to her privately." He said nicely to Trey.

Trey nodded and left the room leaving Prince and I alone. The room was awkwardly silent while Prince stood there with his eyes glued to the floor.

Prince tried to talk but he hesitated and looked down. The look on his face gives me a hint that he's gonna say some bad news.

"Baby I don't know how to say this without making it sound bad..." He finally spoke.

Bad? Is he breaking up with me?!

What does he mean by bad?

It shouldn't be bad!

I raised an eyebrow, "What? Tell me."

"Ariel... I-I wanna take a break." He said nervously.

My heart shattered. My lips quivered and tears start to fill in my eyes as I start to cry again.

"W-why? I didn't even do anything wrong!" I cried.

"I know baby just listen please." He grabbed my arm. "I thought it'll be a good idea to take a break... you're going through a lot. I just want things to die down a little bit and we can get back together another day." He explained.

I snatched my arm away from him and let out a soft cry.

"You don't even have to lie to me Prince, you're breaking up with me because I'm pregnant are you?!" I assumed.

He raised an eyebrow, "What? No hun. Never. It's not your fault that you're pregnant. And second, I just want to take a break because I think that'll make things easier."

"How would that make things easier? You're leaving me! You're supposed to stay with me no matter what happens. Remember what you said?" I raised my voice.

"I-I know Ari but listen, I'm doing this so that we can have a healthy relationship. We've been in a lot of arguments lately and it's been stressing us out. And you've also got things going on in your life."

"So what? Every couple argues every now and then!" I stomped at him as I raged.

"I know but we argue more than actually do stuff together. When's the last time we've been on a date? It's been a long time. We can't do any of this stuff because we're so busy going through all this drama." He explained.

I grew irritated and hurt so bad that I don't even believe this is happening right now. I feel like it's a realistic nightmare.

I can't believe that I'm actually standing in front of Prince having a conversation like this. I can't believe my ears, I never thought that Prince would ever say something like this.

Where's Prince? This isn't him...

"Fine. If that's what you want to do then okay..." I mumbled wiping the tears off my face.

"Just know that I love you so much Ari and I'm still gonna be here for you..." he grabbed my arm.

I pulled my arm away, "You can leave Prince. I'll talk to you tomorrow. I've had enough of today." My voice cracked.

He gently grabbed my arm again and slowly pulled me closer to him. I snatched away from him and turned my back.

"You can leave Prince." I repeated.

"Ari baby please don't be mad at me you have to understand."

"I understand. Now leave!" I snapped.

I heard him sigh and his footsteps going towards the door.

I guess I'm single....

I heard the door close and I fell straight to my knees and cried some more.

This has been the worst Christmas in history.