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It's been five days since I've been told that I'm pregnant and since then, I've been crying all night and morning and didn't really get any sleep.

I told nobody but Sabrina that I'm pregnant. Of course she was disappointed and she felt bad for me but she wants to help me out and take me to my appointments, since she has a car of her own.

It's better telling Sabrina than anyone else because she can take me to my appointments and I can possibly get abortion.

I can't believe I realize the symptoms of being pregnant after I've been taught at a young age. I knew how people get pregnant and the symptoms of pregnancy ever since fourth grade. My aunt taught me.

I'm just a stupid teen.

I knew I would get pregnant but I wasn't sure because William been doing this to me for a long time, ever since I was twelve and I never got pregnant until now.

The doctor squirted cold jelly on my belly and rubbed the stick around, keeping her eyes on the computer.

I'm in a cold room with only Sabrina and Doctor Brown, laying on a comfortable bed with a computer in front of us as the doctor tries to find satan's baby inside of me.

Sabrina and I looked at the computer and all I see is white and black. There's big black dots and a big white thing in the middle of the screen.

"Hmm.. there's the head right there." She pointed at the screen.

I want the head chopped off.

She scrolled down on the computer.

"Legs and feet.."

I want those to be chopped off next after I have the abortion.

She scrolled some more.

"And I think that's a little face right there." She cooed.

The ugly ass face of William.

"Let me check how far you are to your pregnancy cause it looks a little big for it to be the first month." She typed and did some stuff to the computer.

I love kids but I hate the one I have because it's William's... and I don't want his baby. I want it to die. It's going to ruin my life.

"Ms. Bleu. It seems like you just turned two months pregnant. You'll be turning three months in January first."

I gasped and raised an eyebrow.

"Two? Three-" I stopped myself. "Can I have abortion?" I asked.

Sabrina sighed and looked at Doctor Brown.

"No. Don't give her abortion." Sabrina told the doctor.

"Yeah, abortion isn't a good choice. You don't want to murder your baby." Doctor Brown agreed.

"I want to murder this baby! Don't ever call it mine cause it ain't!" I yelled.

"Well technically it is because it's-" The doctor started until I interrupted.

"I want abortion doctor. Please. Are there pills? Surgery? Anything? I promise I'll survive!"  I sat up on the bed.

"We would have to get your parents permission-"

"No. Just don't tell my mom. It's between you, Sabrina and I. Please give me abortion." I begged.

"No. We have to tell your mom about the abortion it's against the l-"

"I don't fucking care!" I freaked.

"Ariel. Please shut up. You should've kept your legs closed in the first place and we wouldn't have to go through this." Sabrina spat.

I laid back down and let out a big sigh.

She doesn't know what happened. I haven't told her that William did this to me, she's stuck thinking that it's Prince.

"Now, I'm gonna take some pictures and you'll be done and we have to schedule your next appointment." Doctor Brown said, still looking at the screen and taking screenshots.

"Shoot it right in the trash after you're done." I mumbled.

"No. Give it to me. I'll keep it." Sabrina calmly said.

"I'm done girls." The doctor sighed and got up out of her seat.

"You can get up now and wipe the jelly off your stomach with those paper towels over there." Doctor Brown pointed behind me.

Sabrina grabbed a few paper towels and handed it to me. I snatched it and wiped very hard on my stomach.

"Let's go over the rules." Doctor Brown stood up and took the black and white pictures out of the machine.

I quickly snatched it out of her hands and bawled it up into a ball, I ripped it and threw it perfectly into the trash.

Doctor Brown took a deep breath.

"Ms. Bleu-" She started.

"Ariel! Why did you do that? Stop!" Sabrina scolded.

Doctor Brown sighed, looking a bit overwhelmed.

"The rules are to exercise-"

"I won't." I crossed my arms.

"Don't eat too many sweets and spicy foods."

"I will."

"No roller coaster rides, no holding your breathe too long under water when you swim-" The doctor's voice sounds like she's irritated.

"I will."

The doctor hesitated and took a deep breath, probably trying not to yell at me.

"Eat your vitamins so the baby can be healthy."

"I won't."

"Do you have any questions?" The doctor frowned.

"Can I have abortion?" I asked for the millionth time.

"No ma'am. Your guardian says no so I'm not going to sign you up for it."

"Guardian? She's sixteen!" I pointed at Sabrina.

"She's older than you and she brought you here." The doctor said with an attitude and got up.

She gave me a little slip of paper.

"Your next appointment is in January fifth. I'll see you then." She waved at us and gave us a weak smile before she left the room.

"Alright. I bet at that appointment you'll be doing the abortion surgery on me." I shouted so she can hear.

"Shut up. You're such a child." Sabrina nudged my arm.

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Ariel and I went into my car after that appointment and didn't say a word for a while.

Ariel has changed since she told me that she's pregnant. She gets so mad very quickly and I hear her cry at the middle of the night in her room.

I feel bad for her but she shouldn't have let Prince do that to her.

"You know. You're such a child. I can tell that doctor was getting frustrated because of you."

"So? She won't let me have abortion." She shrugged.

"You know what Ariel. Like I said, you should've kept your legs closed. If you kept them closed we wouldn't be worrying right now."

She sighed angrily.

"I want you to tell Prince that he made you pregnant and break up with him. This is just ridiculous." She shook her head, keeping her eyes on the road.

"I'll tell Prince... but I will not break up with him."

"You have to break up with him. You don't deserve him and he doesn't deserve you. Y'all are having sex at a young age. This is why mama says you shouldn't date under the age of eighteen cause this happens."

She rolled her eyes and smacked her teeth.

"Well look who's talkin! You're still dating Jason and you have sex with him. I hear you at night sometimes so don't even try it dumbass." She snapped.

I gasped and looked at her, I rolled my eyes at her and I looked back at the road.

"You know what, I shouldn't tell him cause I'm getting abortion anyways." She shrugged.

"Don't get abortion. It's terrible. Sometimes you'll die too." I warned.

"I really don't care about my life right now. I could care less if I died." She muttered.

I smacked my teeth and put more force on gas pedal.

"Ariel, what's wrong with you? You're so negative. It seems like you have anger issues."

"Uh... duh I'm fucking pregnant and the doctor won't let me have abortion what do you expect?! I'm pissed as fuck." She raised her voice.

"And why are you so nice to me now?! You're calm and shit and you're not acting like a bitch!" She spat.

To be honest, it feels like we've switched roles. I'm acting like her before she got pregnant, and she's acting like me before I decided to change myself.

"I'm more mature now. I'm not a childish bitch anymore. I actually want to get my life together and stop being a bitch to everyone." I admitted.

"Ha. It's about time that you realize that you was a bitch. I'm so proud of you." She spat.

"Yeah, and I hope you realize that you're being a bitch and want to murder ya damn baby."

"It's not gonna be my baby once I get abortion." She muttered under her breath.

Abortion, abortion, abortion, the word that comes out of her mouth more than 50 times a day these past five days after being released from the hospital.

"Ariel. Shut up. You're not gonna get abortion whether you like it or not!"

She cares so much about abortion than she cares about food!

"Oh! So you want everybody to hate me?! Everybody is gonna hate me once they find out that I'm pregnant so I might as well get abortion now!"

"Trust me. Abortion is not a choice you should do. It's bad." I warned. "Why don't you-"

"I don't care if it's bad. I want this baby out of here." Her voice sounded like she's about to cry.

I stopped at a red light and looked at her.

"Ariel." I put a hand on her shoulder.

I've never felt bad whenever she cried but now I do.

It feels different to feel a little sympathy for her after being a bitch to her for years.

I saw some tears run down her face as she squeezed her stomach as hard as she could, possibly trying to harm the baby inside of her.

I hate Prince for this...

I wish they were never together.

"Ariel. Stop. Please." I talk to her in a soft voice.

"I want this thing out." She sobbed with tears already rolling down her face.

"Don't do abortion. One day, your baby could be the best thing you'll ever have and regret what you said about abortion."

"It's not gonna be the best thing. It's gonna ruin my life Sabrina and you don't care." She sobbed in her hands.

"I'd rather for Kaitlyn to make up another lie about me than to let all the people know that I'm pregnant." She spoke in her hands.

"I'm not gonna be able to graduate after high school, or go to college-"

I sighed.

"Ariel, babies are a gift from God and you shouldn't throw it away."

"SABRINA!" She screamed.

I jumped and looked around if there was any cars about to hit us if that was the reason why she yelled at me.

"Are you crazy?! This is not a gift! It's a CURSE! Why would God give me a gift and know it's gonna ruin my life?! It's a punishment! It's what I get for letting him do that to me!" She screamed in my face.

"Whatever. Just don't get abortion. You'll ruin your life sooner." I pressed on the gas as soon as the light turned green.

I've done abortion before..

A long time ago...

Mama knows.

We haven't told anybody. Mama got the results from the doctor that day when I was a school. She called the school and brought me straight home during third period and beat the hell out of me with a chair, a laptop charger, wet towel and threw the Christmas tree at me when nobody was home and forced me to pick every single thing up before all my siblings come home from school.

About a month later, I begged Mama to take me to get abortion because I didn't want anyone else to know I was pregnant. I was surprised she said "yeah" because she loves kids.

A few days later it was the surgery day to get the premature baby out.

Every time I think about that surgery day... I start to tear up.

I was very happy that day until I saw the pieces of the baby's body. It had no gender so I guessed the gender what it was going to be.

I said it was a girl.

I named her Nuri May.

She was very small, the size of a number two pencil and barely a pound. She was red and her arms and legs were very skinny.

I cried after that surgery because I realized that I murdered the most beautiful baby and my life could've changed and could've been a little better.

I was only fourteen and I was raped by William. He was the one the got me pregnant.

We still talk to each other every once in a while when he comes over.

He changed since then.

He's more nicer to me now.

We arrive home and I park in front of the garage. I took my seatbelt of and grabbed my purse while Ariel just sat there and watched me.

Before I could take my keys out, Ariel stops me by putting her hand on my arm.

"Take me to the studio, Prince is there."

I smack my teeth and roll my eyes.

"Why?"

"Because I want to meet him! Take me there now!" She demanded.

"He's the one that fucking gave you a damn baby Ariel! Aren't you mad at him?!" I snatched my keys out and the car turned off.

I pushed the door open and she spoke again.

"Don't you want me to tell him that he got me pregnant?!"

I stopped myself and looked at her.

"Wait. You're going to tell Prince?" I raised an eyebrow.

She sighed and nodded.

"Yeah... I-I'm gonna tell Prince." She said uneasy and looked down.

"Yeah, you better tell him and break up with him. I don't want you to have more babies with him. Y'all are too young." I closed the door.

"Mhm... I-I'm gonna tell him and break up with him"

I started the car and put my seatbelt back on.

Ariel's POV

Sabrina dropped me off to the studio where Prince is.

I need to find a way to keep in contact with Prince without Sabrina knowing.

She doesn't want me to hang out with Prince because she still think that he did this to me.

I'm not going to break up with him.

I forgot to tell him that I was going to the store. I didn't want to tell him I was going to the doctor because he'll be asking so many questions.

I walked into the small recording room where Prince was and found him sitting in a chair in front of millions of buttons, playing with his guitar and humming to the tune of it.

The sound of his guitar sounds beautiful and gentle and I can hear his soft voice humming to the tune of his guitar.

I looked around the room to see that the room is dim, Christmas lights are glowing on the wall and a Christmas tree standing behind the glass in the other room.

I stood in the doorway, watching him play his guitar.

I can feel that our relationship is going to end once my belly gets big.

If I get that abortion, I will feel confident about this relationship.

It's going to be long and pregnant free relationship.

He stopped playing his guitar and looked back.

He smiles once he notice that I'm standing in the door way and gets up from his chair.

"Hey baby. How come you didn't come this morning?" He asked while putting his guitar down.

"Eh. I had to go to the store with Sabrina." I lied.

"Ohh. Well I'm glad you're here cause now I get to show you my new song I made." He winked and bit his bottom lip.

He pulled out a chair for me as he sat on the chair next to it. I sat next to him and watch him press buttons in front of us until music was heard.

We heard the familiar song play.

The one I heard from the auditions.

I start to chuckle and shake my head.

"Prince. You already sang this to me at the audition." I giggled.

He sighed and smiled.

"Yeah, I know." He blushed and looked down.

"This isn't new anymore." I smiled.

"I know. I can't find any ideas what to write next. I was thinking about making an album but I ran out of ideas." He shrugged.

"You'll find an idea. It takes time." I said as he scoots his chair next to me.

"I was thinking the song should be for you." He wraps his arm around my waist.

"But you've already made about a couple of songs about me.."

"Yeah, but that's not enough. I want people to know that I enjoy you and that you'll always be mine and not anyone else's..." He pressed his lips against my cheek.

"I kinda want to make a full album about you. I have a lot of ideas but I can't put it together." He shrugs looking away.

"What ideas?" I asked.

He looks back at me and I watch him stare at my lips then back to my eyes. He licks and bites his lips seductively and smiles looking through my eyes.

I do the same, feeling blessed to be looking through his hazel green eyes and having those soft lips to kiss every now and then, his Afro with soft curls that I twirl and play with my fingers, and having a guy that loves me.

But I do feel guilty for not telling him everything that's going on in my life.

I'm glad he's my boyfriend but I don't think it'll last when he finds out that I'm pregnant.

My smile fades away, feeling a little guilty.

I'm pregnant and he doesn't know.

"Your smile..." His smile increases and he leans in as I blush.

His smile is better than mine.

I forced a smile.

He grabs my hand and intertwine his fingers between mines. My stomach is filled with butterflies and my face heats up as he leans in closer.

"Your beautiful eyes, your hair...your lips." His deep voice gets quieter as he continues.

His dreamy green eyes, his soft curls, his lips..

"Your body..." He added before he gently placed his lips on mine.

I felt his tongue on the top of my lip, having us to go straight into a French kiss. His tongue massaged mine as we kissed slowly full of pleasure.

He let go of my hand and puts it on the side of my face and start to caress my face with his finger as the kiss got more intense.

We sat in the room kissing for a few minutes until he pulled away.

"Ariel." He says quietly.

I press my lips on his and let go.

"I love you." He gazed deep in my eyes.

"I love you more-"

The door swung open and we both jumped.

Denise walks in with André holding a box wrapped in Christmas wrap.

"Hey Ariel. I saw you when you walked in the building, I was going to call your name but you already went inside." Denise handed me the gift.

"Then we found y'all kissing so I was waiting for y'all to stop kissing but it was taking so long." Denise chuckled.

Prince and I laughed softly.

"Open the present Ariel. It's good." Denise said as she pulled a chair out and sat next to me.

"Nah. I'll wait until we put the Christmas tree up and I'll keep it under there until it's time to open it." I looked at the box covered with Rudolf the red nose reindeer designs.

"It's not gonna turn out pretty good by Christmas. You better open it now." She pointed at the box with her eyes.

"What you mea-"

"Open it. It's gonna be expired by Christmas." She rushed.

"Oh. So it's food?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Yeah. Open. Hurry." She smiled.

I pulled paper from the side and tore it off the box. I ripped some more and threw the paper on the floor until a shiny silver box appeared saying, "Hershey Chocolates"

My face lit up, gazing at my favorite candy. I smiled showing my teeth, until I realized that I'm pregnant and I don't need to eat anything.

My smile faded into a fake smile, to make her think that I love the gift she gave me.

I hate opening presents in front of people because sometimes they'll give me a gift I don't like or not interested in and I have to act fake and say that I love it when I really don't.

I really do loove Hershey's but I'm not interested right now.

I'm so focused on getting this baby killed from starvation and having a good damn body.

"Thanks Denise. I love it." I held an arm out for a hug and she squeezed me tightly with both arms.

"Told you you'll love it." She winked.

"Hey... and where's my present?" Prince crossed his arms.

"At the store." Denise giggled.

"Aren't you gonna get it?" Prince smiled.

"No. Perhaps you can get it with your own money." Denise laughed and got up from her chair.

Prince smacked his teeth and rolled his eyes playfully.

"Well at least I got my girl here." Prince put a hand on my thigh. "She's my Christmas present." He bit his lip.

My heart warmed up as I looked at him and we gazed into each other's eyes.

"Ariel, wanna go to the mall with me?" Denise asked.

I looked at her and gave her the, "I don't feel like it" look.

"Eh.. I'm not in the middle to go shopping today." I shook my head. "Maybe next time?" I raised an eyebrow.

She sighed and pulled my arm for me to get up.

"C'mon. It's gonna be fun. I wanna learn more about you and become your best friend." She said excitedly.

"Can we do this next time? Please? I want to go home and get some rest and I'm really not in the mood." I begged.

"What's wrong girl?" She put her hands on my shoulders.

I'm depressed.

"Nothing. I'm just tired." I lied.

"You're not gonna be tired once we go to the mall together. It's gonna be fun. Naps are for old people and babies."

"Then I love being old and a baby cause naps are awesome." I chuckled a little bit.

"Please. We'll only be there for a few and I'll drop you off at your place." She begged.

I smacked my teeth and rolled my eyes playfully.

"Finee." I chuckled.

She let go of my shoulders and clapped her hands.

"Yay!" She squealed, rushing to the door like a little kid going to the candy store.

She left the building with just Prince and I behind.

I turn to Prince and he's playing with the buttons in front of him.

"Hey. Are you going with us?" I asked him.

He looked at me and shook his head.

"Nah. I need to get working on my first album."

I looked through the window to see Denise going into her pink car.

"Ok. I guess I have to get going because Denise is waiting for me." I walked to him and give him a hug.

"Ok. Bye. I love you." He kissed my cheek.

"I love you too." I smiled.