Thursday, November 27

"WHAT THE FUCK?!" I woke up from the sound of Trey's voice coming from downstairs.

I startled and sat up quickly in my bed realizing that my blanket isn't on me and that William is gone.

I felt super dizzy from getting up too fast from my slumber and sharp pain coming from my pelvis, stomach, head and legs. I got up from my bed slowly and winced in pain.

I rushed downstairs carefully and to the kitchen where Trey was. Trey is sitting on the counter with a pan in his hands and Izzy was sitting on the floor looking guilty.

"I found this damn dog eating out of my KFC bucket!" Trey yelled pointing at Izzy.

Izzy whines and lays on the floor. I grew a sorry face and rushed over to her.

"Don't touch that thing! It might have rabies! I don't know where the hell it came from and I don't know how it got in this house but I'm going to call animal control! He raised the pan up to his ear.

"Trey. Chill. Prince gave me a dog." I chuckled.

"Huh?"

"Last night, Prince gave me this dog for a present. Chill out. She don't have rabies and she was probably eating your stuff cause she's probably hungry." I said calmly, my voice raspy.

"Why she gotta eat my damn stuff? Feed the dog some dog food!" He slid of the counter and tossed the pan to the sink.

"We have to buy some dog food for her to eat."

"Man I'm pissed. This dog fucking ate my chicken." Trey mumbled as he walked out of the kitchen.

I followed him and chuckled.

"It's okay. There's always another time when you can buy chicken."

He sighed, "Are you hungry? I'm gonna fix some breakfast."

I stood and closed my eyes, focusing on the nausea I have and the rumbling of fluids in my stomach. I held my hot head, feeling dizzy.

"I'm not hungry. I'm gonna get ready for school." I shook my head and walk towards the stairs.

"Ariel. You say that everyday. You never eat breakfast and dinner anymore. All you eat is a apple or something else." He complained.

He's always complaining that I don't eat. Its been going on for a long time now. It's annoying.

"I'm not hungry. Okay? I ate a huge dinner at Prince's house last night." I lied holding my painful stomach.

"You still need to eat breakfast. I haven't seen you eat in a long time."

I start groaning in pain feeling weakness in my legs and dizziness. I feel really sick

"What's wrong?" He asked.

I dashed out of the living room, squeezing my mouth with both of my hands, feeling puke come up.

I ran up the stairs like a cheetah and busted through the bathroom door. I fell on my knees in front of the toilet and there goes puke gushing out of my mouth. I took a few deep breaths, feeling that more is coming. It came out making my throat hurt.

I heard Trey rush in and hold my hair back as I threw up some more in the toilet.

"You're sick again?" He asked.

I felt my face heat up as I puked a little more.

The more I puke, the more my stomach feels better.

"I think it's because you're not eating enough." He assumed.

"Ugh. Trey. That's not always the reason why I'm sick! It's happens to everybody. Everybody pukes every once in a while!" I yelled then spit the substance out of my mouth.

He sighed, "I think you should stay home from school today. I'll call your school." He got up from the floor.

"No. I'm fine." I lied. "I can make it through school , I don't wanna miss anything." I grabbed some toilet tissue and wiped my mouth.

"Ariel." He said in a serious tone.

"I'm fine. Go downstairs and make yourself some breakfast while I get ready." I flushed the toilet and got up from the floor.

He left the bathroom and I held my head again.

I really do think it's because I'm not eating that much. I kinda like it though. I think I'm loosing weight.

I left the bathroom and went to Mama's room.

I miss Mama. I wish she could come home from the hospital already. I hate being so far from her.

I went in her bathroom and stepped on the bathroom scale by the wall. I waited for a moment until it beeped.

110lbs

I jumped up and down from excitement.

I feel skinny now. I really do. I think I can be a model now but I want to loose more weight. I think I'll sign up again.

I took a shower, brushed my teeth very good, put some clean clothes on and did my hair into a high ponytail.

Gotta get ready to fight Nia.

Hope she's ready for me to snatch her weave out her head.

☆

I walk into algebra class after the bell rang and sat in my seat beside Prince's empty seat.

I guess he's not here yet..

I kinda feel bad about what happened last night. Michael and his brothers looked disappointed because they didn't make the audition. And I'm sorry for being a little mean to him last night but it sorry because Kaitlyn is a bitch.

I turn my body around so that I can face Michael. He looks very upset and he's quiet. He's usually talking to other students early in the morning.

"Hey Michael."

He didn't dare to look at me in the eyes. He has his earphones in his ears and he's slouched in his chair with his arms crossed.

"Michael. I'm sorry about last night..." I apologized.

He didn't look up.

I pulled his earphone out of one ear gently so he can hear me better.

"Michael."

"Man what?" He said under his breath.

"I said I'm sorry about last night."

"Sorry for what?"

"Sorry that I was being mean and sorry that you didn't make the audition. You looked very disappointed last night and I feel bad."

"Tell Kaitlyn that you're sorry. You were the one being mean to her. And u could've made the auditions if it wasn't for his group." He mumbled.

"Well you can't blame him because you didn't make the audition." I shrugged."

"I had to get beaten last night."

I didn't know how to respond to that. That's some bad news. I don't get why Jospeh likes to beat them up for making mistakes.

"I-I'm sorry. You can always try next time. Don't give up."

"Who said I was giving up? And you're the fifth person that said that I can try next time no one cares about the fact that Joseph beat me and my brothers up."

"I care Michael. I really think it's wrong for him to do that for you. Y'all are humans and he treats you like circus animals. He needs to understand that we make mistakes in life and everything doesn't have to be perfect. You have two more years until you get your own house and you won't be worrying about Joseph anymore."

He sighed and sat up in his chair.

"Thanks." He mumbled. "I wish Kaitlyn would've told me that, I would've been surprised if she did."

"What do you mean?" I raised an eyebrow.

"She never there to comfort me when I'm in depressed and I need to talk to her about that."

"Michael, then that means she's no good for you. She's really mean and she doesn't care about nobody but herself."

"Please stop. I'm not going to listen to a word you say about her after last night."

"I said I was sorry. I couldn't help myself. I just hate fake bitches. She came in the room and touched me like she was my friend." I made a disgusted look.

"She's trying to be your friend, give her a chance! You didn't have to call her a bitch or a roach. That was rude. Stop bullying her."

"I'm not bullying her Michael! For the millionth time. Please listen to me. She's so fake that you think that she's a nice and cool person because she acts like that when she's around you and behind your back, she goes and be herself... a bitch ass who wants to mess with everybody."

He sighed loudly and shook his head.

"You're going to have to talk to her Michael. Find the real her. This is why you should be friends with somebody before you date them because you don't know who the hell they are. She could've been a fucking murderer or a grown ass pedophile that is twenty three trying to fuck with a sixteen year old pop-star based on what she wears on a daily basis." I coached.

"She's not either of those-"

"Shit, she could be a hoe or gold digger... hint hint... she's both." I fake chuckled.

"You're kinda right..." He said quietly and he stares at the ground.

I intertwine my fingers on the table, waiting for him to respond.

"I think the reason why she's ignoring my texts and calls is that she's cheating on me with that guy I found her with last night."

"What guy?"

He looked around to see if anyone was listening and leaned in closer to me.

"Right after we performed our song, I found her in the boys' restroom with a guy. She said that he was crying and she was helping him but her didn't look like he was crying at all, he was kinda smiling at me." He said quietly so no one can hear.

I thought about but for a second and gasped.

"Michael that's not good. She's a hoe-"

"Please. Don't say that. I really don't wanna think that she was cheating on me with another guy."

"Michael, she was probably cheating on you. Sometimes, girls go to the boys' restroom and fuck in there or boys go to the girls restroom and do the same." I whispered.

"Ariel stop being ridiculous. They were clothed. They were not naked at all so it couldn't be."

"She was probably sucking his dick or something."

I felt three taps on my shoulder. I look back to see Prince holding a rose in his hand.

My frown turned into a smile once I saw him. He handed me the rose and Hershey bar and kissed my lips and cheeks.

He really need to stop spoiling me. He's too sweet.

"Hey baby."  He smiled at me and sat down next to me.

"Excuse me, we were talking Prince."

Prince looked at Michael and his smile disappeared.

"We'll talk later." I mouthed to Michael.

"No, let's talk now, he interrupted us."

"Sorry, y'all can keep talking then." Prince mumbled and turned around.

"No Prince, it's okay the conversation can wait." I told him.

"No, I'm not gonna let him interrupt like that. It was rude." Michael said looking at Prince.

"I didn't know y'all were talking damn." Prince said under his breath.

"She was facing me and words were coming out of our mouths that means we were talking and you came here and interrupted."

Okay why're acting like those reality tv shows that have a problem with every little thing.

"Damn son, you gotta pussy cause you sure do act like a girl on her period." Prince chuckled.

"Prince." I put a hand on his shoulder.

"He's probably mad because he didn't get the audition. He act like there's never another time to audition." Prince mumbled.

"Prince stop." I hit his shoulder.

He finally got quiet and turned around. I turned around to Michael.

"We'll talk later. Okay?" I whispered.

He didn't respond. He kept looking forward with his arms crossed probably irritated about Prince.

☆

The bell rang and it's finally time for lunch. I decided I should stay in the cafeteria and not go to Prince's today because I texted him and asked him to eat in the cafeteria since he hasn't done that in a long time.

Latoya and I are in a lunch line full of students waiting their turn to order their lunch and leave. The line is very long and I can wait because I don't want to get any food.

I figured that fasting helps you get skinny. Ashely also said that's true and that she does it all the time. I'm looking forward to telling her that I want to be in modeling now because I think I lost a lot of weight. I lost ten pounds from fasting and eating a little bit.

I turned my body towards Latoya since she's behind me and grew a disgusted look.

"Your little boyfriend has got to go." Latoya said in a attitude tone and crossed her arms.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

She looks very upset and mad at me. I feel like we're gonna end up yelling at each other today like always. She's been giving me a lot of attitudes because I'm with Prince...

"You know what I mean. Your little Prince group won that audition and they shouldn't have."

"Why? "

"Because they're not good enough. They're beginners and my brothers are masters and I don't get why the judges choose them to be performing in parties."

I huffed and puffed, getting tired of her talking about Prince.

I don't get why she's mad at me because her brothers didn't get the audition.

"First of all, Prince and his group are not beginners. Second, just because they never really performed their songs, doesn't mean they're beginners. Third, The Jackson five have been performing for a long time so they really didn't need to win the audition, and Prince and the Revolution never really did a performance but just one time. Wouldn't it be fair for them to get the audition so that they can have the opportunity to perform more?" I sped through my words, hoping that she got my point.

She stayed silent for a bit, not giving me eye contact.

That's what I thought.

She walked in front of me and ordered her food. The lunch lady handed food to her and I followed Latoya without ordering.

She looked back at me and raised an eyebrow.

"Ariel? Aren't you gonna get some food?" She asked grabbing a cup off the counter.

I swear she asks me that everyday. I always say no. I guess she's just trying to change the subject.

"No."  I mumbled, watching her fill her cup with water.

"Why not?"

"First, I'm sick and second I ate a lot this morning." I lied about eating this morning.

"Well dang. Why aren't you at home?"

"Because I don't want to miss anything and I really want to punch Nia in the face." I said, following her to the table.

She chuckled, "Why? What happened?" She asked.

"She's trying to put me with William."

"My boyfriend's brother?" She gasped.

"Boyfriend? You have boyfriend?" I raised my eyebrow.

She sighed and sat on a chair by the round table. I sat next to her not keeping an eye off her.

"Yes I have a boyfriend but please don't tell anybody." She whispered.

"Why not?"

"Because I don't want anybody to know. I don't want anybody to try to be in our relationship."

"Why? You're in my relationship. Why can't I be in yours. William is a horrible guy and I'm sure his brother is too since they're related. Want me to help you to break up with him?"

"Marcus is.. not a horrible guy. He's a...good guy." Her voice sounds unsure.

"Mhm. Tell the truth." I smirked.

"What's wrong with William? How is he horrible?" She asked before taking a bite of her sub.

"Uh- he's... I don't know. I just don't like him."

I want to tell her but I can't. She can be so annoying and bitchy sometimes but I still love my best friend. I don't want her to be dead.

"Oh. And she's trying to get you to be with William?" She asked with a mouth full of food.

"Yup. And I keep telling her no.."

"That bitch." She rolled her eyes. She looked to her right and turned her head back to me. "Here she comes now." She said in a annoyed tone.

I looked to my right and Nia is walking towards us as happy as ever. That smile won't be on her face when I beat her ass.

Nia sat her purse down on the table and sat down in the chair on the other side of the table in front of me.

"Hey hey hey!" She cooed.

"Hey girl we were just talking about you." Latoya said excitedly.

"About what?" She sat her lunch tray down on the table.

Latoya looked at me waiting for my response. I rolled my eyes and cleared my scratchy throat.

"About you trying to put me with that nigga." I growled.

"William?" She asked smiling.

"Yes! You know who the hell im talking about!"

"Ohh. I'm planning the double date on Thursday night. I already bought a dress and shoes for you to wear. You're going to look hot." She winked.

"Well ya might as well get ya damn money back because I ain't going to ya dumbass 'double date' you have planned." I spat and slouched in my chair.

Her smile turned into a frown.

"What?" She raised an eyebrow.

"What?" I mocked her voice. "I told you a million times that I'm with Prince! I don't want to be with William! Okay?! I keep telling you that William isn't the guy for me anyway!" I yelled.

"Prince isn't the guy for you! William is!" She raised her voice.

"I can promise you that Prince is way more better than William! Stop trying to put me with William it's not gonna to happen! I'm way more better without William! If you've been in my shoes you'll know!" I shouted.

"Prince isn't the guy for you. Trust me. I'm one of your best friends Ariel you-"

"You're not my best friend anymore." I fake chuckled.

"What? What do you mean?"

"You're trying to break my relationship with Prince. Prince is the best thing that happened to me and you're trying to take it away. Best friends don't do that!"

"Latoya does the same thing Ariel! She's trying to break your relationship with Prince so that you'll be with Michael! I know for sure that Michael isn't the one for you because he's a dumbass. Y'all might look cute together but he's not the one! William is the one and Prince isn't! Trust me Ariel!"

"Alright. Michael is not a dumbass. He's just been around Kaitlyn for too long." Latoya said with a mouth full of food.

"You don't know who's the one unless you've been in my shoes cause you'll really know the real William."

"Okay. So how's William a bad guy?"

I took a deep breath and shook my head.

"Exactly. You just don't want to be with William probably because he isn't famous like Prince. Damn you're slowly turning into Kaitlyn." She shook her head.

"I'm no where near turning into that bitch! And I don't want to be with William because I know the real him! He's a terrible person!"

"Yeah. He's a terrible person because he's not famous and he's doesn't have a big house." She said sarcastically before taking a sip of her drink.

I feel hot blood rush through my veins and my patience disappear. Before I knew it, I reached over the table and pushed the cup to her face while she was drinking it.

Her water splashed in her face and a lot of ice cubes hit her nose and went in her shirt. She gasped and got up quickly from her seat.

"Bitch I know you just didn't do that!" She shouted.

The cafeteria got silent and all eyes were on us.

"Bitch you better believe that I just did!" I yelled.

"Ooh! I wanna punch yo fat ass!" She gritted her teeth and jumped across the table.

"Bitch you better go through me before you try to fight my best friend!" Latoya got up from her seat and dropped her fork.

"Hey. Hey. Ladies. Let's not be so loud. Nia, please move to another side of the cafeteria, I don't want any fights happening today." The security guard told us.

Nia snatched her things and stomped her way to the other side of the cafeteria.

I wish I could've fought her ass.