Song: Lego House by Ed Sheeran

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I thought he was joking. My mind was denying the thought that she was gone. She can't be dead. I promised I would protect her. She was my daughter. She can't be dead. This isn't happening.

"Tucker found out Sonja went on a date with one of the Wizards. He was really angry and he wouldn't speak to anybody all day. Mianite showed up later and they started talking about something...they wouldn't tell me what. And that night after I went to bed, I heard screaming like an hour later...she was gone. I ran out and I checked all of the floors but I couldn't find her. On the top floor...I was too late. They said they only did it to bring Ianite and Dianite back. I couldn't even think Sparklez...I was just bawling like a bitch and I was trying to revive her but there was just so much blood and..." He had to pause because tears were literally flowing down his cheeks like a waterfall.

"I asked that bitch of a god how could he hurt a little girl...he just said it was for the best. I wanted to kill him and rip off his head and burn his flesh from his bones! But I didn't do anything JORDAN! I just ran out! And I kept thinking about you and how upset you'd be and I think I had a panic attack earlier because I passed out and I'm pretty sure I'm having one now-"

"Tom. Calm down. Breathe." I pulled him into my arms and rubbed circles into his back. I felt him relax underneath me.

"I was in charge of her and I let her get murdered...I'm so sorry...I know how much you loved her and I loved her too...oh my god I can't breathe..."

"It's okay. Just sit down." I walked him over to the kitchen table and sat him down in one of the chairs.

"Why are you taking this so well? Why aren't you screaming at me for a divorce? Aren't you angry? Don't you hate me?" He was gripping my hand so tightly it was turning white. My poor Tom.

"I don't hate you. I hate Tucker and Mianite. And when I find them, I'm gonna burn them alive. But I don't want you to feel like it was your fault because it wasn't. It's okay." I brushed his cheek and kissed his forehead.

"Sparklez?" He asked me, his voice still trembling slightly.

"Yes?"

"Are you gonna go insane again?"

"Not completely. But I think we both know what's gonna happen when I find Tucker."

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"SPARKLEZ PLEASE DONT KILL HIM!" I heard Sonja scream. I didn't care what she said. He deserves this.

I already destroyed his precious dojo. I disintegrated his stupid suit. He has nothing left. Except Sonja. I had nothing left except Tom, so I thought it was a pretty fair punishment.

"You killed my daughter. You deserve to die." My voice was really weird, but I think that's because I'm in insane mode again. I see a purple tint to everything and the inside of my mouth tastes like grapes. That's usually how I tell.

I was choking him. I had him pinned against one of he trees on his compound, raised a couple feet in the air by just my hand. I felt like smiling. This bastard killed my little angel and he was begging for his life. I wanted to kill him so badly.

"My...contract..." He choked out. I clenched his throat tighter.

"What are you talking about?" I growled.

"He didn't have a choice! Mianite told him he had to do it! Please let him go Jordan!" She was trying to tug me away from him, but I just shoved her away. She doesn't understand. Ianita was a thread. They snipped one of the two threads I had left.

"You killed an innocent child. I hope the guilt eats you until you kill your own self." I let go, and he fell to the ground wheezing and coughing.

Overwhelming sadness replaced my anger. My poor baby girl. She didn't deserve this. She must have been so scared. Was she thinking about me when she died? How I wasn't there to protect her?
Sonja ran over to him and started crying, pulling him into her arms and hugging him tightly.
I didn't care how much she cried. My little angel probably cried more than she did when he murdered her.

I walked out of the compound and began to head back home. Tom said he'd be okay until I got back. I'm not really sure where Matt went. He disappeared as soon as I got home. He probably didn't want to deal with my stupid human drama. I don't blame him.

After hearing about what happened to my little girl, nothing was beautiful anymore. Everything is just dull. The sky is no longer beautiful. The stars don't shine. Colors in the night are grey. I miss her. She thought everything was beautiful. She thought everything deserved love.

"Hello Jordan."

I turned around to see who greeted me. It was Martha. She was wearing a purple night gown that draped all the to the ground and flowed in the night air like magic. She smiled at me sadly. She must have found out about what happened.

"Hey." I sounded so lifeless.

"Sweetie, are you okay? You didn't kill anyone did you?" She put a tender hand on my shoulder.

I shrugged. "Not yet."

"Well...I wanted to ask you if something important. Why don't you come over to Mots home with me? We are having a small candle light prayer for her and it would mean the world to us if you came. Please?"

I didn't want to go. I just wanted to forget her. But Martha needs closure just like I do, so I guess I should go.

I nodded. She smiled warmly and took my hand, guiding me towards Mots house, which was nearby Tuckers. When we got to the porch, I noticed none of the lights were on. I didn't even hear anyone inside the house. Mot must be taking this harder than me...

Martha turned the knob and opened the door really slowly. The lights flickered on then, but no one was in the house. The living room was empty. He turned on the lights?

"I know this is going to be hard to understand and you probably want a very detailed explanation, but I'd rather you see it before I tell you." Martha was smiling ear to ear. What is she talking about? The candles?

And then I heard it.

"Daddy!"

I felt my heart stop. I froze in my spot, terrified to turn around. Is this real? Is it really-?

"I missed you daddy!" I felt arms wrap around my legs. I finally worked up enough courage to turn around.

She was smiling brightly and hugging my leg like it was a big teddy bear. Her long purple hair was tied back in two piggy tails and she was wearing a small nightgown that matched Martha's. Her purple eyes were focused on me, filled to the brink with joy.

My baby girl was alive.

"Where did you go Speriols? I missed you so much! I made you a lily crown!" She pulled the flower crown from her hair and offered it up to me.

I wanted to squeeze her and hold her forever and never let go. Instead I sucked in my tears and took the flower crown, placing it on top of my head.

"Thank you sweetie. I missed you too." I swooped her up from the ground and hugged her tightly. She giggled and hugged my neck.

I felt something tug me then, and dark started to corner my vision. Ianitas face began to blur and so did Martha and Mots. What's happening? Am I passing out?

And then I woke up. I could see the usual dark oak ceiling above me and the familiar soft sheets of Toms blanket. None of that happened. I didn't try to murder Tucker, I didn't get my daughter back, and I wasn't happy at all. I wanted to curl up in a ball and die. I want my little girl back. I failed at being a father and I broke my promise to protect her.

"Hey. You okay?"

I turned my head a little and saw Tom standing near the doorway of the room, wearing a worried expression. I didn't want to make him worried. I don't like putting him through hell over and over again just because I can't handle things. I need a different way of coping...

"I'm okay. Just a dream."

"Oh." He still stayed standing in the corner of the room. He looked so...nervous. Like he was trying to figure when I was gonna go crazy. Maybe he was, I wouldn't doubt it. I need to stop being like this. It's hurting him. He doesn't even act like himself anymore, and I know for a fact that it's my fault. I've been shut up in this room for an entire week. I'm being selfish by not spending time with him.

"Tom...do you wanna go out on a date?"

His eyes widened. I guess he didn't expect me to ask him on a date in the middle of coping with my daughters death.

"Really? You really want go on a date after what happened?"

"Yeah, I do. Can we?"

"Sparklez-...Tucker just-...he-...you're not gonna kill Tucker? Go crazy? Rip him apart?"

Oh. So that's what he was worried about. I mean, I already beat the crap out of Tucker. And Dianite said I probably couldn't get to Mianite, so I guess I can't beat him within an inch of his life too. I didn't feel the least bit guilty about almost killing Tucker either. Sonja was angry at me and Wag said I went too far, but I don't care. He deserved it after what he did. He's lucky I didn't kill him considering how insane I was.

"He killed my daughter. Of course I want to kill him and rip him limb from limb, but I'm not gonna. I already showed him how much I hate him now, so I have nothing else to do. I love you and I don't want to drag you through my own mud...let's have a date night." I smiled.

He smiled too. "I think I know a place we could go."
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"Tada! Welcome to Dagrun falls!" Tiff made an invisible rainbow with her hands and skipped off to the huge waterfall.

So apparently after the tornado, one of Dagruns mountains became a waterfall. Who would have known something so beautiful could come out of something so deadly. Tiff was the one who found it first while she and Lola were on a walk, and they thought it'd be the perfect place to have our date. Tom asked if they wanted to come with us on a double date, and they accepted. I don't know why, but he made us wait until the day after to go on the date. Maybe he just wanted to plan out everything before it. I love him so much.

It was going great...until they dropped Nicky off at Marthas. And then I started thinking about Ianita and how she would still be with me if I hadn't left, and I guess I was pretty readable because Tom immediately started asking me a bunch of questions. Questions like are you gonna flip out, do we need to go back home, should we leave? I really wanted to go home, but I wouldn't admit that to him. I needed to make only him happy, not myself. So I said no and that I was fine. Even though I told everyone a million times that I was okay and I wasn't gonna go nuts, they still kept their eyes on me the whole walk down here. It was making me feel really depressed. I just wanted to take my mind off of everything and I can't do that if they keep reminding me of it.

"So are we like having a picnic out here? I didn't bring any food." I didn't really see any other reason to go to a huge ruin that looked like a waterfall.

"Nope! We are going...cliff diving!" Lola exclaimed.

"We're jumping off cliffs?!" Tom asked in an exasperated tone.

"Yup! What? Don't like heights?" Tiff laughed.

"I hate heigh-" I started, but Tom interrupted me.

"HELL NO! LETS GO NOW!" He grabbed my wrist and we began to head up the mountain for cliff diving.

Yay.

Lola and Tiff skipped ahead, holding hands and laughing at one another every so often. They were both wearing brightly colored tank tops and Jean shorts with their bathing suits worn underneath. A few times they'd catch each others eyes and they'd peck lips for a moment before going back to skipping. Lola must be doing better if she's this happy. I'm glad. Watching her fall apart wasn't fun.

"Remember when we use to be like that?" Tom gazed at them with a longing look.

"Um...like what?"

"Like...always happy and in love. Always holding hands and laughing at each other..."

I wanted to say so much. I wanted to apologize for being a danger magnet. I wanted to apologize for being an emotionally unstable idiot. I wanted nothing more than to have that love. I just want him to be happy.

But I didn't say anything. I just kept walking with my head down and my hands in my pockets. I ran my thumb over my wedding ring, tracing the jewel in the center. Should we have gotten married? It seemed like a huge step and we didn't really think it out. My head hurt so badly from the amount of questions in my mind.

"We're here! Who's going first?" They all began taking their clothes off and laying them near the cliff.

The cliff. I didn't want to go diving a thousand feet into the ocean. But Tom wanted me to...and I want to make this date enjoyable for him.

"I'm going first babe, I need some water on my skin." Tiff gave a quick kiss to Lola before running towards the edge and jumping. My heart literally stopped. I looked at Lola to see her reaction, but she seemed perfectly fine with the fact that her girlfriend just jumped off a cliff. Was she not worried?!

"Okay, I guess I'll go next then. See ya in a second!" Lola took off towards the cliff, doing a perfect somersault before disappearing from our vision. Again, my heart leapt.

"Our turn Sparklez!" Tom shoved me towards the cliff, and I squeaked. I don't wanna do this. Please god don't make me do this.

"Silly sausage, you need to take your shirt off." He tugged my shirt off with ease and threw it with his next to Lola and Tiffs. He started shoving me towards the cliff again and we are three feet away when finally I couldn't take it anymore.

"Nononono! I can't!" I dug my heels into the ground in protest.

"You can and you will. It's just water! You'll be fine. Come on you scared little kitten. Move your bottom." He laughed and kept pushing me forward, meanwhile I was trying my hardest to escape.

"Tom I can't! I hate heights! And water! This is a freaking nightmare for me!"

"Sometimes you just gotta say yolo Sparkley pants! Let's go!" I could practically feel the smug grin on his face. He likes seeing me this scared. That butt.

"I know I only live once, but I am not wasting that by dying from drowning or a head concussion! I don't want to die!"

He sighed and stopped pushing me. "If you're really that scared, then we'll just go back down the mountain."

I sighed in relief. Thank goodness. A couple more inches and he would have been able to push me off-

"I'm only doing this because I love you," I heard him whisper.

And then he pushed me.
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#PushingYourHusbandOffACliffForFunsies
lol I'm so tired nothing makes sense so I'm gonna go before I say something stupad
Too late *dies*
- Lee
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