Taeyeon's POV

Outside the school.

Stephanie and I were sitting on the bench, I was contemplating what happened a while ago in the canteen.

Mi young is dating Minho and she didn't defend me, she supported that jerk instead. I feel like tearing apart, I'm so hurt with that. It was like Mi young betrayed me and stabbed me in my heart face to face.

That was the first time I felt that she left me. She's my best friend, yeah right, just a best friend. Now I know, it's all I am to her and I'm fool to think that we're more than that.

"Hey, are you alright?" Stephanie asked as she held my back and rubbed it.

I looked at her and she wiped my tears I didn't notice that I'm already crying. I can't control it, tears kept pouring down like heavy rain from my eyes.

"Thank you Steph," I said with my groggy and shaking voice.

She smiled at me "We're friends right?"

I tried hard to get back myself, Steph is the least person I expected to help me. And I'm glad Irene back me up too.

I feel so little there and I feel ashamed for loving her.

"I thought, you don't want me to be your friend here at school?" I said trying to control my trembling voice.

"Let's just say that I changed my mind. Mi young's being bitch there. We all know that she's straight but it doesn't mean that she will betray her best friend just because she's a lesbian or bisexual or whatever it is. Besides, I wanted to take my revenge on her. I used that situation, did you see her face when she saw us holding hands? She's shocked and confused." Stephanie said. She's cool I guess.

I bitterly smiled.

"Taeyeon, please can we talk?" A familiar voice asked.

Steph and I turned our heads to see Mi young standing next to me, I can see worries in her eyes.

"Please Taeyeon?" She begged.

I looked at Steph "Steph, can you-"

"Sure I'll leave," She cut me off and stood up.

"See you later Taetae," Steph playfully said.

Mi young's forehead creased "What did you say?" She asked with an attitude in her voice.

Steph smirked "Taetae," I know she's just annoying Mi young and the latter was grinding her teeth.

Steph won this time.

 I smiled at her, she's being a dork.

"Bye Taetae," Steph said as she walked away.

Mi young glared at her then she sat beside me but I didn't look at her.

There's a silence for few minutes. 

I could sense that she's unease and tense. And me, I'm trying to restrain my feelings and just showed my steely face.

Mi young looked at me and finally broke the silence "I'm sorry Taeyeon," she said almost a whisper.

"I really don't know what to say," she lowered her head.

I turned my body to her and looked at her with my stoic expression "No, I'm sorry Mi young," Fuck, my voice betrayed me. It was shaking.

Mi young looked up at me with confused on her face.

"I'm sorry if I misunderstood you when you say you love me."

"Yes I love you Tae, it's true."

"I didn't say it's not true but I misunderstood it, I thought you love me more than that because I do. You know that Mi young," I can't help it but to cry.

"I'm not mad or angry but I'm hurt Mi young. I'm so hurt to know that you're straight and now I know, it's clear to me... You rejected me because you're dating your crush, Minho. You could've just told me about that, I'll try to understand." Mi young was crying too but she didn't say anything, it hurts me more because she's not denying it.

"As I said, I'm hurt so please, if I distant myself from you just don't bother me. I need time, I need MORE time Mi young." I pleaded.

"No please Tae, don't do that, please..." She said while sobbing then she held my wrist.

"I need to do that to accept the truth Mi young. I need to accept that I'm just your best friend and nothing more. And I'm sorry if I ruin our friendship because of my feelings for you." I held her hand that's holding my wrist and slowly removing it.

"No no, it's not ruin Taeyeon," she held me tightly.

"Just give me time, you have no idea how deep my love for you. And it's hard for me if I stay to befriended with you. It's my fault Mi young, I'm sorry." She loosened her grip so I removed her hand from my wrist gently.

"It's rude if I say good bye so, see you around Mi young and I'll miss you," I didn't wait her, so before she could say anything I stood up and walked away.

I know, this will change everything between us.

I will lose my best friend.

I will lose Mi young.

I feel lifeless.

I hate this.

I don't know if I can accept it and move on.

I guess, I will never move on.

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Now I know, some chapters of this story have been private so my non-followers didn't see it.

Well, I already changed it to public! 😊😊

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