Taeyeon's POV

I woke up early and went home.

Shit. It's Saturday and we have no school today.

I groaned, it totally slipped my mind.

I was rummaging in my bag to get my keys then the front door was suddenly opened.

I saw Stephanie looked sleepy with her eye bags. What the fudge! I forgot about her too. I mentally slapped my forehead for being an idiot.

"Good morning," she sleepily said.

I chuckled, she's so cute "Good morning Steph." I greeted back as I ruffled her bangs.

She pouted, oh my dukongs, she's lovely "Where did you go last night? You didn't text or call back. I was worried and I didn't sleep much," she mumbled while her eyes were almost close.

"I'm sorry, we have no school so you can sleep as long as you want," I held her hand and dragged her as I closed the door.

We're heading to her room but instantly, she stopped and didn't move.

"What Steph? I will take you to your room," she shook her head.

"Why?"

"Make it up to me then," she said.

"What do you want?"

She opened her eyes and looked at me then smiled. She dragged me to the couch in the living room and she made me sit there. She lay herself down on the couch as she put her head on my lap.

She adjusted and made herself comfy as she closed her eyes and sleep. I grinned at the view, this kid is really something.

I stared at Steph and started brushing her hair, it was so soft and smooth.

"Just keep doing that Taetae," she mumbled and I obliged.

I can't help it but to smile, now, Steph used to call me Taetae. And I remember our kiss, I mean, we almost kiss.

I don't know if we have a thing, wth, why am I thinking? But what if Steph likes me? She's being clingy and touchy since she moved here in our house.

I don't want her to get the wrong idea, I like her. Yeah, I already said that. Why do I need to repeat that I like her? Shiz. Am I annoying myself?

But I'm not confused.

I like Stephanie and I love Mi young there's a big difference between that. It's very clear.

I'm just really concern to Steph, I want to take care of her and she's showing me her other side that nobody knows.

The side where she's weak and needs attention.

The side where she's sweet and caring.

The side where she's dork and lovely.

She's special to me.

A very special friend.

She's with me when I needed someone but I remember the old days when she was bullying me. She's far different from that monster.

Now I'm just seeing very innocent girl as she using my lap as a pillow, she's sleeping beauty.

Honestly, I would love her if Mi young didn't love me back because Stephanie is easy to fall in love with.

What's this feeling? I feel guilty about her.

There's something in my heart that long for her. I don't want to hurt her, it will break my heart.

But what will I do? She needs to know that me and Mi young are together now. I'm afraid that something will change between us. I'm happy what we are now.

Why am I thinking too much? I sighed.

I love Mi young, I'm sure about that.

But Stephanie also touched my heart, I want her with me. Just imagining her hurt because of me, makes me hate myself.

I want them both in my life. Am I being selfish for that? Is that too much to ask?

And again I'm not confused, I just don't wanna hurt them.

Why feelings always complicates everything?

And my feelings, it's not supposed to be like this. I know who's more important but I don't wanna choose.

My friend or my lover?

But it's final, I want them both in my life.

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