The next day.

I'm in my car at the parking area of the school and I'm so excited to see and talk to Taeyeon.

I looked up in the sky and the weather wasn't so good but I'm so energized and optimistic today.

I pulled my phone out of my bag and texted Taeyeon.

To: Taeyeon

Hi Tae, please meet me at the rooftop before our English class. I need to talk to you. I'll wait for you.

Sent: 7:15 am

Then I put my phone back in my bag and got out of my car.

Today is like my D-day.

Today, everything will change... Change for better.

Today, I will set myself free, out of the closet.

Today, I will tell the world that I love Taeyeon and I want her to be my girlfriend.

Today, I feel so alive thinking that we will be together.

And also today, I will be Kim Taeyeon's girlfriend.

I went to my locker and put my bag inside, it's hassle if I bring it to the rooftop with my books so I will just take it again before going to our first subject.

Whew. I quickly went to the rooftop, it's cold here as the breeze touched my skin. Well, it's kinda windy too.

Nothing change here. 

The high fences around the place were still intact. It's still safe here.

During our middle school, it's our favorite place here in the campus but as the time goes by, many students used to go up here. It became crowded so we decided not to go here anymore 'cuz we wanted freedom and privacy.

I sat and leaned my back on the wall, I'm just beside the door practicing what will I say to Taeyeon.

But I'm just blabbering and my mind was empty. Maybe it's better if I just say what's on my mind, just out of the box.

I will tell her what I really feel for her and show her that I'm in love with her.

As the time passed by, I was getting more tense. I glanced on my wrist watch, it showed 7:45.

Whew. English class will start at 8am. I still have 15 minutes to wait for her. 

I know she will come here. I trust her.

I stood up and started to pace back and forth while shaking my hands.

What if she didn't come here? I will see her in the class and it will be awkward for me.

It will hurt me for sure.

What if she don't like to see and talk to me? I will lose my chance today. I shook my head, I don't like negative thoughts. And if she didn't come here, I will still try to talk to her.

I will not easily give up.

Never.

Until I win her back.

I glanced on my wrist watch once more, it's 7:56. I will be late, I guess she will not come here but it's okay. Maybe it's too early, and I remember she's not a morning person.

Then the rain started to pour, aiisshh, I quickly ran to the door and held the knob. And when I twisted it, it won't open! Shit shit shit.

I tried to twist and kick it forcefully but it didn't budge.

Bad luck. Nah, it's not true.

But I don't have my phone with me, it's in my bag! Tshh. I rolled my eyes. I'm so dumb to forget it.

I feel that my hair and shirt started to get wet. The door was locked from the inside or maybe it's broken. I don't know.

And after few minutes of forcing the door to open and shouting for help,

I stopped.

None sense.

Besides, I'm already soaked with the pouring rain.

So I just sat again and leaned my back on the wall as I hugged my knees.

It's very cold here.

I'm shivering as my lower lip was trembling uncontrollably.

I wish Taeyeon to come here.

But when Taeyeon made a decision, she will never change it.

She already made a decision to us, she will never change it.

And I painfully smiled.

I'm stupid not to remember that.

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