Evening at home.

I was in the living room, sitting on the couch. My tears on my face dried as my eyes were tired of crying.

It's like I'm suffering from a break up.

But I've never been in a relationship and the love of my life rejected me.

She rejected me because she don't feel the same way, she just love me as best friend.

Yes, I'm in love with my bes friend.

She's a girl.

I love a girl.

I'm not ashamed of being like this but with what happened, I feel like there's something wrong with me.

I don't label myself, I just love with my heart. This heart is sincere, it didn't look for others in many years and just focused loving one and only girl.

She hurt me twice but I don't hate her. It's not her fault if she don't love me the same but this time, it really hurts.

The pain is overwhelming.

I feel drained but tears started to go down again like an open faucet. Tears kept running down but still, there's heaviness in my chest. People say if you show your feelings and let the tears down, you'll be okay afterwards.

But I don't feel better, I feel worse.

Mi young what happened to us? You left me in that cruel judgement of people. I saw your face in disgust. Are you ashamed to be my best friend?

I used to be protected by you. You always there to help me. You always support me and you never leave me.

It all changed, there, when I came out and confessed my love for you. I want to be angry and hate you but I can't. I still love you and it didn't change.

Why? Why Mi young?

Then someone knocked on the door. I was out of my reverie and immediately wiped my tears.

I opened the door and a girl cheerfully greeted me with a smile.

"Good evening Taetae! Wanna drink? Are you done... You know, mourning and torturing yourself? Let's have a drink? I bought soju, spicy chicken and samgyupsal!" Stephanie showed me plastic bags.

I gave her half smile "You're living here and I gave you duplicate keys. Why did you knock?"

Last night, I helped her pack her things and I already told it to my father. He agreed so Stephanie moved here. She's living with us now.

In just a snap, we became close. The witch I feared was gone. I'm really comfortable with her. I like her being around. And with what she did in the canteen, she gained my trust. All the negative feelings against her vanished.

"Um, I'm still adjusting myself here and this is not my house," she bowed down

"Yes this is not your house," she nodded.

"This is your home now Steph so just feel at home. Feel free, I want you to be comfortable here. And as I said, quit your job and focus on your study. Dad will provide, he promised," I don't want her to feel not welcome or stranger here.

Stephanie looked up at me and smiled.

"And why did you buy those foods? Do you still have money?" I added.

She nodded "It's the only way I can feel you better. I know drinks won't make you forget and it won't take the pain away but this will be our bonding, to know each other. What do you think?"

"Okay let's drink,"

After an hour of drinking soju and eating like pigs, whew, I feel my head was very light but my body became heavy.

We're in the kitchen as we sat face to face. My arms were on the table as well as my head. I'm kinda dizzy.

Nah, I'm not drunk! Four bottles of soju wasn't enough. I wanted more.

I glanced at Steph, weirdly she's staring at me while smiling. I guess she has high tolerance in alcohol.

I closed my eyes "Let's drink more," I said lazily.

She giggled loudly "Look at yourself, you're already down midget."

I quickly sat up and faced her with my eyes half opened "Did you call me what?" I cocked my right brow "And I can still handle myself, I'm not drunk!"

"Okay whatever you say, midget," She softly laughed. I like hearing her, she sounds beautiful.

I slapped the table with my hands and stood up "Don't call me midget!" I pouted.

"Don't stand you'll be more drunk, just sit," she instructed.

I shook my head "No, I will buy more soju!" I said while pouting.

Then I walked, I managed to walk few steps but I stumbled. Steph quickly supported me as she held my back and waist.

We're only inches apart as I feel her breathing on my face.

"Stop it, you're drunk just sleep," she said.

I looked at her in the eyes, she's beautiful. Now I realized that she has the same eyes with Mi young. I shook my head, I shouldn't think of her!

Stephanie tittered "I didn't notice that you're cute," she's leaning down on me.

I didn't expect it, never in my dreams! Stephanie Lee kissed me on cheek! My heart started to race and I feel dragons were fighting in my stomach.

Our lips were dangerously close, hers were inviting. It looked so soft as I bit my lower lip.

"You're so cute, Kim Taeyeon," oh gosh, I really like how the way she spoke my name.

She stared me in the eyes as she glanced on my lips. Is she going to kiss me? I began to panic inside, I don't know how to kiss. Yes, call me naive but I don't have first kiss yet.

I wanted it to be Mi young but it will never gonna happen.

I looked away and turned my head breaking our eye contact. I don't want to kiss Steph just because of the effect of the alcohol or lust or whatever it was.

I don't want her to be my rebound or hook up, she don't deserve that.

As I was thinking of her, I didn't notice that she's speaking but I can't understand her.

Everything went in slow motion.

"I'm sorry Steph," then I shut my eyes, the image of Mi young flashed. She's really beautiful.

How will I ever move on if she owns my heart?

Her image started to fade away.

And I drifted to my deep slumber.

The next morning, I woke up early because of the throbbing pain in my head. I looked at my phone to check the time, it's 6:30.

Wait. I'm in my room? How did I get here?

Then I remember what happened last night, Steph and I almost kiss on lips!

How will I face her? I hope it won't be awkward for us.

I massaged my forehead, I need to go to the kitchen and get some medicine for this headache.

Geez. I hope Stephanie is still sleeping.

I jumped off from bed and went straight to the kitchen, then I smelled something delicious.

Oh great. Shit.

She's awake and also, prepared breakfast. She looked at me and smiled as she put the pan on the sink.

"Good morning sleepyhead," she said.

Waah daebak, she cooked fried rice, bacon, egg and ramen soup. These are my favorites! Yay! I was drooling over the foods.

"Come on, let's eat," she offered as she sat in front of the table.

I nodded and also sat, she placed a plate in front of me and gave spoon and fork.

"Thank you," she's taking care of me huh?

"Do you have headache?" She asked as she put fried rice on her plate.

I nodded, I was busy putting bacon and egg on my plate.

"Okay, eat first before you take medicine," she handed me the bowl of fried rice.

"Thanks," was all I can say. I'm avoiding eye contact because I'm shy with the incident last night.

"After this, you take a bath and I'll do the dishes then we will go somewhere!" She excitedly stated.

"Huh? Where? But we have school."

"Don't worry, we will go to school after we went there," she said not answering where will we go.

"Time for some change, Taeyeon," she winked at me and seductively smirked. Seductively... Seriously Kim Taeyeon?

Tch. I tried hard not to blush.

She's really something.

I'm glad because we became friends.

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