After school, I went straight home. I can't stand seeing Taeyeon with Stephanie, they're happy and very comfortable with each other.

I mean it, I'm jealous because Taeyeon has a new friend.

I'm jealous because Stephanie got all her attention.

I'm jealous because Taeyeon is happy even without me and I'm miserable without her.

It hurts me a lot to see that Taeyeon's detaching herself fully from me.

Tears again, started to run down my face. Am I losing her for real just because of my mistakes? I thought we have a strong bond.

Suddenly, someone knocked on the door of my room that broke my trance, I hastily wiped my tears on my face and the door opened.

Mom's head popped out on the door "Baby?"

"Hi Mom," I sadly said.

"Can I come in?" She asked and I nodded.

Mom entered my room and sat on my bed beside me "Are you okay?"

I shook my head.

"What's wrong?" She asked again.

"Taeyeon," I choked and my eyes swam with tears.

"What did that blonde do to my baby? I will beat the shit out of her!" She yelled. She's not blonde anymore.

Then someone barged in, it's Ma.

"What happened? Why did you shout boo?" Ma worriedly asked.

Mom rubbed her nape "Sorry Pani, I got mad because Taeyeon hurt our baby," she explained.

Ma sighed in relief then she sat beside us on bed "What happened Mi young?"

I lowered my head, I'm ashamed to tell them what I did but I think they need to know.

I exhaled and looked up at them, they deserve to know it, they are my parents "I love Taeyeon" I started.

"Mi young we already know that," Mom said.

"No I love her more than best friend," I corrected.

Mom frowned but nodded "Yes, we know that too."

"Is she your girlfriend now? For real?" Ma asked.

"Girlfriend? Did she cheat on you?" Mom sternly asked.

I shook my head "No, she's not my girlfriend. Did you remember when Taeyeon didn't go here for a week?"

"Yes baby," they both nodded.

"Taeyeon confessed to me that she loves me and she asked me to be her girlfriend but I rejected her," they showed me confused and questioning look.

"I rejected her because I'm scared of relationship, that it will ruin our friendship. And I don't want to break your trust to me." After I said it, I just continued to cry.

Mom hugged me and rubbed my back to comfort me.

Ma was stroking my hair and I calmed down a bit "Mi young, is that really your reason?"

I paused for a moment then I looked at Ma.

"Or you're just afraid of what people will think of you? You're afraid to come out?" The last question sounded like a statement.

I don't know what to say but it hit me hard. 

Am I afraid of coming out?

 People knows I'm in natural way, a straight girl.

"If you continue to hide yourself Mi young, you will lose the one you love. Can you stand it, what if Taeyeon found love from others? Is it okay to you? Can you handle it?" Ma asked and I feel my world was crashing down.

I imagined Taeyeon was with Stephanie, that they love each other and I'm completely out of the picture.

Oh gosh, it's breaking my heart. It suffocating me.

"I betrayed Taeyeon, she's humiliated because of me. She confessed to everyone that she loves me but I... I did nothing. I said I love her as best friend. I'm so stupid and I regret it. I hurt her again then she said she needs time to accept it. I love her Mom and Ma but she will not listen to me anymore. I'm coward to face it but I don't wanna lose her," I bursted out.

"If you don't wanna lose her then make things right," Mom said.

"How?" I asked desperately.

"Tell her you love her and show it to her," Ma answered and smiled. "Get your girl back and be her girlfriend."

"Gi-girlfriend? Are you sure Pani?" Mom stuttered, she was shocked too with what Ma said.

Ma nodded "Boo, it's normal for their age. And we trust them, I trust Mi young as well as Taeyeon." She genuinely said.

Mom sighed in defeat "Fine, fight for your love and be her girlfriend. Show everyone how much you love her. I promise, you'll never regret it baby." She wiped my tears.

I smiled to them and nodded, their advice somewhat lifted my mood. They're indeed the best parents. 

They didn't blame me but instead, they give me advice.

Now I don't care what will other people think, I don't want to lose my Tae.

I will fight for her.

I will show her how much she mean to me.

I want her back.

And I will win her back.

*****

What now? ^_^