Just a little disclaimer. This chapter is not planned or scripted. It's just me writing whatever came into my mind. Feel free to skip. ❤️

Hi. I hope you are doing well.

Since morning, I've been trying to push out a chapter. I couldn't. I don't know the reason, but I guess, it's a bit of everything. It's not having enough ideas, it's not getting enough validation, it's just sitting down to write and knowing this isn't going anywhere.

Now, don't get me wrong. I absolutely enjoy writing. Writing is something which gives me immense pleasure.

However, the numbers do get me sometimes. I've had 500+ followers for over a year. And the ratio of my readers and my followers doesn't make sense? I know I've been inactive for the last one year and haven't been updating but even when I try to have any conversation over my message board or the announcements, it's like a ghost town.

All the friends I had made over my time on Wattpad are inactive or have deleted their accounts. Now, making new friends is amazing, but I miss my old Wattpad friends. This used to be my happy place.

Moreover, am I the only one who feels the quality of books on here is degrading every single day? No offence to any writer, but for any trending tag, the first ten books are smut or erotica. If you don't believe me, just check #poetry and lemme know.

And this sucks. There are, of course, amazing books out there but the algorithm in here sucks, already. It makes me question if people ever want to read anything substantial here? Am I doing the right thing by posting here or making plans of posting often? Because, it takes a lot of energy to just write down one chapter. It's not just the words. It's the emotions, editing, making it look presentable. It's everything a writer wants to put into his or her work.

All this adds up. I have days when I question why I am here. Today is one such day. I don't think I've got answers or any conclusion here. I don't think I've got a happy inspiring ending up here because it is what it is.

If you made it till here, thank you.
Hoping tomorrow will be a better day.