1-7-17 (had no idea what day it was tbh)

So I'm sick with bronchitis and tonsillitis, but they only gave me antibiotics which doesn't do shit for bronchitis, and I can't imagine the tonsillitis gets too much better when I'm constantly coughing. Good news though I finally got better medicine after like a week of being fucking miserable every day. My friend went to a bigger city and got some today bc my bf (who's her roommate) was going to but then found out she was going anyways so that happened.

I got more incense though and that made me happy, even though it'd irritate my lungs to burn it rn.

Fuck my mom still. Yo just day dreaming. Idk. Wishing she cared wishing she didn't make other people uncomfortable about coming around. Wishing she wasn't fake. Taught me how to be real as fuckkk though.

I did homework for fuckin five hours today 🤕 felt productive though and it just needed to get done.

Missing making music rn. Sucks so bad. Every time I'm sick I just need to make more music and it's ughh. I just miss rapping and losing myself in that love, rerunning type beats to get it down. It's such a release for me. Reminds me I'm worth something.

I have to set up my music shit like I have a mic now and shit that desperately needs to go somewhere. And I haven't been to my dads yet and I know he got my sister and I an Xbox, and like rn. I have a ps2 and a DVD player just stacked on the floor so 😂

My vibey lights are taken down rn because I took them over to my bf's bc we did some vibey shit that we needed it for. There's a pile of clothes on the floor along with a fake squirrel and I have no fucking clue when I'm cleaning any of that up.

I have a lot of new music and it's amazing.
Nightrat // Bones
Lust // Lil Skies
Lose my mind // lil peep
Tokyo Gold // Anonymuz

Look at his faacccee 😂 whaaat

Octopus hoodie ✨

- Randy
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