11-19-16 oh shit actually 11-20-16 (midnight happened guys)

So I'm shit at updating this oops xD but Summertime by Sammy Adams came on and oh my God the fucking memories I'm so high on life rn and I just spent at least an hour if not two wrapped up in writing this mgk fic and it was great. I also wrote two raps today, even though I'm still sort of sick (perhaps this is why I'm not better yet xD) but yeah I'll be posting that shit when I get around to send it all from my phone to my tablet, bc I have a lot to update ugh.

It's all good though life is so chill today, I find its easier to do this when I'm not feeling really shitty. It's gotta balance. At least a little.

It's strange how certain things never stop inspiring you. I think I'm definitely gonna be reconnecting to the roads that started all of this over the holidays, just because I turned here during those times. It's sort of obvious I've used myself as a form of strength when things turned to shit. And October is usually the shittiest month no matter what. August sucks bad and September is the hangover of it. We already assessed shit gets bad in October. November is usually better and from there on out, it's all up until spring or when I am given a change that gives me reason to feel high before then. That's my bipolar cycle. And January is iffy. It's good and bad, just depending. But from November/December on out, I learn to find love and life in what I do. And it's refreshing.

I love what I do. I really do. It's my purpose, I cannot live without this and I'll do it until I die.

Yeah idk. Life is so fascinating. I just feel so good rn I can't even. I can do this. I can handle life, even though it got really shitty.

Low key don't want to sleep tonight but I just end up not having enough to do so I fall asleep lmao

Fuck I don't think I watered my cactus this week. I'm a bad parent.

So I found a folder of photos on my phone dedicated to trump memes simply titled Trump but for some reason, not only do I have no recognition of actually creating this (although the memes are all hilariously familar), a picture of my friend holding a fish is in this album. Like why? Like sorry Spencer you're not Donald Trump lol

I have eleven bottles/mason jars. I'm starting a collection. It's an obsession. I love them for literally no reason. Cans, too. I just have cans strung up. Mostly mountain dew/rockstar cans. No beer cans though. Lmao it's so redneck though it's beautiful xD

You know what else I love? Ed Sheeran. I mean who doesn't? He's great. Like I can't even.

Morals of today: walls tell stories, it just takes the right person to read them, reconnection is great, and mountain dew is now my heroin again k thanks bye.
- (m.m)