there's something completely wrong with my head
when self-hatred slowly started to spread
from the moment i was crying at midnight in my bed
till laying on the floor wishing i was dead

those issues in me
are growing bigger and stronger
day by day
i'm turning into a monster

as the pain gets sharper
i'm drowning in sorrow
in moments of frustration
i'm scared of tomorrow

"but don't worry, i'm fine"

even though i say it as a lie
well, at least i'll try
to look better even if i'm ripped inside