#42 omg only 8 more and then I'm going to be making a new one shot series! Whoever can guess it first is amazing. I might start posting again after I've gone through the next one if  I can't think of another one shot series idea!! I'm also trying a new writing style, let me know what you think!

So, this one came to me in the middle of the night again and luckily I remembered it! It might be a little messed up but... you know I'm demented so, why not! I cried while writing it so...Good luck!!

WARNING MAJOR CHARACTER DEATHS AND ALCOHOLIC TENDENCIES 

Arthur stopped. He knelt on the ground and took his aim. 

deep breath in, deep breath out 

His finger on the trigger pulled and the shot rang through the quiet squeaking woods. 

The beautiful doe fell without another sound. 

Before Arthur and his men could even get close enough to touch it, the doe started to shimmer and disappear. In it's place was...

Guinevere. 

The knights moved closer and saw the fallen love of the king. Elyan fell to his knees, Arthur's eyes watered with horror.

Oh what had he done!

Merlin could see the rage in his eyes filling the place of the horror and disbelief. Arthur had just killed Gwen. The future queen is dead. 

They tied Gwen's body to Merlin's horse and had Merlin ride with her. With all of the knights' grief, none of them had stopped to think of how close Merlin and Gwen were or how upset he was when she was banished. 

The whole ride home to Camelot was filled with grief and silence. 

None dared to speak single word. 

They burned Gwen's body the next day.

The day after that, Arthur brought himself to the tavern. Merlin was called to bring him back. Arthur slapped and tripped and hit Merlin. Then he would apologize once he went to bed.

The the next day it repeated.

Then the day after that.

And the after that.

Arthur become a regular after two months.

Merlin used magic to hide his bruises but he couldn't heal them.  

His other half was broken and so was he. He was weak. 

One day, Arthur went to far. 

He tripped Merlin down a flight of stairs.

Merlin was fine but groaning at the bottom. 

Arthur went down and kicked him around. 

After five minutes of Arthur kicking as hard as he could, He stopped.

He took deep breathes, trying to hold back the tears.

Then he couldn't handle it anymore.

He broke down crying. 

Merlin unraveled out of his defensive ball, bleeding in various places and had scratches all over, slowly crawled over and comforted Arthur. 

Arthur wept and wept for his lost love. 

After a while, Merlin started going limp. 

After Merlin fell off him, Arthur stared in disbelief at his best friend's bleeding and broken body. 

" Oh god. What have I done?!" 

Arthur had become a monster. He just Killed Merlin and killed Guinevere months ago. 

Out of grief, Arthur snuck to Gaius's room and left his seal of royalty on Gaius's desk and quietly snuck out. 

Then, Arthur joined his lost love and best friend. 

Guards found Merlin and took him to Gaius. 

Merlin survived.

Arthur killed himself because he thought he had killed Merlin.

Merlin wanted to join his friends in the afterlife

but that was impossible. 

Merlin became a shell of his old self.

All he did was stare out the window. 

Gaius became the next king 

to honor Arthur's wishes.

Sefa, Gwen's old maid, took care of the depressed Merlin

who woke in the middle of the night whispering Arthur's name. 

Merlin would live his whole immortal life numb

and broken.

Forever.

Merlin woke in a cold sweat with a gasp. 

It was a dream.

Just a dream.

It never happened.

Arthur is alive.

Gwen is alive.

Merlin is fine

That never happened. 

Merlin kept repeating this to himself before slowly rocking himself into dreamless sleep.

The next day he would smile

and hide his pain caused by the recurring nightmare he had every night

but never would let others know of his sorrow. 

It was his burden to have

His burden alone.

A/N I couldn't do that to poor Merlin and Arthur and Gwen!! I'm not THAT cold and heartless!

Well...

No. just no.