Pure pain today, don't mind me! I just wanted to write a bittersweet chapter for once. A wise person once wrote, 'I'm not about those happy endings, I like realistic ones.'

So I wanted to write pain today, idk why ㄟ(''/)ㄏ

I am soooo sorry this is late, I forgot, and by the time I remembered it was really late! I apologize, but two chapters today!! Yay!! I hope you enjoy this chapter of pure pain!! Love y'all!!

              Hiccup's P.O.V

I sat on my couch, watching Tv. I was attempting to block out the outside world, trying to be safe within the walls of my apartment. Just the thought of leaving could cause me to panic. I couldn't trust anybody. No one was trustworthy.

I didn't always feel that way. In fact, I was once the opposite. I could never stay inside for long. Now I only go out to go to work, or when someone makes me.

My cat, Toothless, curled up on my lap. He purred as I scratched between his ears and under his chin. Toothless was great.

"You understand me, don't ya bud? You understand the stress of going out, and the terror of confrontation? You get me, huh?" I asked.

Toothless looked up at me with his yellow-green eyes, with a look that told me he did. Toothless hated new people, new surroundings, just like me. I had more in common with this cat then any human I've ever known.
It wasn't always like that.

''Come on, Hic! That guy said this place is great!! We have to go!!''

''I don't know, Mer. You don't even know him, how can you be sure?''

''Oh come on Haddock!! Take a few risks every once in a while!''

''I take risks all the time, since I met you! Is this risky enough for you?'' I placed my lips onto hers, the familiar feeling filling me with happiness as she kissed back.

''I'd say so, ye b*stard.'' She replied smirking against my lips, kissing me again.

I shook my head, banishing my thoughts back to their gloomy origins. I rubbed my temples and got up, causing Toothless to meow in protest. I stumbled to the counter, brushing my bangs back, only to let them fall back over my eyes.

'Stop it. Stop it right now. If you don't stop thinking about her, you won't be able to stop.'

And yet...

I thought about her anyway.

I bent a knee, hoping she couldn't see how nervous I was. The look of shock appeared on her face, and she began to grin. She placed her face in her hands and began crying.

"Merida Blair Dunbroch, I know you're not one for long speeches, so I'll keep it sweet, sappy, and short. Kinda like you. You're the bravest, kindest, most amazing, most beautiful and the most wonderful person I've ever met. When I'm around you, I feel like I could do anything, like I'm living in the clouds. I'd like to feel that way for the rest of my life. Would you marry me?"

Merida was sobbing, and was crouched down to my level. She suddenly grabbed my face and looked at me with watery blue eyes. "Yes, yes ye idiot! I love you, yes, I'll marry you!"

She pulled my face to her's, our tears of joy mixing on our cheeks. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her as close as possible. People around us clapped and whistled, and I pulled away to put the ring on her finger.

I fittled with the silver band on my ring finger, feeling the coolness between my index finger and thumb. I smiled as I remembered our wedding day, our honeymoon, and our years of marriage.

I remembered the birth of our daughter, Eyids. He red hair and fair skin matched Merida's perfectly, and her green eyes and freckles she got from me. Our perfect little girl. She started her freshman year a few months ago.

"I'll be fine Hic, I'm just taking a flight to see my mum. I'll be back soon, I just have to see her before she starts treatment. I promise I'll be back in a week."

I ran my hand through my hair. I shifted Eyids on my hip and sighed. "All right, just be careful. We'll miss you, won't we E?"

"I'll miss you every day mummy!"

Merida chuckled and placed a kiss on our daughter's cheek. "I'll miss you too, ye lil' devil. And you too, Mr. Haddock."

I kissed her. "I'll miss you, Mrs. Haddock."

I sunk down to the to the floor and started crying. Merida never
came back from that trip. The plane had a malfunction and did a nose dive into the Atlantic ocean. I didn't leave the house for weeks after that, I didn't trust anyone anymore.

How could I? The one I loved broke a promise that she'd return, and she left. I had nothing left.

'No.' I told myself. 'You still have so much left. You've got mom, Toothless, and Eyids. Oh God, I still have Eyids. My precious little girl. How must she feel about this? I'm so selfish!!'

With that, Eyids returned from school, opening the door and throwing her bookbag on the couch. "Dad? I'm home! Hi Toothless!"

I quickly got up and rushed to my little girl, wrapping my arms around her. I squeezed her tightly.

"Uh, Dad? Are you OK? What's wrong?" She asked, surprised.

"I'm OK. I'm sorry, E. I really am I've been so selfish-"

"Dad, what are you even talking about?" She asked, arching her eyebrow exactly like Merida had done so many times before her.

My heart ached. I brushed a few strands of hair out of Eyids's green eyes.

"I was so upset about your mother, that I never even stopped to think about how you felt. I'm sorry, I really am." I pulled her into a hug. "I'll never let you go."

I felt her hug me back and begin to cry. I started crying to and hugged my little girl closer. "I'll never let anything hurt you again."

I knew it wasn't entirely true, but I'd protect my little girl to my last breath.

Whoo!! One chapter down, one to go! I hoped you enjoyed it!!

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