din guzry ratain guzrin or pta nhi kitny saal aise he ghaflat ma guzr gye....ma namazon se dur thi dunia ki rangeenion ma mast na deen ki khbr thi na akhirat ki parwah ...Amma kehti thien uth beta namaz ka time ha Namaz prh ye dunia ye aysh nhi bchaingy tumhe ye Namaz bcha legi...pr ma dheet bni rehti pri rehti bistar pr ya phir apny dunyawi fazool kamon ma masroof hokar Allah k bulaway ko thukra deti...mujhe tou jaise dunia he apna sbb kch lgti thi ajeeb zindagi thi meri din ma college ma doston k sath mast raton ko filmain dramain or har trah ki fazool chez ma magan rehti thi...Jhoot dhoka gheebat ye sbb tou meri lifestyle ka favourite part bnn gye thy...Sbb se ziada dil chasp activity thi Gheebat(Gossip)ma tanhai pasand bilkul nhi thi tanhai se nafrat thi muje anti social or religious logon se nafrat thi..Isilye mere dost bhe mere jaise thy hum 3 dostain sath beth k mazay krty outing krty jb aik ko wapis ghr drop krdety tou baqi 2 khoob mil kr uski dressing uski batain usky accent ka mazak uraty gossip k beghair meri outing or hang outs tou bay kaar thy....Mere doston ma srf lrkian he nhi larky bhe shamil thy ma bht bay takaluf hokar unse bat krti thi...mere ghr wale muje toktay thy k  bht pachtaogi lakin ma unki batain aik kan se sun kr dusry kan se nikal deti thi ..Sal guzry ma bri hogai ma ub wo purani fizza nhi rhi hun...Ma ne waqaie bht badal dia ha khud ko aap janty hain kaise ....
Aik din jb ma college se wapis aai tou ghr pr koi nhi tha ma ne Apny baray bhai ko call ki tou mujhe pta chala k mere abba ko heart attack aya ha or wo I.C .U  ma hain....mera dimagh ghoom gya Fizza Rehman k sath kia hogya Fizza Rehman ka bap Uska sahara aaj I.C.U ma apni zindagi or mout ki larai larr rha ha...ma soch ma thi phone mere hath se kb gira muje nhi pta...muje aise mehsoos hua k jaise koi mujse puch rha ho k ub tumhara ghuror kahan gya ...Muje namaz k wo wqt yad anay lgy jb ma music ma mast rehti thi abba hamesha kehty thy beta Music haram ha betay humara fakhar bno mera fakhar bno ma akhirat ma Allah ko kia jawab dunga k ma ne apni ekloti beti ko laad piyar se bigaar dia lakin usay dunia ka maqsad nhi smjhaya    .."Beta ma boorha hogya hun or kia pta kb Allah muje apny pas bula ly ye thik ha k tumhare liye tumhare bhai hain lakin beti mere liye kia hoga ma chyn se marr nhi skunga mera Allah mujhse sawal krega k apni aulaad ko deen kion nhi sikhaya apni beti ko parda kion nhi krwaya ma tumhe force nhi kr rha fizza lakin beta namaz ko adat bna lo dunia or deen dono mil jyngy"""Mere kano ma abba k alfaz goonjh rhy thy meri sari zindagi aik video ki trah mere samny ghoom rhi thi kitni bar kitni bar Allah ne mujhe bulaya tha kamiabi ki trf kitni baar Allah ne mujhe bulaya tha Sukoon ki traf lakin ma ne kia kiya ma tou ghaflat ki neend soi hui thi....***Ub kia krun meri dua ...meri dua kabool hogi???mujh gunehgaar ki dua kia Allah pak qabool krengy ????Itni namazin chor dien abba amma ki har bat pr behas ki bdtamizi ki ...kia ub Allah meri bat sunengy..???Ma apny aap se he sawalat kr rhi thi...achanak meri Amma ka kaha hua aik jumla jaise ksi ne mujhe yad dilaya **Beta tum Allah k agay jhuk kr tou dekho Wo bara Raheem ha tumhe hidayat de dega or tumhe rasta dikhaye ga***mujhe jaise ksi ne jhanjoor dia ho mujhe jaise ksi ne khuwab se jaga dia ho ...ma jaag gai thi ....Fizza Rehman ko hosh agya tha ..Ma ne wudhu kia mujhe tou namaz prhny ka sahi tareeqa tk nhi ata tha lakin hosh sambhal k ma ne sbb tareeky net se google kiye thy or phr asar ki namaz adaa ki ...Salam phair kr mere hath khud he uth gye or mun se bss yehi nikla**Ya Allah apko Jawaan ki tobaa bhttt pasand ha plz ya Allah agar meri abba thik hojain tou ma sbb buray kam chor dungi or ma apki rah pr chalungi plz Allah ma koi burai nhi krungi ma 5 wqt ki namaz adaa krungi ma hamesha abba ki har bat manu gi...***dua khtm hui mere ansoo  mere duppaty ko bhiga chuky thy ,,mujhe aisa lga dil pr bhari patharon ka boujh tha jo ub khtm hogya ha...jaise ksi ne mujh ma nai taza ruh phoonk di ha...aisa saaf shafaf or khoobsurat ehsas tou na kbhe gossips ma mila na kbhe music ma ...Ajeeb sa ehsas tha sukoon tha. .Achanak phone bja bhai ki call thi   ..*.Abu ko Allah ne nai zindagi di ha*...meri dua kabool hogai thi...Allah ne meri sunli thi mujh gunehgaar ki sunli thi....Or ub mera wqt tha k ma apna wada pura krun ..Meri zindagi badal gai hai ..sbb mujhse khush hain yaqeenan Allah bhe mujhse khush ha ...ma ne khud ko badal dia ha.. Allah ne mujhe   rasta dikha dia ha...Zindagi ma sukoon ha ma har haal ma khush hun......