suma_0795 sahanaht u both girl message me everyday hehe sorry for late, not really feeling for right, got busy in reading other ff's, well enjoy and all who comment and vote on last episode thanku and and plz give vote for mask mental awards too.

She kept her hand on cold wall for support, shower was on, cold water was falling on her, but instead of feeling cold she was getting more hot as she felt big warm hands hugging her from back, she moan as he bite her shoulder, leaving a dark love bite on her milky white skin, he bend her down massaging her butt cheeks intertwine their fingers, she felt his whole weight on her back 'ragini' he whisper huskily

Rag moan: sanskar 'he smile and suck her whole back, 'ragini, ragini' door knock 'ragini, r u in there' ragini dream got break by sujata shouting from outside, she shiver finally realizing how cold she was, she turn off the water immediately and wrap the towel around her body to feel warm breathing heavily

Suj: ragini, r u in there

Rag still shivering trying to catch her breath; mom, I'm coming

Suj left saying; hurry up, come down, he had come 'rag sigh watching her reflection in mirror. It had been 2 months since sanskar left her alone. She saw Her eyes which were not teary anymore but dry as all water had drain out from her eyes. She wear saree, a simple one without any color. She didn't want to wear that colorless saree as sanskar never like these dull colors on her but she has too as he's no more with her to see her like that. Society ladies said for who I will wear that cloths cus for whom I get ready had left this world. They were right I always get ready only for him, just so he can see me, compliment me, cherish me, and love me. She moan when she again felt his warm hand massaging her waist but again it knock breaking her trance, she sigh: I'm coming 'ragini went down to her guests. She was now used to, after sanskar left many people came to show their condolences. She was now all used to all these sympathy, she felt laughing out loud when some people were actually wanted her to believe that they did really care for them, she just want to run out from them as she feel suffocate when they fake their tears and hugged her tight that she can't breathe.

Sahil; hey, how r u

Rag looking down with expressionless: I'm fine 'sujata make her sit and went to kitchen. Sahil felt bad to see her like that, last time they met she was trying to match make him that's y he wanted to run away, he can feel her pain as he himself lost his wife kavya, he know how he live without her.

Sah: u look really weak, y don't take proper care of urself

Rag: it's not like that, I'm fine

Sah sigh: ragini u need to move on

Rag: did u move on, from kavya, did u forget about her

Sah smile, nod no: no never, she will always be in my heart, but I kept myself busy, u will need something too or else u will kill urself in this place, u need to get out of here 'he hold her hand but she jerk her hand back.

Rag kept quiet for few min: I'm fine here 'she left quietly to her room. Laksh came in house with mishka saw rag-sah and got pissed

PAPA' mishka yell looking at sahil, sahil spin her in his arms with smile, laksh was looking at him weirdly' what r u doing here

Sah: I came here to meet ragini and to take u back, it's been long I was missing u

Mi: but ragini auntie she needs me

Sah smile: papa also need u sweety, plz come back for me 'mishka pout nod. Sahil saw laksh' hey ur laksh right, I'm sahil, I also came here b4 but never got a chance to meet u 'sahil felt weird as laksh was giving him death glare, laksh left from their angrily leaving sahil confuse.

Next day

Ragini was sleeping when she felt 2 cold fingers on her spine bone stepping up, she closed her eyes and breathe deeply: u always do that, u just came and never talk to me or show me ur face 'he smile n blow air on her back making her moan' u know after u left, many thing changes, , mom accept me and now she take stand for me, she even fight with friends for me, and laksh, he forgave me, but he don't talk to me but always take care of me, and u know maan n geet also came, I saw sakshi with them, she become so beautiful, she had become really healthy but they changed her name, she now called muskaan mean a smile, 'rag giggles' laksh was right, geet is better mother then me, I can never be good mother as her that's why god take ... 'b4 she complete, he shut her mouth tight shutting her, he closed her eyes and made her turn, removing her saree from her waist he linger a kiss, she felt an immense pleasure, but a knock again broke her dream, she quickly got up covering herself and saw laksh coming in'

Lak look at her without any expression: chachi is calling 'she gulp and saw the time, it was 11:45 am

Rag: I'm sorry, I again overslept 'he nod sternly and left. She sigh, he said he forgave me but he never talk to me normally, just few necessary words and that to only to me, he doesn't even look at badi ma, I don't know when will he forgave her, she is really upset but happy atleast he will not be alone, swara will be with him, he accepted to spent time with swara for my sake but she told he never speak a word to her, just stare at her always, only person he interact with is mishka. Their bond shock all of us, but happy atleast now they won't be feeling alone. Both of them had been alone for long hope their bond get well.

It was again the same usual day, me being in own world, mom and dad tried to take me out of house as family outing but they don't get it, what I feel in this house, in my room. She rest her head back on his bare chest, he slide his hand and kiss the back of her head, sanskar had loved me a lot, more than it was needed, now I can easily spent my life with his memories. Each side of this house, every inch of this room remind me of my sanskar.

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Rag moan: sanskar leave na, this is not our bedroom, it's kitchen, it's not good 'she moan loud, sanskar bite her neck' someone will come 'she huskily said

San busy kissing her neck: let them come, ur my wife, we r not doing anything wrong

Rag: but 'sanskar shut her mouth with own, both were kissing eo hungrily when they heard sujata calling them giving them shock, sanskar ran leaving ragini with messy hairs and swell lip, she pout trying to fix her hair and saree.

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Rag gulp remembering with watery eyes: I'm really missing u sanskar, I still remember ur touch, ur warmness, ur smell, ur kiss, ur love, but I missing ur stare, when u look at me, in my eyes, I'm missing that, when will u come infront of me?, y u always love me from my back?, 'she got angry and try to turn back but he embrace her tight so she can't move, ragini understand and cried', plz sanskar just once plz, 'he slides his hands on her waist and massage there, it always bring amazing feeling when he do that but today she need to look at him or she will forget his stares, it's like his image was fading little by little, and all these photos of him wasn't working to keep him alive, she look at side mirror finding herself alone, she was not feeling his touch anymore, she turn back immediately finding him gone, she throw all the pillows and look under the bed hoping he was there but he was not where was he', y can't I see him?, was I this bad?, don't she deserve what other women deserve?, she want to be a good wife, a good mother, y god snatched this from her, what was my fault? what sin I did that god gave this punishment?, y god hate me so much?, y, she throw all the bed pillows, cushions and ruin the bedsheets, crying out loud

Wake up, wakeup, 'some blur voice come jerking her' wake up bhabi, wake up for god sake 'it was laksh, he said jerking her trying to wake her up

Rag open his eyes wide, she was breathing heavily, her throat was all dry: SANSKAR

Lak: it's me laksh, u were having a bad dream

Rag embarrass; what r u doing here 'she was covering herself with blanket, but laksh already saw her cloths, she was wearing sanskar coat above her saree

Lak got worried: u were shivering bad and u were screaming, I think u got fever,

Rag nod no; I'm fine laksh

Lak: no ur not, look at u, ur skin is all pale, and dried eyes, u look like some old hag, how many days ur gonna lock urself in this room, u need some fresh air or sunlight or meet new people

Rag smile: u know, this is the time after so long ur talking to me this much 'she hug him emotionally

Lak sigh: bhabi plz, just come out of this room, I'm not saying to leave ur room but just for few hours, plz, ur gonna come with me in morning to doctor, we will go together' Rag nod tired, 

Laksh: here drink this water, and sleep, its midnight, I will come in morning 'rag drink water and tried to sleep. Laksh sat beside her watching her carefully, he was really worried for her, she's been losing her weight and her skin was also getting pale, he saw by himself that how she eat half heartily, more than half of her food still remained untouched, he know she was just eating to breath not to live.

His family still think he's a hardcore person as he didn't show any emotion other than that outburst in sanskar funeral.

I was not that hardcore that I didn't get affect by my own brother's dead, I was equally affect and hurt as much as them but my guilt didn't let my emotions come out. Even in last meets I fought with him, I wanted to keep them in guilt to send me away alone but he left me in guilt now leaving us totally alone. I really wish I would have forgiven them but my stupid image I built ruined my chances with him. I didn't knew where to go, I wanted to come to her but she was so broken that she didn't even realize anyone else presences, I wonder if she was even alive. I only get engaged with swara as bhabi told she will my companion. Swara tried to soothe me but none of her words seems to reach my mind. If I was the laksh 5 year back maybe I would have taken her words, but now her words just pissed me off. She speak like she knows how it feel to lose someone seriously, she never lose someone then how does she know that feeling, people like her just copy dialogues from movies and apply that on someone, I don't know how I'm gonna live with her, but someone tell her the actual pain to live alone, she never in her life gone through that stage where she felt alone then how she know this pain. People keep coming for condolences, and house became full of unknown people, that it make hard to breath. Then there I found, a young girl, mishka, I don't know whenever I see her, I remember myself [5 year back] which kind make me uncomfortable. She was sitting alone in terrace without a word, sharing her feelings with me, we hit it off well together. She was just like me, she's know how it to be alone is or ignores. I felt bad for her she was too young to be go through this, she was holding herself responsible for bhabi condition. She also told she was having no such memories of her mother, always thought and wish that ragini was her mother, it had solve both of their problems. Even her father sahil was busy with his business ignoring her, that's make me hate him.

Laksh' I got jerk out of my thoughts when someone called me, it was no other than my own mother, suddenly all my peace got replace with fire, I still can't stand few people and she's one of them

Ap who was shock to see laksh sleeping in rag bed: what r u doing here 'laksh realize that he accidentally sleep there, he got off and left the his room, ap followed him

Lak angry: I told u not to come in my room, what business u have here

Ap: what business u have in ragini rooms, do u have any idea if someone had saw u there, what they have thought of u both

Laksh laugh sarcastically, so didn't he told u y can't he stand his own mother, cus despite being a modern educated woman she still hold some backwards thinking

Ap angry: there is no need to laugh, u remember last time right, what was result of that, and u again did that mistake. How could u even think of going alone in a widow woman room

Lak angry yell: that's it, finally u said it, finally u proved how much backward woman u r. Just bcuz she's a widow we should leave them alone. We shouldn't care if they live or die, eat or not, just leave them alone to survive. FYI that widow woman was scared, she was scare, and she was having fever. Do u know she gets nightmares, she scream at night, every night, I heard them I felt them, oh how would u know, u wouldn't have time from ur so call social activities to look upon ur own family.

Ap felt hurt: I only came to her room to check her

Lak smirk: to see whether she's alive or not. Don't pretend infront of me mother, cus now I know ur true self. U can fool bhabi but not me, u told her fix my engagement so I could stay here right or I will not alone anymore, but I know y u fixed my engagement. But Well guess what? Ur plan work, I'm staying here but only for bhabi, I don't care about anyone else not even this engagement 'ap was shock and hurt, left the room with teary eyes.

Next day

Laksh came in ragini room, she was getting ready; hurry up, we r getting late

Rag gulp; laksh can't we call doctor here, I don't feel like going out

Lak sigh: I'm waiting in my car, u have 5 min 'he left.

Rag sigh, she was getting weird feeling. After sanskar left she was too scared to step out, she remember that horrible incidents [police molest], she held herself captive in her own room, she felt secure here, how to tell them. She was standing in house main door watching her foot she step out, she didn't noticed when her body start shivering as sunlight hit her skin. Shit she forget the neighbors they r looking at her, wait they giving her weird looks, r they laughing at her, they r whispering, her body get stiff in 1 place, what's that siren sound, her head was spinning, she tried to hold herself but fall. B4 she fall on ground laksh hold

Lak; bhabi, bhabi 'he tap her cheeks' shit, she's pass out 'he lift ragini and ran to his car.

Laksh was waiting outside as doctor was checking ragini, after 20 min doctor came out: hello doctor, I'm laksh, meri bhabi kaisi hain [how is bhabi], y did she faint

Doc smile; hello laksh, laksh where ur brother, I mean ragini husband

Lak sad: he died 2 months back

Doc nod: so sorry to hear about that. Okay, s ragini is really weak, I think she's not been eating enough or getting fresh air, and she's all pale maybe cus of mind stress, plz tell me everything of her, so I can help u 'lak sigh and told her' hmm it's basically normal for woman to get in shock in these situations, but ragini medical condition was worst from starting. Being a premature baby, having accident, miscarriage and abortion and now losing her husband, it too much to handle more than physical she needs mental treatment. How is her relation with u 'Laks confuse' I mean does ur family support her, r they more than friends any kind of this relation.

Lak nod no; no doctor, she just have normal relation with everyone, my family love her but they only spent limit time. I don't know about their bond as I was in abroad for my studies

Doc; laksh, listen carefully, she needs extra attention, she need trues friends, who can take care of her like her husband used to do. And she's scared of other people, that's y she refused to step out of house, she's scared they will hurt her, judge her and there is no one to protect her, to stand for her, like her husband used to. Well we had taken few tests, and right now I can say, she will get healthy if she maintain her diet well, I'm going prepare chart for her, with that she need daily exercises, I will prefer yoga and walking

Lak: doctor u said, she need mental treatment

Doc: laksh if u want I will consult u some psychiatrist but more than doctor she needs a friends, who talks to her, take care of her, do u know any of her friends

Lak: no doctor, I don't know

Doc: it's seems like u don't share a good relation with her 'laksh felt bad' it's okay, I will call u when the results will come till then try to take extra care of her

Laksh was remembering her old times with ragini, how good their bond was

Fb

Lak: bhabi, plz don't cry na, I will there with u right, plz don't cried 'ragini was crying as it was her time for Bidaai, laksh smile as rag stop crying but swara hug her again making her emotion, both sister start crying, lak sigh' bhai how much these girls cry, and how hard it was to make bhabi stop but this chipakli again made her cry 'both swaragini saw him angry

San: laksh, they r having emotional moment, don't ruined it

Lak angry: I'm not ruining any moment, that chipakli is ruining bhabi's makeup 'hearing this everyone laugh, ragini also giggles while swara pout, laksh went to rag, he hold her hand' bhabi I told u right, I will always be there for u, then y r u feeling bad, don't u have trust on me

Rag cup his face: I trust u more than myself 'she kissed him on forehead

Fb end

Rag: what doctor said

Lak; she said u need good diet, a good environment

Rag: where r we going, this is not house route 'laksh kept driving quietly. Rag was shock to see a beach' laksh what is this

L: come out now 'he made her step out of car

R: laksh plz let's go home, mom will be worried 'he hold her hand and start walking,

Lak; I want to spent time with u

Rag blink: with me, don't u want to spent time with ur fiancé 'laksh didn't answer, rag sigh' laksh do u love someone else 'laksh look at her, both standing on seashore, water was hitting their foots

Lak: if u want to ask, that if I have a boyfriend sorry to ruined ur imagination, I don't have boyfriend, not even intend to' Rag frown, wide her eyes, she laugh, laksh smile' after so long u have laugh whole heartily

Rag; laksh, was living their alone was that much scary that u start hating us

Fb

Laksh was walking to his room when some boys pushed not giving a chance to think, in a seconds he got lock in some tiny congested tiny room, with no light, he got scared and started tapping the door loud: help, plz help, get me out of here, plz I'm claustrophobia, plz open the door plz' he was screaming for help, but outside boys were having laugh at him, one of the them called someone: mike it's done, he complain about u right, we took ur revenge 'mike smirk. Laksh hold his head trying to hold himself stiff but pass out

Fb end

Lak sigh: leave about me, tell me have u talk to mishka, when she is coming back

Rag: u seem to bond well with her. I talk to her today, She was also asking about u, sahil always trust me with her

Lak: or more like, ur unpaid babysitter for her

Rag frown and smile; if u want I will ask sahil to find another babysitter 'laksh snap at her, she laugh' gosh never thought u would get attached to her

Lak embarrass: she's a nice kid 'rag cup his left cheek

R; she is just like u, that's y she held a special place in my heart

L; u have been ignoring her quite lately 'rag sad, he hold her hand' u need to talk to her but b4 that u need to hold urself up, don't lose urself, cus now I'm with standing with u. I promised from now on I will be with u, I will stand for u and protect u, meri bhabi 'rag smile emotionally and hugged him tight she cried, laksh also hugged her back and let his tears fall too.

SCREEN STOP ON RAGLAK CRYING N HUGGING EO AT SEASHORE

PRECAP:

MARRAIGE

RAGINI SCARED AT SOME REVELATION