I stretch out my arm, and try to reach for my buzzing phone. It's 8AM, and we have to get on the road again. as I pushed on the snooze button, I put my arm back underneath the blanket. I can't move much because of the large arm that is placed on top of me

"Shawn" I mumble, waking him up. I don't blame him for placing his arm over me, because it's something more men do. automatically. 

"oh shoot" he curses as he sees his arm, even though it isn't a huge problem. "sorry" he says with him rough morning voice. I have to admit, I like this soft Shawn..

"We can get some breakfast on the way, go get dressed" I say as I push the blanket from my body. "be ready at 9" I add, just before I close the bathroom door.

I put on some simple black skinny jeans and a basic t-shirt. I put my hair in a bun and don't bother to put on any makeup. again; it's just Shawn I'm traveling with.

I have never been a morning person, so i'm not talking on my way to the car.

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Guys i'm so sorry. like for real. I know I say that every time i publish a new chapter. 

I have been off lately. and I had so many other  things on my mind. for instance, I got a sports injury about 4 months ago, and now i went to the docters and i had to do an MRI-Scan. 

I had about 6 hours of practice and 2 matches every week, and now it's none. 

It's carnaval in holland (it's amazing its 4 days party and weird clothes and lovely wrong music and loads of beer!!) and i cant celebrate it bc of that injury.

and you think "yes but wouldt that give you more time to write" 

no, It actually doesn't . it gives me stress and pure anxiety...which leads to staring at the wall for 3 hours straight.

also school is fucked up. I have some friends, but I don't feel like I am friends with them. it's hard to explain. I just think everyone thinks I'm a freak.  (luckily have 2 friends who i see a few times a week, who are real)

I hope you understand it's hard for me (because my sport is my life, and thats the only place I feel respected you know) and now suddently I have to stop with it, and that there's a lot on my mind rn 

For the ones who are still here, thanks!

If there's a new udpate, you'll get a notification. but stay tuned pls

-Pleun.