Hey, this is not an update.

I just want to tell you guys whats going on in my life. I don't publish fast, sorry for that but I just don't feel well.

I have mental breakdowns almost every day, and I just feel worse every day. My friends don't know about this, because the fake-smile-mask can hide a lot.
I also feel like, I dont belong here, I don't belong between the people here..,

And I don't want to feel like this, so I force myself to be happy, but at the end of the day i'm just done. done with everything. and then I think of ending my life. But I'm afraid to end it

I have no idea to solve this problem, but I just wanted to open up, so you also know why i'm so inactive.

I hope you understand x

-P