I left his house,his love,his care,everything.

Unhe samjha samjha kar thak gaye main, par wo nhi samaghte!Unki mohabbat ne mughe kamzor bna dia hai!
Tabhi to in anso'on ko kinara nhi mil raha! Shayad or der karti to inhe chor k jana na mumkin hojata!

......Kia kasoor hai tera
Mughse mohabbat karne ka.....

.....Nhi hai koi farz tera
Mughse mohabbat karne ka.....

.....Mughe nhi jeena iss jahan mein....
Jahan chah kar bhi mughe haq na ho.....

.....Tughse mohabbat karne ka.....

I fell on the stranded road,palming my face I cried bitterly.

It's my fate.I'm not made to be loved

It was dark now.The purplish-black sky was scaring me.

Ye raat ka andhera dara raha hai mughe!

Agar wo phir se aagaya tou!
Usne kaha tha k dunya k jis kone main jaaongi wahan se dhund k layega wo mughe!

Mughe unke paas ja'ana hai wahi bacha sakte hain mughe! Par main apni wajah se unhe musibat main nhi daal sakti!

Aiyaapa !!! Kyon Kia mere sath aisa?

My thoughts clouded my mind making my eyes rained.I stood up shivering.My fragile body was almost dead.

I was walking on a secluded road slowly slowly on a snails pace.

But suddenly my contact with the floor got diminished.

Somebody carried me on his shoulder.

I know who was he.

Mughe maaloom tha k dono main se koi ayega!

Meri jaan !

Ya

Meri jaan lene wala!

He was my hubby.

No ! Nandani ! You can't go back to him ! You will destroy him !

I started hitting his back with my palms but he didn't loose his grip.His hold below my buttocks was getting tight,
real tight.

"Choriye mughe!"

"I SAID LEAVE ME!" I yelled and slapped his back more hard but suddenly he pushed me on the front seat of his car.

Ek baar bhi nhi dekha unhone mughe!

My tears kept flowing.He was tieing my seatbelt.Our faces were too close.His hard breaths were fanning my face.

I squinted my teary eyes as I found a deep cut above his brow.

That's why I wanted to leave him! I'll only give him pain,nothing else.

"Jaye aap!Kyon ayen hain? Koi haq nhi hai aapka mughpe! Nhi kar sakte aap mere sath zabardasti hatiye!" I shouted while pushing his shoulders.

I was resisting.
He was trying to fasten the belt.
I wasn't allowing him to do.

But my last words and he looked in my eyes.A tear cascaded down his cheek and he pursed his lips tight,to control his aggression.

His red rimmed eyes made me shuddered and I broke the eye lock.

He stepped back and close my side of door with a bang,making me yelp.

Itne gusse mein to aaj tak nhi dekha inhe !

I didn't realise when engine was ignited and our car was crushing the poor roads.

I tried to open my side lock but it was latched.

My hubby didn't glance at me.

Ek bari bhi nhi !

Mughe jana hai ! Inke sath nhi reh sakti main!

I raised my shivering hand towards his side,to open the lock of my side door.

Before I could unlock it he held my wrist tight,imprinting his fingers on it and pushed me back at my seat.

He looked at me and my soul wobbled in fear.

"Don't! Nandani !Don't.test.my.patience!"His gritted words and I shivered.

In no time we were in front of MN mansion.

Now the count down begins!
My subconscious laughed on my poor situation.

He opened my side of door but I remained seated.

"Out!"He ordered calmly yet inquisitively.

"I won't ! Nhi rehna mughe aapke sath! Samjhe aap!"I shouted with my tears and his breaths turned more sharp.

He clenched and unclenched his fist and soon I felt myself dangling on his shoulder.

Phir se utha liya mughe....koi bachi hn kia jab man kia kandhe par dal dia!Value hi nhi hai meri!

"Dekhiye ye aap mere sath aese zabardasti nhi kar sakte!UTARIYE MUGHE!AIYAPPA!"I yelled in his ear while moving my legs trio and fro but his steel grip didn't bestow any mercy upon my shouts.

We entered in our house and he threw me in the couch.

Without glancing at me he moved towards upstairs when suddenly I held his collars from behind,turning him towards me and asked him harshly,
"Where are the divorce papers?"

His facial features tightened.

"Jala diye mene!" He shrugged my hands off his collars.

"Kia kaha aapne....? " I was shocked.

"Jala diye mene! Suna tumne! I burned those BLOODY PAPERS !GOD DAMN IT!" He barked and broke the vase which was near the stairs.

I palmed my ears and looked towards him with anger in my eyes.

"How dare you Mr malhotra!Kis haq se apne jalaya unhe? Koi haq nhi hai aapka mugh par! Main nhi rehna chahti aap k sath Sa...."I shouted but he didn't let me complete my words.

"ENOUGH !"

He walked past those broken pieces....making his feet injured. Though  he was wearing shoes but glass pieces were sharp enough to pierce the leather beneath them.

I cried but his next act made me shriek in pain.

He grabbed my head from the back and crashed his lips against mine.

Our first ever kiss became horrible.

He sucked my lips very hard and in next moment he took my plumps between his teeth,making my soft flesh secrete blood.

I cried in pain and he left my lips.He didn't look at me,he was huffing but when his eyes darted towards me,they softened.

"KAR LIA JO KARNA THA APKO ? YHI KHWAHISH THI NA APKI ? KAHA THA MAINE AAPSE K KAR LIJYE APNI HAWAS POORI PAR...."My painful words left in middle as he bellowed,

"SHUT UP !"

And then I saw his right hand which was in air.

He was about to slap me?

The thought made me shivered and I moved back with my palms curled up against my chest.

It didn't take him time to reach towards me.

I was glued with the wall,caged between his palms.

"Kia kahan tumne? Maine pehle hi kaha tha main apni mohabbat k khilaf ek lafz bhi nhi sunoon ga!Himmat bhi kese hui tumhari?"He roared but I remained quiet.

My insides were jumping in fright.

"FUCKING . HOW . DARE . YOU?"He growled and slammed his palm on the wall beside my head making me tremble.

I've to make him hate me ! I've to !

"Mein aap ko jawab dena zaroori nhi samaghti!Ajnabi hain aap mere liye.Koi haq nhi hai aapka mughse sawal karne ka!"I shouted making him more furious.

"HAQ!HAQ!HAQ! MAIN BTATA HN KIA HAQ HAI MERA TUM PE!"He hollered while grabbing my both shoulders and I whimpered.

We stared at each other for a moment.

"Ye haq hai mera!"He whispered and pointed at my bleeding lips and moved back.

There was a safe distance between us now.

And then the mansion echoed with his loud shouts.

"MENE TUMSE MOHABBAT KI
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE TUMSE ISHQ KIA
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE TUMHE APNA DIL DIA
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE TUMHE APNI DUAON MEIN MANGA
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE TUMHE KHUDA SE BHI PEHLE RAKHA,AREY KHUDA SE PEHLE KIA,MENE TUMHE APNA KHUDA MAANA
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE APNI HAR DHARKAN MEIN TUMHARA NAAM LIA
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

MENE TUMHARI SAANSON MEIN APNI SAANSON KO PANAH DENA CHAHI
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

TUMHARI AGOSH MEIN APNI AAKHRI SAANS KI KHWAHISH KI
YE HAQ HAI MERA!

AREY MENE TUMSE DEEWANGI KAR LI
YE HAQ HAI MERA!"

He broke the glass statue making the floor clothed with glass pieces.

Our fresh pearls descended down again.

He looked in my eyes and smiled as he found those emotions,those emotions which resides in his heart.

We both were sobbing.

His tears weren't stopping and his eyes weren't leaving mine due to which I averted my eyes.

"Mein bhi dekhta hn kab tak tumhara dil Pighalta nhi hai!" He smirked.

"Aap intezaar karte reh jayenge lekin mein iss dil ko kabhi mom(melt) hone ki ijazat nhi dungi!" I spoke while wiping my eyes harshly.

"Meri mohabbat pe bohot naaz (pride)hai mughe.Ye kainat gawahi degi mere intezaar ki!"He stepped towards me but stopped after listening to this,

"Par ab to hamara koi rishta hi nhi raha.Ye kainat bhi qubool nhi karegi aap k ishq ko!" I uttered without any emotions in my eyes and he smiled before bending down.

I looked at him with perplexed eyes as he picked up a broken glass piece from floor.

He placed that glass piece on his lips.

My eyes went wide and I tried to stop him "Suniye! "

He showed me his forefinger."shshshshsh"

He slashed that piece on his combine lips,resulting in deep cuts on his thin pink lips.

I closed my eyes as his lips were bleeding recklessly.

He grabbed my waist making me open my eyes.He pulled me in his chest and I felt my forehead getting wet.

He rubbed his lip where he marked his territory before.

Par farq sirf itna tha k pehle meri maang sindur se bhari thi or ab apne khoon se!

"Ab dekhta hn kaun ungli uthata hai meri jaiz mohabbat par!

Apne jism ka sab se kamzor hissa to tumhare naam kar hi chuka hn,
Aaj apne jism ka sab se nazuk hissa bhi tumhare liye cheer(to cut deeply)dia maine!

Aur hamara rishta to kabhi tuta hi nhi tha meri over smart biwi bhool gayi thi un papers ko court main submit karwana!

In honto ko to sirf tumhari tasalli k liya zakhmi kia!

Asal maqsad (aim) to tumhe apne khoon se rangna tha!"He stared in my teary eyes and the blood from his lips fell on my bleeding lips.

Our blood mixed on the most sensitive part of human existence after heart.

We were gaping at each other with fresh tears trickling down our cheeks.

Our red lips were shivering due the intensity of tears.

He left me but not before saying,
"YE HAQ HAI MERA!"

He went upstairs with bleeding feet,leaving blood stains on the floor.

For the first time I cursed my fate for blessing me with someone who loves me like a crazy.

Ab inse dur nhi jaa paongi ! Mughe  apne khoon se apna bana liya!Kis bina par inki mohabbat se inkaar (refusal) karun!

I know,

"NOW I'M MAROONED WITH HIM!"

......

Yours
NEW WANDERER!