Chapter Three:
That New Intern...

The day that I finally moved into Michael's apartment was a pretty eventful day. We got all my stuff to the apartment easily, minus the rude mover guys which Michael cussed out, obviously. We arranged the things accordingly and relaxed for the rest of the day.

Well, until I had the daunting feeling to cut again.

I became very twitchy after. Michael took notice but shrugged it off. After Michael started picking up all my signs when my depression was getting to me, I had started to develop new ones. Ones that he didn't know about yet. They had become as simple as a shiver or as complex as a bloody nose.

Don't even ask.

I got up and went into the bathroom before staring at myself in the mirror. The color was slowly returning to my skin and my eyes seemed to give away my newfound lightness.
But, I still felt as though I was falling into a deep, dark hole.

I felt the tears prick my eyes and I looked down for a moment. I closed my eyes and let the torrent of tears spill down my cheeks in an endless river of sadness.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw the cuts that were just now beginning to heal intrude my gaze. They stuck out oddly on my skin and made me grimace at the ugliness of them.

I looked away and back up at myself. Through my blurred vision I saw an apparition of what could be considered me. A happier, lighthearted version of me. I couldn't understand why I continued pretending my happiness when my entire soul and mind was screaming at me to grab the nearest knife and jab it in my throat.

Suddenly, there was a knock and all my thoughts swept out of my mind.

My one true savior. Michael Vincent Jones. The only person who could stop me from falling victim to the demons of my mind.

"Gav? You okay?" Michael asked me gently.

"Uh, yeah..." I lied. He must've heard the waver in my voice because he opened the door and looked at me.

Michael looked me dead in the eyes. He didn't bother looking anywhere else but my eyes. He held my gaze for a few moments, seeing what I would do before the pressure became too much and I let out a quiet sob.

Michael hushed me and pulled me into his tight embrace. He let me sob into his chest, not caring that my tears were quickly getting his shirt wet. He just hushed me and ran his fingers up and down my back.

After a few moments, I stopped crying and Michael led me into his room. He gently laid me down, kissing my temple before grabbing my journal and handing it to me.

"Write Gavin. Please," Michael whispered to me.

And so I did.

June 7th, 2015,

So, I moved into Michael's. It's quite nerve racking to think that this is where I'll be residing until we decide to take another step together.

Or, when we break up. Whichever comes first.

For some reason, I became very depressed for no reason. I was literally just sitting there on the couch when I suddenly felt this huge wave of thoughts come over me and I found it difficult to stay in that same spot. I also felt like I was gonna get another bloody nose and I don't think Michael was too prepared to deal with another one, so I went into the bathroom.

I cried for god knows how long. It's like every time I look at myself, I see a fake apparition of me. I don't understand why I can't just be happy. I mean, I have the greatest life possible. My past is in the past and I've already gotten through it. I'm doing the one thing that I love for a career. Well, one of things I love for a career. I don't think I'm a porn star.

I mean, I'm even showing the humor I used to in those videos that we make. The very same videos that millions of people watch and get a kick out of. Yet, I still can't be happy. It's like whenever I do, my mind tells me to stop, that I'm supposed to be upset.

I don't know anymore. I just hope this all ends soon. Whether it's from me getting better, or killing myself.

I stopped twiddling my pen across the surface of the journal, thinking I got to a pretty good stopping point. Michael walked in again and gave me a small smile, to which I returned, feeling a little better. I set the journal down and curled up next to Michael, letting sleep take me into the dark world.

...

That new intern.

I swear she's bad news.

The moment Michael and I walked into the RT building that was all I heard. Everyone was talking about her, saying she was perfect for the job.

Apparently Geoff finally found a replacement for Lindsay. He said he looked forever to find this one girl that was apparently as talented as Ray when it came to video games.

When I walked into the office, I took my seat at my usual desk, running my hands along the battered surface. Almost a perfect image of myself.

Work went slowly. Just the usual editing and screwing around we usually did. Michael, Ray and Jack debated about whether the PS4 or Xbox One was better until Geoff yelled at them to get their asses back to work.

Well, that was what happened until that young, perky face appeared in the doorway.

"Geoff, I talked to Burnie and he said it would be fine," I heard a feminine voice say behind me.

I quickly took off my headphones and turned around, staring at a beautiful young woman.
She had short, curly red hair. About the same color as Michael's. She wore what everyone wore around here, a t-shirt, jeans and converse. She had bright emerald green eyes, the same shade as mine and pale, flawless skin.

She was perfect.

Too perfect.

I noticed Ryan, Ray, Jack, and Michael's eyes go wide when she walked in. I felt my heartbeat pick up when I saw Michael watch her move across the room, interest lighting up in his eyes.

"Lads, Gents, this is Rosie. She's our newest intern. She'll be helping out around here, setting up our mics, creating schedules, and running errands for us," Geoff introduced her.

Rosie smiled at the introduction and moved forward to greet us. She shook all of our hands (I noted she had quite a firm handshake) and gave us all a flashing smile. She had pearly white teeth as well.

"So, Rosie, what brought you to RoosterTeeth?" Jack asked politely as she sat in front of us in a computer chair.

"Well, I used to live in New York, a couple hours drive from Rochester. I met Burnie there about a year ago and he offered me a job when I got out of college. So while I'm still hunting for a job, I'll be working here," Rosie smiled, making eye contact with all of us when she explained.

"What did you go to college for?" Ray asked, leaning forward a little more than he should be.

"Botany and writing," Rosie said with obvious pride dripping from her voice.

So that's how most of the day went. The Achievement Hunter guys asking question after question to Rosie. I asked a couple just so I didn't look out of the ordinary. But if I was being honest, I didn't care about her life. I didn't like her.

I didn't even have a real reason not to like her. I mean, hell she was perfect! She was just like us in every way except she was a little more decided with her life and she was actually quite intelligent.

But as I looked over at Michael and saw him eyeing her with great interest sparkling in his eyes, I knew my time with him was just about finished. I had a month with him, a whole month, and now it was time for me to let go for good.

But even though I had prepared myself for this, I found that I couldn't just let go. He was my everything. I loved him. He saved my life when no one else would. He continued hoping for my awakening when everyone else had given up.
Michael was literally the only thing keeping me alive. And without him, I was nothing. I would resort to my old harmful ways. I would pray for my death and try to speed up the process with self harming.

"Gavin?" I heard Michael whisper.

When I came back to my senses, I realized the tears streaming down my face. Rosie looked at me worriedly and the others stared at me with understanding and sympathetic looks.

When I looked over at Michael, I saw him staring at me with a concerned and worried look on his face. I stared into his eyes, not breaking eye contact and muttered two words.

"It's time."

And I ran out of the room.
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Hehe... Don't kill me! I have great plans!
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