"Why did I do this to my Kimchi?" I wondered embracing a resent towards myself. Her innocent face on the mirror I was looking at, just oiled the remorse.

Yesterday Morning<<

ME : (-gritting teeth-) What Did You Do To Her?

Mr. JANG : Calm down. It's not me; she was the one who doesn't want to remember anything about you. She doesn't remember anything from the time she was with you. (-evil chuckle-)

The clenching strain in my heart grew maliciously agonizing with each word that left his mouth. But, I was gripped more with a fury at him to say that Kimchi died that day.

With determination and not watering his weedy words, I decided on trying my best to get her back. To guide my Kimchi to where she belongs.

ME : She will remember me. (-going for the door to go outside-)

But, as soon as I reached the door, her Uncle spoke again making me stop from advancing further. I was still facing the door.

Mr. JANG : Go ahead and tell her everything. (-walking to me-) Her doctor said that if she is told about her past all of a sudden then it can give her an extreme shock and cause her to die in the worst scenario.

My fists tightened with the growing helplessness towards the situation then. I couldn't do anything but let him continue.

Mr.JANG : It's best for her to not remember anything about the past. If you want her to live, then stay away from her and do not attempt to expose her to any unnecessary feelings. It would only create greater unsettlement and confusion to her. But, if you want to put her life at stake then, do as you please.

Tears formed in my eyes, threatening to fall out any moment.

"I can't h-hurt her." I stuttered under my breath.

Mr. JANG : (-chuckles-) Let's say you told her without trusting my words. Then, what about your current family? How will you face her, when you are remarried and already have a son? I pity my poor niece, she loved you so much and you...(-scoffs-) She will be so hurt. Do you think, she will come back to you after knowing everything?

I clenched my fist on the door knob, almost breaking it off. The intensity, same as my heart that thumped in screams of frustration ruffled by his words.

Mr. JANG : Also let me remind you. You and her are no longer tied by the marriage knot.

I kept silence wanting him to land his entire point.

Mr. JANG : You have signed the divorce papers. I came to you with some documents after a few months from her accident, if you remember.

A sudden recall of that day veined through my realization. Nothing but a curse formed out at my old self for living those hours such absent mindedly.

Only if I had checked the papers then, maybe the skeptics about it would have resulted us into living a different present now.

Mr. JANG : She is soon to get married so, stay out of her life. (-patting on my shoulders-) Live well.

My already wounded soul felt walked upon at his announcement of her marriage. It was the last thing I wanted to know.

He opened the door and went out as my grip loosened on the knob. I turned around and reclined on the wall. All my strength suddenly vamoosed my body.

"She is getting married." I mumbled, trying to register the information in my system.

The tears escaped from my eyes' strong hold. Everytime I was broken to an extent I thought was my extremum, I was shattered furthermore to be proved wrong.

I was incompetent and incapable.

I was helpless.

I was a pathetic loser who failed against a malignant fate. Scholars say one writes one's own fate. Maybe I wouldn't have attempted to write mine, if I knew I was this bad at it.

I couldn't do anything for her whom I promised to gift stars, promised to love till the hereafter, promised to never leave.

However, I gifted her nothing but a betrayal. Blatantly broken all the promises and left her with someone whom she had an appalling trauma from.

My concern from her marriage had an instant shift to the other perspective that swirled around her. The hurtful past that caused her the trauma was in very close touch with her.

Nothing could align in my head of all the thoughts and emotions, I recalled from the past.
I certainly didn't want to overwhelm her with a sudden warning that would come about vague and freak her out like a cherry topping.

There was no way, I tell her the truth she was unware of nor be the one to distance her from the people harmful to her.

I was extremely flummoxed.

With all the mindful decisions and all my healthy consciousness, I made up my mind that I would stay away from her for her own good. However, I wouldn't leave her completely alone like I once did and was currently suffering the aftermath.

I got a grip of myself wiping my eyes and rushed outside to see her once again, before they left.

The sight of her had only reached my retina when Jae hyung, from his height, distracted my eyes as he ran to me. I smiled and took him in my embrace in one swift lift.

JAE HYUNG : (-pointing at her-) Appa, what is she to me?

ME : (-smile fades-) Onh? Just. Your Aunt.

I saw her bow a little towards my direction as she noticed me. But, feeling ashamed of myself to even meet her eyes anymore, I slightly bowed in response and went inside with Jae hyung.

JAE HYUNG : Emo? (-smiles-)

I nodded with a hum and smiled fixing his cap which was about to fall from his head.

JAE HYUNG : She is really nice! (-bright smile-)

ME : Ah, really? (-smiles-) Did you talk to her?

JAE HYUNG : (-nodding heavily-) I like her alot. (-smiles and whispers in my ears-) She is better than eomma.

ME : (-chuckles-) Jjashik! (-tickling his tummy-)

JAE HYUNG : (-laughing-) Appa~~

I stared at him with affection; his selfless laughter blowed all my worries and grieves away like a spell.

ME : Anyways, why did you come here? I told you not to, didn't I?

JAE HYUNG : (-hugging me by my neck-) I missed you.

ME : Aigoo... (-patting his butt-) I missed you too. (-walking to other member's room-)

*Present day*

I was snapped back to the reality by Jae hyung's squeaky familiar voice entering my makeup room.

JAE HYUNG : Appa! (-running to me-)

ME : Jae hyung-ah, careful. Why did you come here again? (-angrily-)

JAE HYUNG : (-getting on my lap-) I met Emo outside. (-sad pouts-)

ME : (-soft voice-) Then why are you sad now? (-brushing his messy hairs-)

JAE HYUNG : Emo, didn't buy me any gift for my birthday. (-sounding upset-)

JAE RA's POV

-A while ago-

I didn't realize, I was still staring unconsciously at Taehyung-ssi— wondering what caused him to be that sad.
For yet another unknown and nameless reason, I felt my inner clench in sadness. He neither looked at me nor anywhere else, his eyes were fixed right on the mirror.

Few moments later, Jae hyung entered the make-up room but didn't register my presence. He went straight to his dad and I noticed the latter's face lighting up seeing his son. Wrinkles of stress and concerns eased into his facial muscles.

Not like I intended to, I naturally happened to overhear their conversation with a few terms foreign to me.

ME : See, (-taking the present I brought-) ...this is what your Emo brought for you.

I amusingly wondered, "Emo is me?"

Jae hyung's eyes widened to see the size of the present which was decently big for him. Normally, one would expect him to be happy but he started crying as if he was very touched. I literally melted away at his innocence, if it was scientifically appropriate.

Taehyung-ssi kept the present back on the table, wiped his tears softly with the hem of his black sleeves and hugged him.

TH : It's okay. (-patting his back gently-) Appa is sorry for scolding you earlier.

That scene filled my heart with warmth and eyes with tears. Their bond wasn't only precious on the outside as evident from his posts, but had its refined delicateness from the inside as well. And very effortlessly, the same curved my lips into a smile.

I looked away to wipe my tears and my eyes fell on Jae Hyung's mother.

She stood still by the door impassively, showing no affection to them. It appeared slightly off to me.
I wondered if a mother could stand there without any emotion when her son was bawling his eyes out.

I revised my frontiers again, "Ignore it Jae Ra, it's none of your business to look at!"

And slapped my thoughts with the realization of my unnecessary nosing in matters, that didn't corcern the job I was there for.

Taehyung-ssi then released him as the little one slowly calmed down, sniffling his emotions.

TH : (-looking at Ji hae-ssi-) Take him.

JAE HYUNG : Emo will come, right? (-looking at his dad-)

TH : Yes, she will. (-smiles-)

JAE HYUNG : Don't be late Appa. I love you~ (-making an arm heart to his dad-)

TH : (-ruffling his hair-) Appa loves you more~

Taehyung-ssi warmly smiled and waved at him. While, the latter hugged his big present against his chest with his small arms wrapped around.

His wife came in and took Jae Hyung with her while I unconsciously watched them leave till they were out of my sight.

I turned my gaze back to Taehyung-ssi, only to flinch internally as I saw him already looking at me. He seemed like he wanted to say something.

TH : I-

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Is anyone actually reading this book?

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