Oh God. Why? Why is this all happening? Is this some kind if test? Why? I'm not happy. It's so difficult to just smile without thinking of my worthlessness and how I'm a failure. Who am I? Why can't I just be happy? It's been so long. It was fake, but it was bliss. Why must I live my life like this? I'm nothing to everybody. I'm just here. Invisible. Annoying. Useless. Stupid. I'm nothing. I don't stand out. I'm just here. On earth. A disappointment. Why?