i know i said i was taking a break from wattpad, but i wanted to come and let out a few things about loosing a major part of my life. 

while i am aware of some of the allegations surrounding him, liam james payne was still a member of one direction. that band was a huge influence into who i am today. that band was the reason i started wattpad (yes i was one of the OG 1D fanfic readers, back when wattpad was simple times in my opinion, but that's for another time)

i am a strong niall girl since, but in reality, i love each one direction member equally. when zayn left the band i was torn, but i still cared about that man. same with louis, harry and of course liam. 

i always appreciated the kind of person liam was in one direction and even this year with his single teardrops. i was so proud of him for coming out to share the mental health struggles he was going through. i just wished people, especially on the internet, weren't so passive with those kinds of issues. 

from this, i truly hope everyone can learn that someone may not be perfect, but that doesn't mean they are worthy to be completely gone. did liam make mistakes? yes! haven't you made mistakes? yes! I have made plenty of mistakes! Which those mistakes vary, but at the end of the day (no pun intended), we are all human beings and making mistakes is part of that experience in life! anyways, i hope that any rude comments online and in person decrease and we all do better to just be kind! it's easier said than done, but at the same time you don't know what someone might be going through. our words matter and they can be a way to support others or they can be a way to damage people and unfortunately, that can lead to a permanent consequence where you can't take it back like what happened with liam. 

liam. i am so happy you were apart of my teenage years now to my adulthood. i know that you are in a place of rest. a rest from all of those struggles that you were burdened with up till your death. i hope you're family and loved ones can be able to remember the good you brought into the world. but most of all i miss you and love you so much. 

xoxo