It's been a long time since I last write something angsty and tear jerking chapters. So , here it is ^^

Everyone has been wondering who Tetsuna is and what happened to Akashi in the past and where is Tetsuki. So here's something for you :)

Other than that, please please do review! I would be so grateful to wake up and read all your reviews!

Warning : This chapter has yet gone through beta , so please watch out for repetitive words , expression and everything else.

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As soon as he was done dressing up in more comfortable and appealing clothes, he went stopped abruptly at the stairs when his eyes caught sight of the teal haired child in the living room, leaning against the coffee table as she was scribbling something on those crumpled music sheets that she found laying around the white grand piano.

Quietly, he approached the child as he watched her jolting down notes here and there on the sheets. Oblivious to his presence behind her, she hummed a tune as she erased one of the notes on the sheets and replaced it with another one.

Akashi tilted his head as an eyebrow rose, 'Interesting...' tempted to keep on watching her, he cleared his throat, startling the child who quickly got on her two feet and hid the sheets behind her. Tetsuna's eyes glued to the carpet underneath them, finding it much more interesting than looking at him.

"Let's go." he grabs the keys from the top of the cabinets nearby and went on putting his shoes.

Tetsuna quietly nodded. When Akashi's back were facing her, she quickly stuffed the music sheets into her small handbag and went to the doorway to put on her shoes. After making sure the strap on her shoes were properly strapped, she stands up but only to be startled by the latter's cold gaze who was looking at her before he looks away.

Tetsuna blinks as she held onto her small handbag while Akashi locked the door. When he was about to make his way towards the elevator.

"Sei nii-sama?" Tetsuna brought her right hand up with glimpse of hope that he would held her small hands like her father did.

Puzzled by her action, he furrowed, "What is it?" her small shoulder fell slight as the little bluenette slowly pulls her hands back.

She shook her head, "It's nothing..."

Akashi who was oblivious to the child's intention, he merely pushed away the matter while he enters the elevator, which Tetsuna quickly went in while he held onto the door before letting it close.

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Curious eyes took several glance at the two who was sitting at the corner. A child whose hair are color of teal and sitting opposite her, was an extremely good looking man who looked similar to the renowned vocalist of the Generation of Miracles, Akashi Seijuro.

The table were deathly silent as she took a glance every now and then at the vocalist. Akashi shows no sign of interest as he took another small piece of the steak.

Tetsuna bit her lower lip before summoning each ounce of her courage to break the ice.

"Sei nii-sama, who is the pretty lady in the pictures?"

The question caught Akashi off guard as he halt abruptly from cutting the steak into smaller piece. His lips forms a straight as he furrowed, thin line while he stared at the almost half empty plate of steak in front of him. He then, puts down his knife and fork as he sipped his drink.

"She's..." he momentarily looks at child opposite him, before he continues, "...my wife."

Tetsuna blinks, "Is she busy working?"

"No. She's not." his hold on the glass tightens.

"She must be a really nice person. I wonder if my mother is as nice and pretty like her." she hummed, not knowing that she had step into a land mine, "I would love to see he-"

Akashi slammed his wine glass onto the wooden table as the water spills over. The child startled at his sudden outburst. Everyone around them stared at the crimson haired man.

Realizing he lets his mood runs wild again at the child, he sighed. It seems sighing has turning into a habit ever since this child walked into his life.

He rose his left hands, signaling for a waiter to bring the receipt. Even before the waiter reached their table, he grabbed some money from his wallet and paid for their meals, "Let's go." he tucked his right hand into his pocket and left the restaurant. Tetsuna hung her head low as her hands she quickly grabbed her small handbag and ran after the taller man as fast as she could.

The ride to the supermarket was long and silent as Akashi carefully drove down the busy streets, filled with heavy traffics. She couldn't bring herself to look at him as she stared outside while the car slowed down. The wait for the green light was long as the sound of Akashi's finger tapping on the wheel quietly broke the vibe around them.

It was seconds later when the little bluenette suddenly flinched when she heard Akashi changed the gear as he began to drive towards the supermarket after the light turns green. Quietly, she took a glance at the older man whom she called Sei nii-sama upon his request.

His crimson gaze were sharp and cold. His face void of any expression. The only expression she ever when he was upset about something she had said and done. Then, she shifts her gaze to her front as she stares at her small hands which held her skirt firmly.

Her blue orbs saddens as she looks outside, 'Daddy, I want to go home...'

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A pair of amber orbs stares at the wallpaper of his phone . The photo he took together with the little bluenette when he first received her into his arms, 'I wonder if I'm doing the right thing here...' he mused.

"Yo, Kise."

The blonde haired model finally snapped from his train of thoughts when someone tapped on his left shoulder, "What took you so long?"

"Ah, Kagami-chii...sorry. Didn't notice you were there." he stuffed his phone into the pocket of his jeans when he noticed the latter.

The dark red hair man's eyes blinked when he notice the teal haired child wasn't tagging along with the model upon reaching the airport, "Where Tetsuna? I was expecting you'd bring her along like you always did."

Kise's shoulder slightly fell as he forced a smile on his lips, "She's with...Akashi-chii..."

Then, he shifts his amber's to the taller man, "I believe it is time for Akashi-chii to accept reality. He has spent enough time alone."

The guitarist furrowed while he helped the model to carry his luggage to the counter, "Are you sure if this is what she wants you to do?"

Kise lets out a soft sigh, "I don't know, Kagami-chii..." He gaze at the blue sky spread outside the window above them, "Tetsuki-chii lived her life to the fullest when she was still alive. Now, it's Akashi-chii's turn to live his life."

"The question is - will Akashi accept Tetsuna?"

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Upon reaching the supermarket, Akashi made sure his sunglasses was on before he locks the car. Ignoring the stares the others cast at him, he grabbed a cart at the entrance and made a bee line into the alleys, "Stay close. Don't run around on your own." he noted as he grabbed a few box of cereals from the shelves.

Obediently, she followed the older man's orders as she watched him glancing at the shelves from another item to another. He grabbed a bottle of Prego brand mushroom sauce for the spaghetti while he grabs the original flavor from the shelves. He hummed as he read the ingredients list on the bottle. Then, from the corner of his eyes, he took a silent glance at the bluenette who stood a few feet away from him.

Noticing the bluenette was looking at something, he followed her line of sight until his gaze lands on a certain vanilla milkshake vendor machine nearby where a flock of kids and teenagers were getting their hands on it. An eyebrow rose as he carefully puts both bottle of the spaghetti sauce and a few packet of ready made spaghetti noodles into the cart.

He watched the bluenette who seems not to noticed his presence behind her, "Tetsuna." The child were startled when she quickly took a step behind her and shift her gaze at the floor instead of him.

"Do you want that?" he inquired.

Large sapphire orbs blinks at Akashi while she tilted her head., "That?" she cooed.

Feeling awkward, he forced a cough to clear his throat, "Vanilla milkshake. Do you want it?" Finally understanding what he was trying to say, Tetsuna quickly nodded.

He frowned, "It's not good for your health." then the child's blue orbs saddens as her smile quickly disappeared. For some reason, Tetsuna looked a whole lot smaller like that.

After a few second, "I guess.. It won't hurt if you drink it once in a while." Once again, those familiar blue orbs shines brightly as she smiled.

"Come on." he hands out his left hand as he smiled.

Blinking at the larger and calloused hands of the vocalist, then she looked at the taller man. Her smile grew bigger as she quickly held onto the man's hands.

For the first time after six years, Akashi felt the warmth of someone else hands in his. Holding him tightly, never to let go. He glanced at the bluenette. His crimson orbs softened while a small ghostly smile formed on his lips as he watched the bluenette pulling him into the small crowd.

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"Sei, please...?"

Akashi could feel a migraine was on its way as he refrained himself from increasing his volume of voice to the pouting bluenette in front of him, "I am advising you that milkshakes is not good for your health. It's a cold beverage. Your doctor has already put you in strict diet that you're not to take anything cold."

"But... It's been a long time since I had any..." she tries to reason with him.

The crimson haired guitarist knows in the end he'll give in to his beloved fiancee as he lets out a long sigh, "Just this once. However, as soon as you finished your drink, take your medicine and a warm drink." his shoulder eased down as his orbs softened, "I couldn't bear watching you going back into hospital again."

He held onto his beloved's soft hands, "I hope you understand..." his forced a smile as the bluenette looked deep into his orbs.

"I know, Sei. I understand." she returns his smile and gave him a firm grip on his hands.

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His smile fades, 'In the end... I wasn't able to give her what she wanted...' then he felt a gentle tug on his hands.

"Sei nii-sama, it's our turn!" she exclaimed as she held the cup properly in her hands. He chuckles lightly after paying for Tetsuna's shake. He watched the bluenette sipped the drink. Soft pink tints spread across her cheeks as she hummed in delight.

Then, she turns around, "Thank you, Sei nii-sama!" Sincerity and grateful filled her shining blue orbs.

He smiled once again, "You're welcome." this time it was a gentle and warm smile.

How long has it been since I last smiled...?

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**[Please start the media attached above - CLANNAD - The Palm Of A Tiny Hand]

Akashi stared at his ceiling as he listens to the sound of the clock ticking away. His left arm resting on top of his forehead as his bangs fell slightly to the side. The night has fallen and the large penthouse were deathly silent after both of them retreat for the night.

It has been a long and tiring day but it was also a good day. Tetsuna's presence somehow made his heart felt lighter. His life was nothing but filled with darkness. It stays the same until she shows up as she slowly lighten his life like a gentle and warm glow appears within the darkness of his life.

Then, he shifts to his left where the nightstand was.

Akashi's gaze soon fell onto his beloved's photo. He grabbed the frame and brought it closer to him as he stares at the Tetsuki's gentle face while he traced his thumb against the glace of the photo.

"Tetsuki, is it time...?" his crimson orbs saddens, "Is it time for me to move on...?"

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The vocalist blinks as he listens closely to the melody of the gentle piano resonates throughout the place. His crimson orbs widens when he recognize the melody. Slowly, he pushed himself up as he left the bed and exit the room quietly.

When he reached the stairs , his lips fell apart when his gaze fell onto the small bluenette.

"Impossible.." was the only thing he could utter as he watched the child gracefully played each note of the song.

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The crimson haired vocalist approached his beloved bluenette who was at the white grand piano of their penthouse."This song...you've been working on it for a long time didn't you?"

Tetsuki nodded as she gently held onto her stomach which has grown quiet a bit. She smiled, "It's a song ... for our beloved child."

"I want her to be a strong and gentle child. I want her to love the music we cherished so dearly. I want her to live her life to the fullest, no matter what she faced in life," then the pianist slash vocalist shifts her gaze to her husband, "I want her to know ..." Akashi held her hands on her stomach.

"...that we loved her forever."

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His vision slowly turns blurry as pearl of tears rolled down his cheeks,"Eh...?" he tries to wiped off the tears but more fell. He tried repeatedly but failed, failing to notice the melody has already stopped and Tetsuna was standing in front of him.

"Sei nii-sama...what's wrong...?"

He startled at the sudden voice breaking his thoughts, as he quickly turns around, "Why are you not sleeping yet? It's late." his voice cracked.

She hung her head low, "I couldn't sleep...and I didn't want to disturb your rest...that's why I ..." she trails off.

Akashi eyed the bluenette whose teal locks fell onto her shoulder. He bit his lower lip, then he turns around, facing the child.

"Where did you learn the song?"

The bluenette blinks, "From a disk that Daddy gave me. He said it was from Mummy. He said that , she created it when I was still in her tummy." she smiled, "I really love the song. Mummy must be a beautiful , gentle and kind lady to create such melody."

She sat down next to him on the stairs, "Sei nii-sama? Even though I never know how Mummy and my real Daddy looks like but I know that they loves me a lot..." her orbs shines, "... because no matter what, I loved them too! "

His orbs widens as silent tears fell. For the first time in his life, he embraced the small child tightly into his arms. He buried his face into the surprised bluenette long teal locks.

Her scent ...

Her gaze ...

Her smile ....

Her warmth ...

Everything about her ....

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Tetsuki gazed at her beloved husband as she held his wet cheeks, "Sei... No matter what happened to me ... please remember that I love you..." Akashi held her small hands tightly as tears after tears fell , he shook his head, refusing to accept reality.

"You'll be alright! I promise, I'll do everything I can to heal you! So, please! I'm begging you, Tetsuki..." he held onto his wife body, "Don't leave me..."

It was then everything changed soon after he felt his wife's gentle hands slipped from his cheeks, "Tetsuki...?" his orbs widens as he slowly shook his wife unresponsive body, "Tetsuki...wake up..."

"You promised me that the three of us will be together..." he broke down, "You promised me..."

"Tetsuki..."