• melody •

Whenever I have to appear in front of a doctor, my inside get so numb.

I start thinking the worst about everything and sometimes it could be nothing wrong at all.

But, lately I've been having terrible pains and headaches at times.

It all started after that big brawl that went down at Shang album release party.

I mess up my hands pretty bad, so that was one of the reason why I was also here to get this check up.

I started to play with the Leather seating until the sound of soft knocking, and the door knob turning caught my attention.

Placing my hands quickly into my lap I smiled as the doctor peak her head inside before fully walking in.

" good morning sweetheart, my name is doctor May how are you?"

Clearing my throat I sat up straight so that she'll know she has my undivided attention now.

" my name is melody Tatum, and I'm doing good, just been going through a lot of things within the past two months"

She nodded while getting her computer screen set up with the information that she would need on me.

" I can understand that, but it will get better in time, by the way my daughter listens to your music and I also enjoy your songs it speaks to a lot of us women who are independent"

" Im grateful that my music can do that to women it means a lot to hear that" I said while taking my eyes off of her and on to a poster with a mother holding onto her baby.

After she was all ready to go, she lean over for the clipboard that was on the counter.

" so what can I help you with today ms Tatum?"

Not even sure where to start, I figure that I'll start with the fight.

After I explain every embarrassing details of how everything came to be, and how I ended up with bruise hands she just sat there puzzled.

It was silent as she looked back over the information that I told her.

" wow, I'm so sorry to hear that melody, I want you to know that If he doesn't see how good he has it then it's his lost" she said in my defense.

I agreed but I knew it was too late for him.

He should have already known that he had it all but apparently the fame was taking over his mind.

" okay I'll will get you some medicine for those hands of yours, and I'll will also run some blood work on those pains that you been experiencing for the past couple of days"

She left me alone as she did her duties as to making sure I was good.

Finding something to get my mind off of any bad news that could possibly come my way and prayerfully there is none, I open up my instagram to see if my fans reacted to my new single I just dropped.

Then not wanting to, I completely forgot that I was still following Shang page and my face was flushed.

What was I seeing right now.

Who was this girl that he was hugging onto now.

If I wasn't already heart broken by his last encounter with Rihanna, I was definitely devastated by this new chick now.

The tears that I could feel wanting to make their way through my eyes but eventually came to an halt when the door open back up.

As doctor May came back inside she also had another doctor with her.

Not sure what was going on at the moment, me finding out about Shang and his new girlfriend was going to have to wait.

" Is everything alright?" I said nervously before placing my phone back into my pocket.

Wishing that I took another glance at my phone, it was too late as my fingers accidentally slip and hit the love button on the photo.

Shit he's going to know that I been still snooping on his page

I watch as the other doctor pulled up a chair, as doctor May remain standing.

Her face seem off then it was when i first walk in and looked a bit down.

Then I spoke again.

"You both kinda have me a bit scared is everything okay?, did my test come back with something bad?, my hands need to be registered?" I joke and they both remain silent.

Until doctor may cleared her throat.

" unfortunately melody everything is not good. It's kinda hard to explain what I'm about to tell you, so I'm going to need you to listen very, very carefully. This is hard to ever tell any of my patients"

I was anxious and right now her beating around the bush was making it even harder to get through whatever she was about to say to me.

" just tell me doctor I can handle whatever your about to tell me"

She stop as I could see the water buildup into her eyes.

" melody I'm sorry to tell you this, but your blood work came back, and your diagnosis with a very chronic illness that only allows the human body to live up to six months."

I frown my face as I was thinking that she must have been reading someone else's paperwork to me.

" no you must have that all wrong im perfectly fine" I said shaking my head to the information that I just received.

" it's true melody, and that's why I'm here."

" who are you?"

" I'm doctor March, I specialize in this type of area with patients such as yourself, and others to help them transition when the time comes"

All I could hear right now was muffled.

I didn't, I couldn't just sit here and let these doctors tell me that I've been diagnosed with an illness that will eventually kill me in six months.

Everything that I've been working so hard on, the life that I been building for myself was not all for nothing.

This couldn't be happening to me just when I start to become a star.

I was loved all around the world right now, and to have this kind of news that I won't be able to enjoy it or live pass 26 was terrifying.

Everything was now started to spin and I felt myself becoming dizzy.

" this isn't possible It can't be im healthy, I've been healthy for all my life" I explain through my cries.

" yes that could have been true, but it's just some peoples bodies that are very different from others, and at the age that you are now is the most common time that this kind of illness could hit" doctor may explain

" Im not going to believe that this is happening right now I just can't" I said in denial.

The doctor I'm sure go through this everyday with other patients who had this type of news delivered to them, so they was pretty calm with how I was reacting.

I started to cuss them out, I was started to feel angry now as if it was something that they have done to me.

I walked in here fine, and now I'm walking out with my life being taken from me in six months.

" isn't there something that you both can do to keep me from passing away?"

They both disappointedly shook their heads no.

" I'm sorry melody but if it was, we would be trying to save so many lives right now who are dealing with exactly what you have. This is also what your mother.."

" my mother?" I frown " what about my mother"

" she also was diagnosis with this exact same illness, that was one of the reason why she came to Haywood. Yeah, she talked about you a lot and I don't blame her for wanting to have spend her last weeks with you and her other children"

All I could do was look at doctor may with no sort of expressions.

I was so tired of crying I don't even think I had anymore tears left to cry.

Hearing that my mother was sick and died from the exact same thing that I just got diagnosed with was difficult to hear.

There I was giving her a hard time over dinner when she told me that she was sick and now here I am about to go through the same thing.

" could you both please just, just give me a few minutes to be alone" I whisper.

" sure dear, and will schedule you with another appointment, but instead of you being with me it will be with doctor march"

I toss my body back onto the bed balling my eyes out into the pillow.

Everything was started to flash before my eyes.

What would I tell cooper?, how would i explain this type of news to him.

How would I tell autumn?, she's been my best friend since elementary.

Then my mind kept trying to go to Shang, but he wouldn't care, his in another relationship

For now I just wanted everything to go back to normal.

When I leave this hospital I will keep what I know a secret until I feel when the time is right to let anyone know.

But who will be the first to know?