Melodys POV

"Hey Mel!" My best friend Cassidy smiles skipping up to me. 

"Hi!" I smile "Have you heard anything yet?" 

"Nope, no call yet" Cassidy frowns

"Don't worry about it, you'll get in for sure" I assure. 

"You don't know that" Cassidy says, rolling her eyes. 

"No, But I know you and how amazing you are" I state "And who knows, they might be waiting for you to get out of school, it's the last day of school! Enjoy it" 

"I'll try, but I doubt it'll happen" Cassidy states. 

I roll my eyes as we walk to the cafeteria to eat lunch. 

We spot our friends at a booth and we walk over to them. 

"Hey guys!" I smile as I sit next to Kendall. 

"Hi!" Kendall and Aubree say at the same time. 

"Scary" Cassidy nods. 

"I have made up our summer bucket list!" Aubree announces. 

"Of course you have" Kendall rolls her eyes. 

"We got this, and I added the ones we didn't get done last summer" Aubree explains. 

"What are we starting with?" I ask. 

"Tommarow we are going  to have a spa day!" Aubree squeals. 

"Yes!" I smile "That sounds like the perfect way to start our summer!" 

"Exactly why it's first and then from there on...it's all random!" Aubree states, taking a bite of her sandwich. 

"What time tommarow?" I ask.

"Meet at my house at 2" Aubree says. 

I nod and take a sip of water. 

At my old school I had a lot of friends. But my best friends were Kendall Olson, Aubree Harrison, And Cassidy Daren. They were there for me through eveyrthing. Crushes, break-ups, shows...everything. I was pretty popular so I had several other "friends" You know...the fake kind. But these three were just....the best.

A phone vibrates and we all look at ours, but it was Cassidys. 

She looked at the caller ID and her mouth dropped "It's them!" 

"Answer it!" I gasp. 

She answers the phone and we see a big smile spread on her face. 

"Thank you so much! I'll see you then....okay, bye!" She hangs up and looks at us "I got the part!" 

We all gasp and smile. 

"That's amazing" 

"I knew you would get in" 

"Congrats" I smile. 

"Thanks guys! I'm so excited!" Cassidy smiles. 

Cassidy and I were the closest. We would always sing together and annoy the crap out of our parents. However, she was more in the spotlight, with being in shows she knew a lot of people, people I got along with better then the other people I hung out with. I stayed in her track and went with the flow. It was kind of my thing. 

"Do we have to go?" I ask my parents as i get into the back seat. 

"Yes, I know you don't want to, but their your family" My mom explains. 

"Yeah...my family" I mumble. 

"Melody...just try and be positive"  My dad says getting into the drivers seat. 

I was close with my family but only for one reason, I didn't really talk much...where around my parents and friends I'm upbeat and happy. I keep to myself at family events. I love my family, and I'm sure they love me...but we aren't interested in the same things, I like music, they like sports. 

"I know you have trouble connecting with them-" 

"I have trouble? Sure, I go to every sport event they play in and they still treat me like a misfit...like I don't belong" I rant. 

"Melody they love you" My dad assures. 

"I know" I sigh "It's just hard" 

My mom nods as we pull out of the drive-way and start our drive to my cousins house. 

Little did I know...we wouldn't be making it there. We never did. I can still hear the sound of glass breaking when I'm laying in bed at night. It's scary.

I also didn't know that three months later I would be sitting in a hospital waiting room for the same reason. 

He got into a crash. 

It's been a day since it happened. 

One of his teammates called me and told me, and when he did, it felt like my heart stopped. 

His parents were in the room with him, they said he woke up around midnight. 

I needed to know he was okay. 

They said I could see him soon. 

So here I am. 

I'm not the one in the hospital bed this time, I'm the one in the waiting room bouncing my knee up and down worried.

Cassidy said I would never know the fear of knowing someone you care about is in the hospital. 

 She was wrong. 

But i knew a different kind of fear. 

I knew the fear of someone you love being at a different hospital because they had to be airlifted from the scene. 

I knew the fear of knowing that your parents were on life support while you were sitting up with a few injures. 

 Time goes slow sitting in a white room in a white bed with nurses constently checking on you, but you just sit there and stare at the wall because you're afraid of turning on the TV and seeing a news report about the crash. 

Now it's James sitting in that bed. 

It's James staring at the wall while nurses check on him. 

It's James sitting there while his family is worried sick about him. 

I can't imagin what his mom is thinking. 

I saw his mom walk in here with Ryan. 

Ryan didn't know what was really going on, and I felt so bad for him. 

All he knew is that his mom was crying and James never came home.

And I wanted to punch the doctors who wouldn't let them see James. 

When he woke up they let his mom go in, but Ryan stayed out with me. 

He asked a lot of questions...but I didn't answer any. 

His mom would have to explain. 

He asked me why his mom was crying, he asked where James was, and he asked why I was crying. 

He could tell something was wrong. 

I know how Cassidy felt now. 

Sitting here and not being able to see your best friend after something horrible happened is just...

I can't put it into words. 

I guess that's why they say tears are words you can't say.