Chapter 7: Questions
"Do you think.. Even if you are stable, will they let you go?"
"Stable or not... To others this place keeps them cure, to me it's a prison made.. I have to spend the rest of my life here." Jimin claimed as he looked at the cat. "I wish I was a calico cat... So I can be free and leave this place." Jimin said. Suddenly he can feel tears want to escape but then he shook his head quickly. "L-Let's change the conversation..." Jimin said turning away from Jungkook's stare so the younger wouldn't see him close to crying.
"Why are you here..?" Jungkook asked as Jimin stayed silent.
"I won't tell you... I just need to know if you are going to come back and talk to me again..and again...and again. I can't tell you now and I won't. I already said it.. I only tell those who are very close to me. So far? I have no one to talk to."
"But you have me.."
"I just met you, what if you leave forever one day and I'll just stay here wondering if you'll ever come back? I don't want to be friends if you only want to be here for a short time."
"Jimin... I'll come here everyday for you! You won't be lonely, I will be here but at times I'm not sure if I can show up since my father has his days off." Jungkook claimed. At times, his father would have the days off and that will just ruin his everyday visits to Jimin.
"You can volunteer.... Only if you want to." Jimin said walking up to the window so he can sit on the window seat and look out into the sky.
"I will..." Jungkook said as he can see Jimin smile. This is what he wanted.. He wanted a friend to be there for him and Jungkook was trying his best to meet the older boy's expectations. "Jimin?" Jungkook asked sitting up at the bed and looked at the gorgeous man by the window.
Jimin had his head on the window and let out a hum. "Hm?"
"...Do you know anything about love?" Jungkook asked.
"What an odd question." Jimin let out a cute giggle. "No... I don't really know much about love. Taken by the fact that I had a girlfriend that once cheated on me... I couldn't see the signs and she left because I didn't care much about her... I was the flaw in that relationship." Jimin sighed.
"I never... Had a girlfriend in my life.. Or a boyfriend.."
Jimin looked at Jungkook and blinked. "You like the same gender?"
"That... I don't know. At times, I find myself liking a boy but then I barely know anything about love and him.. So I'm like an on and off switch when it comes to that." Jungkook said. "Do you ever hope to find love?"
"Love..." Jimin then began to chuckle. "Love only makes people feel happy... I find glee at just sitting here writing in my book. At the end of the day, theres no one in this Mental Hospital for me... and I'm pretty sure I don't need one. At this moment, I don't want a lover... I want a friend."
"Why is that?" Jungkook asked. Jungkook was actually getting Jimin to talk about feelings and the patient didn't realize it at all!
"My past relationships... I won't be able to give you what you want.." Jimin whispered and suddenly his eyes widened and covered his mouth. "I-I meant t-them! I won't be able to give THEM what THEY want.." Jimin rephrased his words as Jungkook let out a laugh.
"I feel loved~" Jungkook joked around as Jimin's face grew red from embarrassment. "I'll stop teasing you." Jungkook let out a laugh making Jimin's embarrassed face fade into a smile. "All jokes aside, why do you feel like that?"
"I didn't give them what they wanted.. They wanted to hold hands.. I stayed and kept writing in my books. I told her I loved her... But she didn't see it. I didn't really treat most of my girlfriends like the way you would see it in a movie." Jimin held the cat close and looked at Jungkook. "Will you find love for yourself, Jungkook?"
"... No. I have the rest of my life to find love but now? I have nothing at the moment."
"There are different types of love, Jungkook. Love from friends, family, or even neighbors and relationships." Jimin watched how the calico cat fell asleep in his arms. "You have love all around you! You don't need to force yourself to find it if you already have it." Jimin claimed.
Jimin seemed very wise when it came to advising Jungkook about anything. Jimin was kept in Mental Hospitals for a long time now, this only gave him time to think of his regrets and happiness in life. Jimin felt himself getting sleepy while holding the cute cat in his arms so, Jungkook stood up from Jimin's bed and walked to the sleepy patient.
"Sleepy?"
Jimin nodded as he loosened his grip on the cat as it woke up to let out a cute meow. Jimin smiled sleepily as Jungkook wanted to help Jimin to bed but he wasn't sure if he should carry him.
"Jimin? Can I take you to bed?" Jungkook asked as Jimin shook his head and stood up.
"I can do it.." Jimin yawned and got onto the bed, slipping himself into the covers and laying back onto the comfy white pillows.
"I'll let you sleep.." Jungkook said as he picked the cat up and began to walk to the door when he heard Jimin sit up.
"When will you be back?" Jimin asked as Jungkook looked back at the patient.
"Tomorrow.. I promise." Jungkook smiled as he waved with Sun's little white paws.
Jimin looked down nodding. The older boy seemed let down but he hoped to see Jungkook again tomorrow. Their time was cut short just because Jimin was sleepy and Jimin hated that.
As Jungkook stepped out the room and was close to shutting the door, he heard Jimin say something under his breath. "Please don't go..."
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