Michael and i were practicing our vocals then his phone starts ringing, he says ''hello, jender'' ''hey michael, im sorry to break it to you but ryan is gone'' ''what do you mean by gone'' ''the lord has taken ryan, ryan is dead'' ''what? no he cant be! he was my best friend'' ''michael its ok, he is in a better place, his visitation is on friday and his funeral is on sunday'' ''ok ill try to come if im not busy but im going to arange my schedule jender ok bye'' then i look at michael saying ''what wrong'' ''my friend Ryan White just passed away at the age of 18 due to AIDS disease'' then michael starts crying ''its ok michael he is with the lord the creator of us'' then michael says ''can you hold me and can you be my girl'' ''then yes i will hold you and yes ill be your girl'' then i hold michael. i felt his pain, my dad has abused me for 3 years since my mom death so i miss my mum and i hurt i just dont know if i want to tell him that i get abused.