Faded and broken
Not knowing who to turn to.
I’m supposed to turn to you
But you’re the one who brought me to
this state.

Spewing words of hate
Not meaning any of it but not knowing
how to stop it.
This is verbal vomit.

My minds flying around like a comet,
Not knowing when the force of this will quit.
I turn to God but I’m too stubborn to let Him
do what he says He’ll do.

Being attacked from the inside out
How do I make it out?
How do I set my soul free
of this torture that’s befell upon me?

Try to be a supportive wife
But it comes across as strife.
Try to be a super mom
but it doesn’t work out.

Try to reach my goals
but continue to keep getting knocked down
Over and Over and Over again.
This is getting old.

Tell me how?!
How do I do it?
Choked up with this stuff
Snot pouring, eyes heavy

Hyperventilating…

That’s the panic.
Anxiety at an all time high;
I just can’t seem to figure it out
Tell me How?!

Too many nights have I shed these tears
Too many nights and so many years.
How do I break through?
Break through the glass of the past.

It’s so thick
It makes me sick
Not knowing How…
Somebody, Anybody Tell Me How?!