Alexis had never been homophobic. At one point in her life she was close to a bisexual guy and she knew that despite the color of your skin, your sexuality, your religion and your past, she would place no judgment.

It's almost different being said, but experiencing it though, that was different. She wasn't ready, that was for sure.

"Lexy?" Zach called out slowly waving a hand in front of Alexis' face.

She blinked rapidly realizing she had gone mute for almost a minute or two without uttering a single word.

"Are you mad at me?" Zach asked. His voice was shaky.

She breathed. "No. Of course not. It's just- I didn't expect that at all."

"I'm sorry." He ran his hand through his hair almost for the hundred time that night.

"What about all those girls?" She asked stupidly.

He scratched his head. "I just wanted to tell myself that what I was feeling was dumb. I didn't want to accept what I already knew. So dating all these girls just- well let's just say I was confused at what I was feeling so I just needed to distract myself I guess. I'm sorry. It's dumb."

She moved up slightly and turned her body around so she could now face her brother. "Don't be. And thank you so much for trusting me with this. Does anyone else know?"

He sighed and chuckled. "Well, Natalie and Mikey have no idea but Zoe knows. And so does all my friends."

She blinked and punched him. "So I'm the last person to know?"

He groaned in pain and chuckled slowly. "Yeah. It was kind of hard to tell you."

"Wow," She nodded her head. "Oh the trust."

He smiled and then his face went serious within seconds after. "It's not that I don't trust you, it's just that it was a little harder to tell someone who's been there for you all your life. It was easier to come out to all my friends because I didn't know them that well and so even if they left, it wouldn't hurt. Same goes for Zoe because I just wanted someone to talk too. But for you, I just couldn't say it. Even being around you was hard. You can pretend in front of everybody but that one person; you just can't. I didn't want you to see me any other way if I told you because Alexis," He exhaled and then hung his head. "I am terrified to lose you."

Alexis didn't say anything except pull him in for a hug. She held him tight as he started to cry.

"You're never gonna loose me Zach. You coming out isn't going to change that fact that you are still the same person. You're still my brother. You're still my Zach. You're still you."