Present Day

Los Angeles

I actually feel sick.

I can't sit down.

I can't stand still without pacing back and forth.

I can't think straight.

I'm so fucking nervous.

I'm a total mess.

I really hope she turns up.

My life will come crashing down if I get on this plane alone and without her.

I left my life in her hands and I hope she makes the right decision.

The decision to come to L.A and be with me.

I know I fucked up but so did she. I just want to put all that shit behind us and start again.

I will respect her decision if she decides not too, but I don't know if I can live a whole year without her. I don't even want to find out.

I look at my watch for the tenth time. It's 3.15, the flight is due to leave at 5pm and I'm going to wait to the last possible moment before I step on that plane.

With or without her.

I pray to fucking god that it's with her.

I knew from the moment I laid eyes on Ava the first night in Radleys that she was going to turn my whole life upside down.

She was unlike any other girl I've ever stumbled across before. She's absolutely beautiful but is totally unaware of it. The only girl that has ever intrigued me. She was shy, cute and awkward, in a good way.

The night I met her I couldn't help but look at her every chance I got. The way she played with the ends of her hair whilst Skye was babbling about god knows what and then she would look up at me with those beautiful eyes, catch me staring and a rosy glow would spread across her cheeks.

Liam actually saw her first and I didn't pay much attention until I bumped into her by accident, well more like she bumped into me as I was heading towards the bar. As soon as I saw her face properly my heart was racing and I knew I couldn't let Liam be the one that caught her interest. Skye is definitely more his type anyway, thankfully.

Finally taking a seat I pull out my phone and I find myself looking through her social media.

She's so fucking beautiful and she doesn't even have to try. She was so happy this day, non stop smiling, giggling all the time, making jokes just being her usual self and I loved it. Its days like this I cherish the most.

She's the love of my life. I feel like I can't breathe without her.

I need her.

I'll never make stupid mistakes and hurt her ever again I will promise her that for the rest of our lives.

I look at the time on my phone, I must have been stalking her for a long time as it's almost 4pm.

1hr to go and there's still no sign of her. My heart is aching at the thought of her not showing up.

But I'm not ready to give up hope just yet.

I wish it was like the movies, tv shows and romance books. The significant other comes rushing through the airport at the last possible minute, declaring their love for one another and saying they can't live without each other, living happily ever after.

Rachel does it to Ross, granted that was an epic fail because he ended up coming back with Julie and Rachel was devastated. But then Ross goes to Rachel, wrong airport at first but it worked in the end when Pheobe told her to get off the plane because of the left phalange.

I pick the stupidest scenarios to compare my life too.

Unfortunately real life isn't like what you see on television or read in your favourite novels.

Love is the worst but also the best feeling in the world.

I look at the time again.

C'mon Ava, I know you can make the right decision baby.

Please.

"Harry?" Hunter's voice calls out and startles me, knocking me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I say rubbing my eyes and looking over at him.

"You alright mate? You were in some like trippy trance staring at a photo of some chick. She's pretty hot though." He says peering across my lap, towards my screen trying to get another glance but I move my phone before he could get a look in. "Who is that? Like a Victoria secret model or some shit?"

"No." I scowl. "It doesn't matter."

"Well your going to be fun on this trip aren't you?" He says rolling his eyes slouching back in his chair.

Hunter is an annoying little shit, well not little he is the same size as me, older then me too. When my agent can't make trips, he sends in an irritating stand in, aka Hunter.

I try to ignore him most of the time but he makes it a fucking hard job.

Our flight has been delayed for 3 hours so after grabbing a coffee we have been sitting around the airport doing nothing and I'm bored out of my fucking mind.

I should have asked Amy to come and I would have at least got a decent blow job in a closet somewhere to hurry the time along.

I don't know how but my fingers have disobeyed me and have unblocked Ava off of my social media. Stupidly I've been scrolling through her Instagram pictures and I've been found myself staring at one in particular and it reminding me of our situation in an airport 2 years ago.

I look at the phone one more time before exiting the Instagram app, shoving my phone back into my pocket.

She's all loved up with someone else and I'm still wallowing in my own fucking misery over her.

I'm a fucking idiot right?

I bet she hasn't even thought about me once since her and asshole Aaron got together. He isn't even an asshole- fuck, actually he stole my girl so yes he is an asshole. Probably made a move on her as soon as she broke up with me. Fucker most likely didn't even wait an hour.

He is fucking perfect for her and that makes it even worse.

Why am I thinking about this? I'm just going to piss myself off even more.

"Styles?" Hunter hits the arm rest beside making me jump again. He is so fucking lucky that I didn't punch him in his stupid face for being a dick. "You're doing it again man. Drifting off into your own world. Has this girl got like 3 nipples or something? What's so special about her?"

"Carry on asking fucking questions and I will rip your head right off your fucking neck. I am not in the mood for your shit. I will leave you in this fucking airport and make this trip on my own." I snap.

He pisses me off so much.

"Actually I didn't even want to go on the trip in the first place, so you can tell Barrow to shove it up his ass." I stand up reaching for my bag before hunter jumps in front of me.

"Okay, okay." He says raising his hands in the air in defence. "I won't mention it again I promise. Just sit back down, please. I'll be on my best behaviour, it was just a joke. You're clearly in a bad mood so I'll just leave you alone. But you have to make this trip. You need an album cover and we are working with a highly recommended photography studio so there's no way you can back out now. Barrow will kill me if I let you leave."

"Sounds like a fucking great idea to me." Without saying another word I glare at him and sit back down.

He better keep his promise and not say a fucking word to me the whole way to New York or he will be more then sorry.

Actually I hope he doesn't say anything the whole 4 fucking days we are there.

4 days?

Why would taking a couple of photos for an album, which by the way hasn't even been put together yet, take 4 fucking days?

I'm starting to regret even coming to LA in the first place. When Barrow gave me this opportunity I immediately wanted to say no because of Ava but the boys got it into my mind that it would be the best decision to say yes and look where's that's got me in the 2 years.

An unreleased, half finished album and a broken fucking heart.

Thanks boys.

A/N

Short chapter but I just felt like it needed an update as it's been a while.

It's time for Ava and harry to see each other...

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